it was around 1am by the time we had eaten and so we watched some tv for a bit. we recently got into 'skins' which is a British drama series but it's really good. Amber got me into it.

"you see? i love Cassie so much." i said. "but Effy is just a different breed."

"Nah, you're sleeping on Michelle." they replied.

"the new season's shit. i wish they kept the characters from volume 1 and 2." i complained. "they where so much better."

"i love Cook though! he's so fine!" Amber exclaimed.

"ew bruh!" i gagged, lighting up a blunt.

Billie's the one that got me into this shit but she's gone now.

so fuck her.

and fuck her shitty life.

"hey Fin! you wanna work on everything i wanted?" i shouted while brushing my teeth.

"stop shouting it's 10am." he said as he walked into my room to grab something.

"so? yes or no?" i asked.

"sure, let's have breakfast first because i think there's avocado's." he told me and left my room.

i went down after a while and had avocados on toast for breakfast. i made some coffee and waited in Finneas' room while he talked to Claudia on the phone.

when he came back we started from where we had left off. which was the lyrics.

"and then like- i was thinking for the outro it should be like- if i knew it all then, would i do it again? would i do it again?" i sang.

Fin played the outro and sang to the lyrics.

"yeah that works good. and then what, just repeat it?" he asked.

"if i knew it all then, would i do it again? would i do it again? if i knew it all then, would i do it again? would i do it again?" i sang out. "nah, i don't think it sounds good. it's too repetitive."

"i don't think it sounds bad. but maybe it should be like- if they knew what they said, would make me jump off the edge, would it have never been said?" he suggested.

"that's good yeah, lets try that." i replied as i sung out what Fin said to the music.

"it fits well." he spoke.

"no no no- how about- if they knew what they said, would go straight to my head, what would they said instead?" i replied.

"yes! that fits a lot better!" he told me as i sung to the beat again.

"if i knew it all then, would i do it again? would i do it again? if they knew what they said, would go straight to my head, what would they said instead? and then basically repeat that again and let the beat fade away slowly." i suggested.

"let's try that." Finneas said.

i sang out the lyrics while Finneas played the beat and recorded me. we played it back and listened to it over and over.

"yeah i think that's good." i said.

"that's so amazing." he told me and listened over to it.

"i think that's it." i replied.

we recorded the entire song which took a good couple of hours because nothing felt right but once we were done. we listened over to it again and confirmed that it was good.

we decided to leave it there and come back to in after because things tend to click in slower when it's done. like i feel that more ideas and improvements pop up after we're done.

Finneas had plans to meet up with a few friends and so i just stayed at home for a few hours on face time with Maeve before she suggested we should go out. she said that Sarah was at work and she was bored so we agreed to meet up

"hey Maeve!" i said dabbing her up.

we decided to meet at the park so we could fuck around on the swings and shit.

"what's up!" she asked.

"nothing much, just the usual shit. you?" i replied.

"meh. look what i got!" she said showing me a white, grainy powder.

"for real?! pass." i said looking at the packet of k. "can i keep half?"

"sure." she replied, watching me pour half into an empty packet i had in my pocket.

"thanks." i said and smiled. "wanna blow"

"yes. please." she begged as i whipped out a pack of coke.

i passed it to her while i fumbled around looking for my blade.

she set it out onto her hand as i crushed it up with the back of the razor, watching her as she scooped some up onto her finger and snorted it. i sniffed some too and sighed while i packed our shit up.

"what now?" i asked.

"i know a place. come." she said as she grabbed my arm and dragged me.

"let go!" i shoved her off. "where the fuck are are going?"

"lighten up! we're gonna have some fun!" she yelled as she got into my car and drove.

i argued with her the entire drive because she wouldn't tell me where we were going but eventually she parked after a long 20 minute drive.

"what is this? i asked.

"welcome to the Imperium." she said, escorting me inside.

the walls where full black with red LED lights running through the top- giving it a dark- red atmosphere. there was a red carpet which led to another set of doors.

"is this like a fancy restaurant?" i asked.

"no! dumbass! you'll see." Maeve replied and continued walking.

a lady wearing small pieces of lingerie was by the door when we had entered.

"for two please. Maeve and Ash." she said to the lady.

Maeve handed the lady some money and as we walked through the doors. Ash was a code name everyone used for me if it was needed.

"what was that for?" i asked Maeve as i caught a glance of my surroundings. "fuck."

three women wearing fine lingerie were at the centre of my attention. they danced sensually to the seductive music. the atmosphere was hot and sexy.

i had never been turned on quicker in my life.

"fuck." Maeve said, looking down at my very noticeable boner.

"sorry." i said, trying to secretively tuck it into my waistband but it was too big to hide.

crowds of men and women blinded my vision so i couldn't get s good look of their faces. all i could see was their sexy dancing. Maeve left me and went to get a drink while i pushed through to the front- trying to get a better view.

their faces came into focus when i got closer, it was way better then seeing them just like that from the back. their sexy "fuck me" eyes made be harder than i had been for months. and it hurt.

their bodies swayed to the beat as they pulled out their best tricks on the pole- which was mainly made up of spinning around and splits and a bunch of other fucking hot shit.

"Ash!" Maeve called out from behind.

"here." she said, passing me a shot.

"thanks." i said and downed the glass.

"liking the view? i don't even have to ask, you clearly do." she scoffed, looking down at my print.

"stop." i punched her in the arm.

"alright fine! what if i told you that you could actually book for a private with them?" she said.

"what's a private?" i asked, keeping my eyes on the mesmerising three.

"it's a room that you can book to be alone with one of them. you can get like lap dances and stuff." Maeve told me.

"what the fuck! really?" i asked.

"yeah." she said.

"holy fuck! let's go now!" i replied.

"okay." she said as i followed after her.

we got to the front two doors again to that Lady from before.

"Hi, my friend Ash would like to book a private." Maeve told the Lady.

"with?" she asked.

"anyone." Maeve replied.

"the soonest available is in 10 minutes for $50." the Lady said.

without hesitation, i pulled $50 out of my pocket and handed it to her.

"you can wait in room 8." the Lady said and escorted me to the room.

i smiled at Maeve as she smiled back and mouthed that she'd be waiting for me outside.

"rules. rule number one- do not take off your blindfold unless permitted to do so. rule number two- no sex. rule number three- touching a stripper isn't permitted. wait here on the chair blindfolded until your stripper comes in." she said and closed the door.

was this getting creepy? yes. was i a bit scared? yes. should i have done this? probably not.

i sat down on the chair and blindfolded myself, waiting patiently for the stripper to arrive. it's sad i can't see their face but it also makes the experience better because i can focus on their touch more.

i pushed my dick into my waistband as much as i could, making sure it wasn't visually noticeable before i put the blindfolds back on again.

"you have a private!" Candece said. "room 5!"

i smiled and got my heels on before i walked over to room 5, thanking Candece. i entered to see a woman with black hair sitting on the chair. it's not often i get women- so i'm grateful for this time. she was wearing all black with a hoodie and some chains tucked underneath.

i walked around in circles as her head followed my movements.

"so, you're new?" i asked.

"mhm." she nodded.

"nervous?" i whispered into her ear.

"nah." she said.

"oh we'll see about that." i replied.

i hopped onto her lap and wrapped my arms around her neck, it had been about a month before i had done this with a woman. her breathing began getting heavier against my chest.

"told you." i smirked.

"i'm not nervous!" she scoffed.

her voice sounded a little familiar but i didn't know from where.

"sure about that darling?" i said, grinding on her lap.

her breathing felt heavy against my chest as i felt something poke me from beneath.

what the fuck.

the last time i felt something like this was when i was with-