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Hi this my story of struggle with liking girls. (I'm a girl) It was in fourth grade when I started liking girls, I had a crush on a taller girl who became my friend. One day my friends and I were talking about sexualities and I said I was Bi and my crush said she was Bi too. When we were walking to the bus stop that day she whispered to me that she liked me too. Her and I started dating in fifth and then she broke it off for a Canadian boy, twice.

My old boyfriend and I got together and I tried to tell myself that I was straight because two girls on my bus and a boy in fifth were bullying me about dating girls, I soon broke it off with him because he didn't talk to me at all.

So when my friends and I moved to sixth, I started dating my other friend who became my life soon after. We broke it off because it wasn't working too well.

I got back together with my old crush/girlfriend, she wasn't very kind with my other friends including my recent ex. Plus my recent ex was texting me and trying to get me back to her. I fell into depression soon after. I wasn't happy with the relationship between my current/old crush because she didn't respect my friends and my recent ex was in depression too. I tried to break it off with the crush but she guilt tripped me back in but a few weeks later she and I broke it off.

That leads to today were I'm in a happy relationship with my ex/ current girlfriend and she is my world. I'm halfway out of the closet. My parents don't know and sometimes I question myself about if I really am a lesbian but I know if I try to tell myself that I'm straight again, I'll suffer more. I'm still a bit confused about my life but I know I have time to decide. I just know that my friends will be there to support me no matter what and I love them for that. Thank you for reading my experience with confusion.