I need to clear my mind, whenever I am stressed or nervous, I walk and think

Its been an hour since I'm walking and I'm already late, deciding to go to the office as I have to face Xander anyhow.

It was 9:45 when I reached my cabin, I was about to sit just then Xander's Secretary came and told me that he is asking for me.

Taking a deep breath, I knock his door but no one answered instead a hand pulled me inside,

Before I realised what happened he trapped me between the wall and him.

I don't have enough courage to look at him, so keeping my head low I started speaking, more like stuttering

"Sorry, late.. am I" I said trying to form a sentence but failed miserably

"Sia, Look at me when we are talking" he said very slowly coming more closer that his breathe was fanning my face

"I-I-I late am" I again said but still with my head down as I don't have enough guts to look into his eyes.

"LOOK . AT . ME . WHILE . TALKING" he said sternly this time

But the dimwit person I'm, I still didn't look into his eyes because I'm afraid

"you aren't going to look at me, fine. Now, Don't blame me for this-" saying this he again slammed his lips with mine

He was kissing very roughly like he is angry or something, I am still not over from the morning kiss now he is again kissing me.

He started nibbling my lips and suddenly bite my lips very hard that I'm sure it started bleeding which causes me to open my mouth and he entered his tongue.

I was out of breath and tried to stop him but I'm trapped in his mercy.

After few minutes he left me and with his finger on my chin he pulled my face up so that he can see my face

I was red and out of breath and what not

" If you will not look at me while you talk, then this is going to happen everytime, no matter where we are, understood??" He asked me

I nodded

He grabbed my waist and said "words Sia"

"Y-yes, Understood" I said

This time I looked into his eyes

Saying hmm, he started grazing my lower lips which must be swollen and he wipe the blood from my lips

Bending down he again pecked me at the corner of my lips and then went to sit on his chair like nothing happened.

"Umm ok then, go. Will meet you during lunch" he said with his eyes on laptop

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I left from there and went to my cabin to breath and calm myself.

He always do stuffs which shocked me to the core but still I like him way too much

He is handsome and kind, sometimes intimidating

'am I falling for him! No,no this can't be true'

'but according to what Cat, my cousin told about Love, I'm falling way too hard for him'

' but no no I'm not'

"Sia, Sia" someone shook my arms and thats when I came out of my thoughts only to see Xander Angry, Very angry

"Y-Ye-Yes, sorry I did-didn't hear y-you" I started stammering

"Of course you were not hearing, you were busy with your cheap tricks so that I can lose my fucking Deal for which I worked my ass off" he shouted on my face

I was shocked, he never spoke to me like this

" Its 12:30 pm, everyone is calling you from an hour or so but our little princess is in her own dream land" he said like he disgusts me

God, what have I done!

"Xan-Xander Sorry, I-I..." I wasn't able to complete my sentence because of my hiccupping and sobbing

"Shut up,just shut up... I don't want to hear your pathetic crying voice" he yelled on my face

"O-ohk" I said timidly

Just then Xander's phone went off and he picked up the phone and left my cabin

Few minutes later he came back and I was still at the same place sobbing

"I got the deal back" he said and took a deep breathe and came towards me

Taking my hands he pulled me towards his cabin and made me sit on the sofa beside him

I was still sobbing when a pair of hands pulled me and I landed on his lap

"Sshh....sshh its ok" he said patting my hair

I pushed my head in his chest and continued sobbing

While he was only patting my hair and saying calming words

"Sia, Its fine. I shouldn't have shouted on you like that its just that I was working on that deal from past 2 years" he said

While I just sobbed in his chest and he continued

"I Don't know how to control my anger, I know I'm very bad but I really need you" he said slowly pulling me more close

We just sat in that position

I don't want him to feel bad and low because he is the person who made me feel special

"Its Ok Xander, I-I'm sorry. Next time I won't do such mistakes" I said without stammering this time

"I'm there for you, Xander" I said slowly in his chest

he didn't said anything but pulled me more

After sometime,he spoke "come on, lets have lunch"

I nodded and was about to stand, but he pulled me again and I fell on his lap

"What did I told you in the morning about answering" he asked

"Not... nothing" I told him confused

"I told you that I'm going to kiss you if you won't answer me" he said looked at my lips

"N...no, you didn't said this for answering, you said for looking at you while talking" I spoke in a go

He smirked

" You have a sharp memory, huh??" He asked

" Just add this one also, and I'm going to add few later, get used to it" he said and without waiting for my reply he again kissed me

God, why he has to be so sudden all the time!

My first, second & third kiss!

I tried to pull back but he grabbed my face keeping it in a place in a way that I can't even move an inch

He left after sometime and gathering some courage I spoke "Xan-Xander we we can't do th-this"

"Do what, Sia?" He ask with a teasing smile

"This umm you me...umm" I wasn't able to spell kiss

he again gave me a peck at the corner of my lips saying " are you talking about this"

I was red

"Oh seems like you don't know how to spell kiss, let me tell you a different defination"

Saying this he again came to my lips in a way that our lips are almost touching and then he spoke

" Our lips are about to met each other and I'm resisting myself to kiss you hard, very hard" he spoke huskily

I couldn't register anything because of the proximity

In all this chaos I was still sitting on his laps with his hands encircling my waist

I am already a very awkward and shy person and he is not helping

So, I said "l-lun-lunch"

He gave me an irritating look and said "fine, madam"

finally I'm up from his lap

God I need to breathe!

We had lunch comfortably, the thing with Xander is he always try to comfort me which really helps me to not think about negative stuffs

I came to my cabin after lunch and started working

Few hours later I feel like someone is staring at me and there stood Xander

He was not staring, he was glaring at me like if given a chance he will kill me, right there

I got scared because I seriously don't know what happened

I decided to ask him " Xan-Xander Sorry, what did I do?" I said slowly

Hearing my voice his whole expression get changed into a kind one

"W..what" he asked

"Yo..you were glaring, did I do something wrong again" I asked

"No, no you didn't its just that I was thinking something" he said

I made a confused face

"whenever I think something, my face become like I'm glaring" he said casually

"Oh" I said

What a weird habit!

"Anyway I came here to tell you that lets go" he said looking at the watch

With this we both walk towards the elevator

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Little did she know that everything is a lie, he was not Thinking, he was glaring and if given a chance he would've kill her right there.

Sia is way too innocent for the twisted Xander's mind

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Sorry for the mistakes

Xoxo,

Marbil