Sorry for the mistakes

Xander's Pov

I wasn't in a position to do any work so, I left office as right now I need Sia's letters

Reaching the house the very first thing I did was to open the memory book and take out the letter no. 9 " Open When you need to Calm down "

The letter said:

"

Hey there my Star,

Why so stressed?

Everything's gonna be fine, the situation you're in currently is temporary. You are stronger than all this Chaos and I have a full believe in you.

Fine , if you still not able to calm down then look at this picture of mine attached with the letter. See I'm there with you.

Xander, You might not find me physically but I'm with you in your every steps supporting you, cheering for you and applauding for you.

Now, its time for your smile.

Gimme your perfect smile!

No, no not like this

I want to see your teeths baby

Yes, that's like my Xander

Yours and only yours,

Sia

"

' I'm sorry ' I mumbled looking at her photo attached, after reading the letter.

' she's with you, X' I thought

'she's with you'

" I promise you Sia, that I'll do everything to repent my sins. I'll bring back the old you before I leave " I said with a determination

With this I put her picture in my wallet not before kissing the picture

Just then Cole texted me to come over, sighing I put the book safely and then left to Cole's.

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" Yup man, what's the matter " I said reaching to Cole's only to see both of my best friends are talking

" Ohh so now if I want to spend time with my best friends, I need a matter. Nice X" Cole said faking hurt

" And the Classic Cole is back " I rolled my eyes and sit on one of the the vacant couch.

" what's up? We are meeting after a week or so " Kyle said

" Nothing, was just busy with office. What about you guys " I asked

For the time being, I decided not to talk about Sia with them until and unless they asked me because everytime I talk they give me this strange look which says we didn't believe you.

" Nothing man, Just the same " Cole said followed by Kyle

" Fine! I called you here to have an exclusive Cigar " Cole winked

" And that too 101 years preserved " he added further

" Woahhh man, I've been craving for some good stuffs " Kyle exclaimed

" Umm I'm sorry guys but I can't have that " I said looking away

" What, why? " They both asked at the same time

I didn't know what to say instead of the truth because they know I never say no for smoking

" She don't like when I drink " I mumbled inaudibly but they unfortunately they both heard.

" Who, X? " Kyle asked confusedly

Before I could say anything Cole stated " Sia "

" What? Why? I mean she isn't even talking to you and moreover she isn't present here " Kyle reasoned

" But whenever she will talk, I don't want to lie. You guys can have it, I'm here only " I said and looked at them.

Both of them looked at me like I've grown two head and then suddenly Kyle stated " You love her "

" What, no. Are you mad?" I said defensively

" You do. " Cole also said

' love, do I? ' I asked myself

Love Sia?

" I love her " I stated with realisation

" Fuck, I love her " I said

" I love Sia " I said looking at Kyle and Cole

Finally this time they didn't look doubtful instead they smiled

" I-I lover her " I again said

" We know, we know this from a looong time " Cole replied

I smiled excitedly but then remember the situation is not a simple one.

The smile drained off my face, I looked at them and said " But it doesn't matter now. I fucked up big time and Sia will be happy only when she leave me "

" What? Are you mad? I know you did the worst but she loves you Man, unconditionally " Cole said

" Loved, loved me in the past tense and I fucked that " I said

" X, don't lose hope. She will come back " Kyle said

" No, no. I'm not good enough for her, she deserve all the happiness in the world and I gave her nothing but humiliation " I said sadly

" So, what you're gonna do now? " Cole asked after a few minutes of silence

" The day she will complete her therapy successfully, I'll leave " I said with unshed tears

" She's so stubborn, you know. I can't leave now " I added smiling sadly remembering her stubbornness

No one said a word for sometime, I looked at my friends they also have the sad look on their face, I sighed

" Guys, Come on. Its time to celebrate as I realised that I love Sia so so so much " I said smiling

" I mean Me, The most evil guy can love somebody is such a shocker news. Cole, go on get the stuffs " I laughed a little

Cole was still in shocked so I nudged him

We drink our respective drinks, no one smoked and just like that we talk about life for the first time.

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I was busy talking with my friends and didn't realised that its already 5.

" Fuck, its 5. I gotta go as we have to go at some formal party " Saying this I bid adieu and left.

I was about to reach home when I received a call from Leonard, Sia's assistant

" What? " I asked rudely as I wasn't in mood to talk with anyone right now

" Umm sorry sor-sorry to dist-disturb you sir, but I-I thought you should be in-informed- " Leonard said stammering, so I interrupted him

God!

" Come straight to the point, what's the matter? just speak? " I said

" Sir, uhh Ma'am, Sia Ma'am is not in off-office " he said timidly

" Not in office? Its ok she would have gone home " I said

" Umm no Sir, Jade is here and she isn't at your house also " he said and I stopped the car

Tbe car stopped with a screech sound " what? What do you mean by she isn't at home " I shouted

" Sir, S-sir she She- " he again started stammering

" Shut up, just shut up. You know right the only responsibility I gave you is to look after her. Give the fucking phone to Jade " I roared

" Hello Sir " Jade said

" Fuck with your hello, where is Sia. Did you checked her mom's house? " I asked

" y-Yes Sir, we did " he said

" Listen to me Carefully, very carefully. I need her infront of my eyes in 30 minutes otherwise it won't be good for anyone of you. Ok? " I shouted

" Yes-yes Sir, my team is already searching for her " Jade informed me

With this I cut the call.

Where is she? Did she left me already? I- I want her to be safe.

What-what if she isn't safe?

I started driving rashly, checking wherever I could but found no lead

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Its been an hour and half since I got to know about Sia, and still I don't have any idea where is she?

Where are you?

I was driving just then I got a call from one of my guard " Sir, We have traced Ma'am "

" Then what are you waiting for , speak up? " I yelled

"I-uh I texted you the address" he said

He texted me the address and I took a U-turn, driving the car as fast as I could

Reaching the location, I looked here and there only to find Sia standing and looking no where in particular.

It felt like I got my oxygen back.

Stopping the Car, I ran towards her and hugged her tightly, she became a bit startled by the sudden hug, I think

" Where were you? Huh? Are you mad? " I shouted to which she Just looked away

" Do you have any idea how much worried I was? What if something would have happened to you, Sia? " I asked with tears in my eyes

" You don't need to act, Sir " she said looking at me

Ignoring her words, I frantically checked her from top to bottom for any injury but thankfully there were none

" Come lets go" I said grabbing her hands but she didn't moved

" I will go by the way I came " she said

" What? Look its about to get dark and this area is also so Strange " I said

But as usual she didn't gave any heed to my words

Pulling her closer, I said " you know what Sia. If you want to think that I'm acting then let it be the acting only but I'm not leaving you alone here. I mean just look around, there-"

I was about to speak about the place but I stopped when I saw just behind Sia.

There was a Graveyard. I looked at her and then the graveyard.

She looked away which increased my doubt so, taking her hands I moved towards the graveyard. She was adamant to not move but I pulled her with me somehow

Entering inside, I got this strange feeling which can't be put into words. I again looked at Sia, and she was looking at a certain point.

I moved there only to feel like someone choked my throat.

Reaching at the particular point where Sia was looking, My legs lose the capability to stand so, I sit there on the ground with a thud.

It was Aiden's Grave, the stone was pure white. On the headstone it was written

14.10.2020 - 14.10.2020

only Light of his mother

"Ai-Aiden " I said breathing heavily

I can't put the feelings in word, it was heartbreaking, for the first time in my life I felt helpless.

" I'm- I'm sorry " I said touching the grave

Bending down, I put my head on the top of the stone and cried. I cried for what I had done, I cried that my baby is gone, I cried for the things I said, I cried for Sia's hardships, I cried and cried until tears stop flowing.

" I-I'm sorry baby. please forgive me champ. I know I'm very bad b-but I promise you that your mother will smile again, the real smile and I would never hurt her. This is D-Dadda's promise to you. I love you" I whispered and kissed the stone

With this I stand up and looked at my baby's grave one more time before leaving only to see Sia was still standing beside me. She was looking at me.

She was here the whole time?

"Uhh lets -lets go " I said and then turned back " bye Champ, I'll be coming soon to meet you. Love you "

Sia followed me afterwards, I was unable to look into her eyes so looking away I said " uhh I know you don't want to come with me so, you take my car and I'll come by bus or something"

Taking out the car keys, I forwarded it to her but she didn't took instead she went and sit on the passenger seat.

I looked at her but she was looking straight, so I sit beside her and drove the car without any words.

" Don't. Don't punish yourself because of me " I whispered as soon as we reached home but she ignored me like always and left

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I know the chapter is full of mistakes and is not so good, I'm sorry for that.

I wrote it just now, that's why didn't got the chance to correct the mistakes.