"Why did you stand out there in the cold?", Alec asks, his warm breath tickling the skin on the back of my neck. I close my eyes and don't answer him. I don't really know myself. No. That is not right. It's a lie. Self-deception is what I'm doing here right now. Because I actually know exactly why I stood there motionless for minutes in the dark, cold December night. Because Alec left and left me alone on the steps of my house. Because it felt like goodbye and dark thoughts poisoned my mind. I have to stop thinking badly and accept the facts. The next few days should give me clarity and calm my restless thoughts. I need this. Urgently.

"You just left. Without saying a word. And I stood there and couldn't move anymore." Alec breathes a kiss on the back of my neck and immediately the hairs stand up and goosebumps spread. His strong arms hold me tight, give me security and support. Alec's heart is beating calmly and his breathing is steady. Close to my back are Alec's always present aura, the warmth of his skin and the calm, even beating of his heart, three of the many elements that calm me down. They give me what I need in moments like this. Always.

"I needed a moment to myself. I actually wanted to go for a walk. But then I thought it was cold and in the middle of the night. You alone in the house and I alone in a dark park. It felt wrong and so spun. I turned around and walked back to you as fast as I could.", says Alec.

"The next few days will be incredibly difficult. Ragnor and I always spend the holidays together. For almost ten years. We drive to his summer house. It is right by the sea and is beautiful. Snow-white wood paneling and the veranda has a fantastic view of the sea. I love this time of year. When the waves crash dark and hard on the frozen snow-covered ground. An unleashed force of nature and gentle spray, soft and pure. It's an incredible feeling of freedom when the wind is strong and strong around yours Body swirls. Roaring through your hair and you have the feeling that you have to brace yourself with everything you have. Just so as not to lose the ground beneath your feet. "

"I'm here Magnus. If you call me, I'll be there. I will find you and hold you. Scream and cry with you, be silent and just listen to the silence of the night", Alec's words say everything I long for. A partner who is there for me, gives me support, strength and security on days when the darkness threatens to devour me. It is incredibly difficult for me to put so much trust in another person that I open my heart and let him fully into my life. Trust him unconditionally and just let me down. This realization hits me suddenly and I gasp in panic. I don't dare say it out loud. Because then it becomes reality. And the ruthless truth, reality in its purest form, has already caused me so much pain. "Sleep well Magnus. Tomorrow is a new day", Alec whispers, breathes a kiss on my hair and soon afterwards I hear the fine, lovely sound of his breathing and feel the blasts of warm air tickle my ear. It makes me sleepy and I don't fight it. Instead, I fall into a peaceful, dreamless sleep.

The morning begins with cold and a growling stomach. Why is it so cold Where is my blanket Where's alec? I blindly feel for the blanket and when my fingertips feel the silky soft fabric, I grip the ball with force and try to pull it over my cold body. In vain. Reluctantly, I turn my head and look at Alec's hair, black and chaotic from sleep. I breathe out noisily. He is still there. A look over his body reveals the full extent of my current condition. Alec's legs hold our quite large blanket firmly in a clamp grip. He is facing away from me and I look carefully at his back and the firm round bottom that hugs my palms wonderfully.

Since that unforgettable and exhilarating night, we have hardly ended a day without sex. It has become a natural ritual for us. The whole time I believed that it wouldn't work without it. But last night, Alec taught me better. I made him a hidden offer. I wanted him to take me in the shower. That he fucks me and drives away the dark thoughts. Even if only for this moment. But Alec didn't take advantage of my emotional low point. Instead, he cleaned my body and washed my hair. His caring hands felt incredibly good. That he held me tight all the time on the way to restful sleep touches me a lot. Slowly I reach out my hand and let my index and middle fingers slide gossamerly over Alec's spine. I listen to his calm breathing and drive over the curve of his bum to the hipbone and groin. His skin is slightly cold. I feel tender goose bumps growing under my fingertips and with small circular movements I continue to work my way over the lower abdomen and chest. The steady beating of his heart greets me this Christmas morning and I put my hand on the spot for a moment and take in the impulse of life in me. A breathy kiss between Alec's shoulder blades and I quietly get out of bed.

I slip the boxer shorts from my hips and just let them fall onto the dark floorboards at my feet. Trying to make as little noise as possible, I sneak into the bathroom and stop in the door frame for an impulse. I turn my head carefully and look straight into Alec's blue eyes. He is awake and I see the glittering sea of ​​his irises, the vortex of lust and desire. He licks his lips and I moan softly. I quickly rush into the shower and as soon as the much too hot water hits my cold skin, the haze in my mind, which was about to lay over me, clears. But before all the vapor can dissolve completely, I feel warm breath on my neck and strong hands on my hips.

"Did you think you could just disappear like that?", Alec whispers in my ear and I flinch, startled. His hand slides over my hip, on to my stomach and the tips of his fingers gently brush the root of my shaft. With a single sentence, this deep, determined pitch and the tender touch of his hands, he completely upsets me. "Yes. You were sleeping. I didn't mean to wake you", I answer, trying hard to keep the excitement of my body away from my voice.

"Hm. Your fingers on my back said something else", replies Alec and bites my shoulder. I can't hold back a deep gasp.

"It was not on purpose", I say. Alec spreads kisses on the back of my neck and his hands gently caress my stomach and chest. I put my head back so that water pearls on my face and chest. My skin is already burning from the hot water and Alec's touch. His tongue licks my throat. The water droplets disappear to make room for new ones and Alec's lips that are attached to the skin. Groaning, I surrender to him, claw my hands in the joints on the wall opposite. The clouds of mist in my head are thickening. Alec's hands caress my chest and the fingertips only lightly touch the firm nipples. I groan in frustration at the lack of attention. I feel Alec's hardness on my bum, huddled against my back. With slight movements of his pelvis, the friction leaves a desire for more. An excited tingling sensation spreads. I've been tough for a long time and I desperately need relief. My right hand leaves the supporting wall and the coldness of the tiles wanders from the palm of my hand onto the throbbing hot shaft. I draw in the air with a hiss. The contrast between warm and cold is enormous and excites me a lot.

"Don't you dare touch you", Alec whispers in my ear in a voice soaked with greed and desire. A strong hand wraps around my wrist and Alec releases my grip. The impact of my palm on the tiles makes a clapping sound and Alec fixes my hands on the wall. He slowly strokes my arm and shoulder down the sides. I push my body against Alec and moan as his hard cock rubs against the crevice of my butt.

"Magnus. Tell me what you want." Again this imperious command tone that brings all the blood in my veins to a boil.

"You", I breathe and feel Alec's strong hand gripping my throbbing erection.

"And your ... oh god ... tail", I gasp out. Alec knows exactly what he's doing. The right pressure, the right speed. It catapults me from one second to the next to unimagined heights.

"Why not like that right away? Still, you deserve a punishment."

"For what?", I ask panting. Alec increases the pace and I groan indignantly. The path to salvation is right in front of me. Just one step, a thumb stroke over my swollen tip.

"For just wanting to get out of here. Without saying a word. No goodbye. It's not proper baby", Alec says in a deep, rough voice that clouds everything around me in fog and makes me forget. I feel the warm wave of ecstasy in my loins, everything tingles and Alec's cock on my bum almost makes me go nuts.

"Alexander", I moan and realize my mistake in the same instant. Alexander, not Alec. His full name.

Alec quickly found out that every time he gives me orgasm, I moan his full name. And on some days he shamelessly exploits this knowledge. Then he delays my climax, enjoying the frustration and the irrepressible tremors that I cannot suppress. So today too. He releases my penis from his knowing hands and I whimper softly. My breathing is fast and the loud pounding of my heart competes with the constant rush of the water. Alec grabs the ankle of my right leg and places his foot on the masonry raised area. His fingers caress my leg and the warm water runs down my back and buttocks. Alec licks the drops from my spine and an electrifying tingling sensation sends waves of excitement through my body.

His fingers caress the inner thighs with love. Despite the warmth of the water and the heat inside me, goose bumps settle on my body. Alec scratches with firm pressure over the areas that have just been carefully observed. Again it is this interplay of sensual sweetness and painful pleasure that further increases my desire for Alec. His tongue licks a trace over my tailbone into the crevice of my bum and I push myself against Alec and his greedy tongue.

"You are so impatient", he says and suddenly lets his hand slide down on my right buttock. I suppress a loud moan and promptly a second blow lands on the other side of my bum.

"What have I told you so many times, Magnus?", he asks, but I don't answer.

"Say it", demands Alec and hits my bum again.

"I should be loud", I gasp out. Alec growls in agreement and lets his hand come down hard on my bottom again. Groaning loudly, I give Alec what he wants and feel his hot tongue circling my entrance. Kissing lips and a teasing tongue.

"Oh god please ... Alec ... now finally fuck me. Please", I beg. But Alec doesn't even think about it. He caresses my thighs and rims my entrance until I moan louder and louder and my whole body trembles. With every suck on the sensitive skin, a rush of liquid adrenaline rushes through my body. I'm about to explode when Alec puts his hand around my penis and the drops of lust mix with the warm water. Fast and hard he drives me to the threshold of pure ecstasy. The bathroom is filled with the steady rush of the water and my throaty moans. Another frustrated whimper on my part as his hand leaves my penis. He repeats this game several times. It is to be crazy. But it's also so incredibly awesome.

"You want my cock inside you? You get my cock", Alec says in a rough voice and presses his penis into my tightness. He claws his hands on my hips and moves with long, steady thrusts. I am already completely intoxicated. Foreplay brought me to the edge of the cliff several times, but Alec prevented me from jumping. My mind has long been on vacation and I moan along with Alec who keeps slapping his hand on my bum. My favorite cocktail of endorphins, oxytocin and testosterone is already accumulating inside me.

My skin burns, I feel Alec's thrusts, deep and firm, and I feel like I'm losing consciousness when he hits my prostate. Like a drowning man, I claw my way into the joints, looking for support and not finding it. But I can count on Alec to hold me. The tip of his index finger taps my nipple, which stretches hard and steeply towards Alec.

"Alec", I moan. The twirling of my nipples intensifies the lava flow of lust which flows hot and fast through my veins.

"Please let me come." With every thrust, the tip of his tail tickles my prostate and my nerves are already strained to the extreme. I'm just a moaning and whimpering something when Alec's fingers finally wrap around my length and he starts to pump me hard and fast. Hot breath tickles my heated skin and a pleasant shiver runs down my back.

"Let yourself go baby. You can come", Alec says and I rest my head on his shoulder. He spreads breathy kisses on my neck and I feel the well-known warm wave of pleasure that turns into ecstasy every moment. Everything tingles, from the head to the tips of the toes. A few powerful thrusts and a thumb stroke over my dripping glans are enough to catapult me ​​over the edge of the cliff. It's intense and little bolts of lightning explode in front of my eyes. Alec bites my shoulder as he pours into me, moaning loudly, and I come with his name on my lips.

"Alexander."