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~ TPM~

Scrunching my eyes shut , I tried to block out all the negative thoughts and emotions that I could feel rushing around me as I woke up. The feeling of dread and fear was the most dominate as the images of last night came rushing though my mind and I couldn't help but suppress the urge to heave .

Due to my limited contact and exposure to anything of the outside world , I had never seen such a horrific sight and I knew the imagine would never leave me . The twitching of Ron's body, the terrified screams of the restaurant goers and the wails of the mans family would be permanently entrenched in my mind.

I knew that Kavos had a bad side , you didn't get the name The Punisher because you were a good person but I never would have dreamed he could do such an inhumane thing. Granted , Ron shouldn't have flirted with me but to gauge out his eyes ? It was madness !

The other poor man that had felt something towards me was definitely ridiculous, you couldn't help how you felt and to punish him for something beyond his control was cruel. I had a thing for the singer from a few hundred years ago called Justin Timberlake, would Kavos go to the afterlife and Punish him too ? It was ridiculous.

Alongside of being petty , it was scary and it made me wonder what he would do to me if I did something he didn't like . Would he treat me like that ? Completely switch and turn on me?

If he did I wouldn't be able to stop him , he was much more powerful than me and the thought of it struck alarm into me.

What if he hit me?

Burying myself in my covers and ignoring the growling of my stomach , I took deep breaths in order to soothe my raging emotions. I didn't want Kavos to come in and check on me , in all honesty I didn't want to be anywhere near him. I was sacred that if I saw him , all I would be able to see was an absolute monster and all my feelings would disappear.

Tears clogged my throat and I pushed my face against my pillow to mask the noises of my pitiful whimpering , why did he have to do this ? I felt like everything was ruined now, I didn't know If I could forgive him for such a brutal act that had scarred me for life and tainted my first ever date .

Did he feel bad for it?

Would he take it back if he could ?

I had always been raised to know that violence was disgusting and something that should be avoided at all costs, violence always caused pain . Now there would be a whole family that had seen their father/ husband dead in front of their eyes and I couldn't help but feel responsible .

If I hadn't insisted on the stupid date or to get dressed up then maybe they wouldn't have looked at me and maybe they wouldn't be dead. I should have just been satisfied with what I had , I should have continued to be the meek girl I was raised to be because this is what happens when I tried to break out of my comfort zone.

The first time I try and make a new friend , she gets stabbed to death by Aztec on Kavos's orders and the first time I go to a restaurant there's bloodshed. Maybe the problem was me.

I felt my whole body tense up as my door knocked and my hands began to shake manically, was this Kavos? Would I have to face him?

My mouth opened and closed to respond to him but no sound would come out and the panic of seeing him and not being able to talk made my heart beat pick up at an alarming rate.

Clutching my chest , I squeezed my eyes shut as I felt like the walls were closing in on me and I couldn't breath. I was having a panic attack .

A hand gently touched my shoulder and I flinched away from it in fear until I looked up and saw the concerned eyes of Aztec.

"Take a deep breath, in and out . Nice and slow , count to ten in your head and relax " Soothed Aztec, his eyes etched in concern .

After doing exactly what he told me to do , I gave him a small grateful smile before flopping down on my bed and bringing the blanket up to my chin.

"What was all that about ?" Aztec asked , sitting on the end of my bed.

"Nothing , I just thought you were Kav-" I cut myself off abruptly as a sharp stabbing pain pierced my heart.

I couldn't even bare to say his name out loud , he wasn't my Kavos anymore , he was a cold blooded killer.

"Okayyyyy then , so how was last night ? Was it everything you hoped it would be and more ? I bet it was a killer first date , right ? A night you'll always remember " Grinned Aztec, nudging me playfully.

Tears rose to the surface and I couldn't help but let out a sob at the irony of his words , a killer first date was an understatement.

"Or not then, what the hell happened ?"

Taking a deep breath, I blurted out everything that has happened quickly as I didn't want to keep reminding myself of what sort of person I was mated to . Once I got it all out , I glanced at Aztec wryly to see his face morph into shock.

"That is pretty bad but look on the bright side "

"What bright side ? He murdered two people and scarred me for life "

"Okay but he said you look beautiful which was romantic " Aztec replied with a shrug , waving away my comment .

"I don't think you understand what I'm saying Aztec , what he did is something I honestly don't think I can forgive . The thought of seeing him makes me feel dread and fear like never before" I said slowly.

"There's worse things , one time this girl asked me to sit on her face -"

"What ?!"

"Uh, yeah , my reaction exactly. Gross, right ?" Grimaced Aztec , his lips curled .

"Sit on her face for what ? I'm confused , what does this even have to do with anything? "

Before Aztec could reply , the room suddenly took a chilling and cold vibe that made me clutch the blanket closer to me. Darkness and an aura of danger creeped around the room and I immediately knew Kavos was about to appear.

He stood in the middle of the room, his face blank of emotions and his vibrant purple eyes boring into mine with such an intensity , that I had to look away . I felt uncomfortable in his presence but a small part of me still craved him and wanted to be by him because I still loved him , how could I not ?

Too bad my fear overpowered any other emotions and made me shift slightly behind Aztec so I was almost blocked from his view . However , I didn't miss the slight emotion of hurt flash through his eyes before they went back to being cold and distant.

"I could feel your distress through our bond " He stated, his tone tense.

Swallowing , I shrugged , refusing to look into the cold eyes of a killer.

"Are you still upset about yesterday?"

"Y-you killed someone , in cold blood. I don't even know how to process it , it's insane and it's not fair that you can get away with it ! That's murder , his family -"

"So, you just want me to hand myself in to the police station and announce every bad deed I've done ?" Scoffed Kavos , his tone sarcastic .

"I- no! I just , you don't understand-"

"Because you're over-reacting Blue, it's not a big deal" He snapped, taking a step forward .

"It's not a big deal to gauge out someone's eyes and rip out someone's heart ?! What if I just went around doing that !" I squeaked , hysteria lacing my words .

"Then I'd think it was a hot show of dominance and power " Smirked Kavos , his tone suggestive .

My mouth hung open in flabbergast at his words , not believing my ears. Was he being serious ?

"Good one !" Grinned Aztec , holding out his hand for a high five to which Kavos ignored .

Embarrassment flooded me as he had never spoke in that type of manner to me and it completely threw me off , my thoughts were all jumbled and I was having difficulty trying to get them together.

"Let's just forget about it and start again " Suggested Kavos with a sigh .

Swallowing , I whispered out " I don't think I can , I can still hear the screams "

"That's what she said !" Sang Aztec.

"Not appropriate, this isn't a laughing matter Aztec !" I tutted , giving him a dirty look.

"Sorry , I was just trying to lighten the mood. Look, you both need time to cool down as it's fresh in everyone's mind" Aztec said after giving me a sheepish look.

"No , I want to speak to Blue alone. I won't let this fester , she needs to get over it so we can move on "

"No! I don't want to be anywhere near you Kavos , why can't you understand that ? Leave me alone , your presence is making me uncomfortable!" I snapped , angry at how he continued to belittle my feelings .

He's eyes flashes brightly for a few swdomds and I held my breath waiting for him to lash out, but to my surprise and horror I saw sadness crumple his face.

"If that's how you feel " He murmured softly before teleporting out .

Guilt immediately overwhelmed me as his face replayed in my mind , I had never saw Kavos show so much emotion and it was obvious that my words had hurt him.

"D-do you think I went to far ?" I whispered quietly .

"How would you feel if he told you that you made him feel uncomfortable and he didn't want to be by you ?"

Biting my lip , I pushed my face in my hands and took a few calming breaths . Everything was happening so fast , I wasn't sure what to do and how to react. It was all just one big mess that I wanted to forget , why couldn't the date have gone smoothly ?

Why couldn't he understand how I felt ?

"Let's get something to eat and then we should head out , the twins are throwing a party tonight "

"I'm not in the mood for a party tonight " I mumbled glumly.

"You've never in been to one so how do you know you're not in the mood ?" Aztec asked rolling his eyes .

"Fair enough but I don't think it's my scene"

"You love music and dressing up , plus once your drunk you'll forget all your problems "

"I'm seventeen, I'm not legal to drink until two years time, you know that " I pointed out .

"Fuck the law and the lawmakers , they just don't wanna see us win and have fun"

"You're part of the law makers , do you even think before you speak ?" I snorted , shaking my head.

"Come on ! Let's just go , you'll have a good time and hopefully things will calm down once you're back . What's the worse that could happen ?"

Aztec was right , there was no point hiding in my room and feeling sorry for myself . I may as well go out and try to forget everything , even though the thought of leaving on bad terms made my heart ache . I loved Kavos , he was my everything and I didn't want to argue with him but right now tensions were too high .

"Fine , I'll come " I said with a small smile .

"That's what she said !" Exclaimed Aztec , wiggling his brows and dashing out my room.

"Aztec !" I giggled , chasing him downstairs .

It was time to let my hair down and have some fun , besides what was the worse that could really happen ?

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