Rasha

I interrupted him by slowly wrapping my arms around his waist and slowly resting my head on his chest. I just wanted to hug him, I hate seeing him like this. My heart breaks, it breaks when I see how much he cares and loves me. Because I don't deserve this, I don't deserve him. I don't deserve his love and affection. He's worth someone who really can accept his love, which I can't. ''Rasha, what are you doing?'' He asked with a serious tone.

I stood there a few seconds more hugging him, I didn't want to let go. I didn't want this to end, I didn't want to let go of him. Now is my chance to stop hurting him, this is my chance to tell him how much I need him in my life. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, now is my time.

''Saiid... I love you. I love you more than anyone else, That's why...'' I let out as a whisper. But he heard it, I know that he heard it. I heard his heartbeat going faster. It was too unexpected for him to hear this now, but I had to tell him.

''When I found out that you were dating some girl I felt my heart break into pieces. I couldn't understand, we have so much fun together and we are so comfortable with each other. But It felt so fake the sooner I thought about it. I started to like you, in fact I started to fall in love with you.'' I stopped to breathe. I looked up at him as my arms were still wrapped around his waist.

''But I thought it was useless, what was the use? Even if you love me too, we can't be with each other. You know that too, you know that this is forbidden in every way Saiid.'' He looks at me with no reaction, he's only listening to me. I then let a painful chuckle, ''Let's just love each other and stay quiet like this.''

I let a tear down leave my eye, ''Even though you hate me now for what I did...'' I couldn't hold it in anymore. He held my face and leaned closer, he slowly placed a kiss on my forehead. He then looked at me, ''Rasha, my love for you will never end. It doesn't matter if you make me upset, it will never stop. Since we found each other I haven't stopped thinking about you, you're someone I can't stop loving and forget. You're mine, only mine.''

I look deeply into his eyes, everything he says makes my heart flutter. I then caress his cheek carefully, ''I didn't plan to date anyone, I never wanted to date anyone but you. It just happened, I don't know how, but it all of a sudden happened. But every time I spent time with her It felt so wrong, I never wanted anyone by my side. Only you, I never wanted anyone but you. Because I love you more than you can ever imagine.'' He kisses my palm.

A smile appears on my face, ''Really?'' He smiles back. ''Really.'' He adds and rests his forehead against mine. ''I love you.'' I let out.

''You do?'' He asks, cluelessly. I chuckle, ''I do.'' I feel his lips hover a hair's breadth from mine, so close that we're about to kiss. I look at his lips, wanting them to press mine. Gosh, I just want them all to myself. He leans closer, and closer and in any minute his lips will be on mine. I close my eyes to get ready, ready to have his lips on mine.

''Saiid?'' We heard a voice say, we immediately let go of each other. Allah, save my heart. I think It's about to explode. I look down at my shoes before I look up. My eyes met Nadia, she's looking at us confused. I hope she didn't see anything, I mean I don't think she did. It's too dark.

''Sai- Rasha? What are you doing here? Saiid? Why is your cardigan covered in blood?! What's going on?'' She panicked. Wait how could see he was covered with blood, isn't it too dark? ''Did I hear blood?'' I heard someone else say. I see Adnan, Mac, Jaffar and a woman I've never seen before coming out of the house. ''What the-'' Adnan turns his phone flashlight on and points it at Saiid. They widen their eyes at him, ''Bro, did you kill someone?''

Then Mac looks at me, ''Rasha, what happened?'' I gulp at his question. I didn't know how to reply. I look at Saiid who looks at me, even he doesn't know what to say. ''Babe? What happened?'' I see the girl I've never seen before walk closer to Saiid. Babe? Is she the one who's dating him? Right, she's the one dating him. I ball my hand into a fist, who does she think she is? Chill Rasha, you don't even know her.

I sigh loudly looking at my shoes, at this point I wanted to go home. I wanted my parents to come home. I'm literally surrounded by people seven years older than me. ''Nothing happened Sally, nothing happened.'' I heard Saiid say annoyed. So her name is Sally? God, even her name sounds beautiful. I then hear him clear his throat, ''Nadia, take Rasha to your room. She's staying here until her parents come back.'' He states. ''Oh okay.''

Nadia walks towards me and crosses arms with me, I look at her confused. ''You. Will. Tell. Me. Everything.''

Oh god, here we go again.

Saiid

I see Nadia cross arms with Rasha and whisper something in her ear. What is she trying to do? I then see them walk into the house, I sigh. ''Can you tell us now what's going on? Why is your cardigan covered with blood?!'' Jaffar has his eyes on my cardigan. I bit my lower lip and looked at him. ''Jaffar, not now. Let me just take a shower.'' I say looking at my hands. I see that much of the blood has dried, and the blood that hasn't is the blood that is dripping from my knuckles.

It stings, but I don't care. I don't mind, because I did this willingly and I could do it all over again. I won't let anyone touch the woman I love. ''Fine, take a bath and you'll tell us everything.'' Mac folds his arms. Without a reply, I walk into the house and walk straight towards the bathroom.

After I took a shower I wrapped a towel around my waist and walked towards my room. I couldn't take my mind off of Rasha's words, she loves me? She fucking loves me, god I couldn't be any happier. When she said it I felt how my heart calmed down, something that It couldn't do before. It feels like I don't have to be worried about anyone taking her away from me, like that jerk. I love her, and I will always love her. Inshallah, I will spend my whole life with her. Even If it's a little bit impossible, I will make it possible.

I wore some green sweatpants and a white t-shirt before I walked out of the room. I see the boys sitting on the couches in the living room. ''Sit,'' Jaffar said as soon as he saw me. I did as they said and sat on the couch in front of them. ''Where is Sally?'' I asked. ''Adnan drove her home. Now why were you covered with blood, and what is she doing here?'' I furrowed my eyebrows at Mac's question.

''She could be here if she wants to, It's not your business.'' I spat angrily. He shook his head, ''No, no, no that's not what I mean-'' Jaffar interrupted Mac. ''Listen, she could be here whenever she wants to. She's like a family to us, but that's not what he meant. How did she end up here, I mean how did you even meet her? And how does it come you ended up with a bloody cardigan?''

I sigh, knowing that I have to tell them. I have to tell them what's going on in my life. ''She went to a party today that I told her to not go to. She didn't do as I said and went to that party, I found out and, as you know I took Adnan's car and went there. When I arrived I saw a boy dragging her to the bathroom, so I followed. When I opened the door to the bathroom I saw that he was trying to kiss her, and yes you may know the rest.''

I looked at their reactions, they all looked shocked. Like they couldn't believe their ears. ''Bro, what the fuck I hope you killed him!'' Mac points at me. ''What the fuck, we could've gone with you! Damn it Saiid.'' Jaffar frowned. I sighed and leaned back on the couch, I don't understand these guys. They tell me to keep my distance and now they want to help me. ''Is she okay?'' Adnan asked with a soft tone. I looked over to him and shook my head, ''I don't think so. I think her birthday got fucked up.''

''Her birthday?! It's her birthday?!''

Rasha

''It's your birthday?!'' Nadia gasped, I nodded my head. ''It is, that's another reason why I wanted to go to that party. Turns out it all went wrong.'' I shrugged my shoulders. She caresses my cheek, ''Sweetie, don't say that! We can celebrate it tomorrow, we can eat in a restaurant and have fun. Okay?'' I smile at what she says. ''Thank you, Nadia. It means so much to me.''

''No need to thank me, so did he really do that?! Did he really beat the shit out of that guy?'' She suddenly widens her eyes. ''He did. if I didn't stop he would've killed him, if he didn't already,'' I said the last part with a mutter.

''I'm still in shock, damn. I mean I've never seen him this way, he must really be in love with you.'' I look up at her with raised eyebrows, ''Come on, I'm not stupid. You were about to kiss in the-'' I cover her mouth with my hands to make her mouth shut.

''Okay, shush. You don't have to remind me.'' I feel my face heat up. She bites my hand to make me let go, she then laughs. ''Awww, look who's blushing.'' I purse my lips together to not laugh. ''But really, do you like him too? Have you confessed?'' She asks with curiousness rolling down her tongue.

''I just did, I told him I loved him. And, he did it a few days ago. But I pretended to not care about his feelings, I was scared. Because Nadia, I knew this was wrong. He could end up in jail.'' I try to not sound so sad. She slaps my arm, ''Hey, don't say that! Don't be so negative. If you love each other then nothing should stop you guys. We don't know who we are meant to fall in love with.''

Her words make me feel so much better, I should really listen to her advice. I have to be positive, even if it's hard. ''Thank you, Nadia.'' I smile. She grins at me and shrugs her shoulders, ''Sooooo, have you guys kissed? Or was that almost kiss in the yard about to be your first kiss? Damn! I really shouldn't have stopped you, what's wrong with me!?'' She frowns. I roll my eyes, ''Don't worry. We've already had our first kiss.''

Well, my first kiss. He has probably kissed more girls than I can ever think of. ''WHAT REALLY!'' She shouts, loudly. I press my finger on my mouth as a sign to shut her mouth, ''Ops sorry, but what?! Did you really kiss, where and when? Who kissed first?!'' She spat. I laughed before I answered all her questions. ''Chill. We were in school and after I had disrespected him and interrupted his lesson he told me to stay behind. We had this big argument, and then he just kissed me, and confessed his feelings.''

''He kissed you first?! Woawww, I've known him since high school and never have I ever seen him make the first move on a woman.'' She sounds so dramatic. ''Really?'' I mouth turned to an O. ''Really.'' She repeated. I hold my face of embarrassment, aww I can't believe this. ''Bitch, let's stop talking here and go over to the guys.'' She stands up and tries to walk over to the door. I grab her hand and she looks at me, ''No, please I'm not ready to face Saiid now.'' I do the puppy eyes to make her stay here.

But she laughs and shakes her head, ''Shut up, come on.'' She dragged me up and started walking towards the living room. When we arrive in the living room we see the boys talking, I see Jaffar, Adnan, and Mac sitting on a couch in front of a couch where Saiid is sitting. ''Hi guys!'' Nadia says with a moody tone. They all look over to us, and I tried to not look at Saiid. Gosh, my heart is beating so fast.

''Hey, come sit.'' Adnan says. As I'm trying to sit on the couch between the two couches I see Nadia jump on the couch and lay on it. I furrow my eyebrows and lip-sync what are you doing. ''Sorry Rasha, this couch is mine. No one can sit here expect me, ask the guys.'' She points at Adnan, Mac, and Jaffar who snorts of laughter. ''Why don't you sit next to your teacher.'' She winks at me. This. Fucking. Bitch.

I look over to Mr.Bashar who looks at me a smile on his face, my heart, my heart, my heart. I slowly sit beside him on the couch as I bit my lower lip, God this is so awkward. ''So Rasha, I heard that it's your birthday. Happy birthday!'' Mac said with excitement. I looked up at him and smiled, ''Uh yes, thank you.''

''Aren't you too small to turn 18?'' Adnan teases as everyone laughs. I raise a brow, ''You're the last one to talk, the first time I saw you I thought you were 14. Period.'' I said, and yet again everyone burst out laughing. ''Sure, Madame.'' Adnan shakes his head.

All of a sudden we see Nadia stand up, she looks at the guys before she speaks. ''Um, guys can you help me with something?'' She grins. They look at her confused, ''What? Can't we do it tomorr-''

''Now!'' Her voice makes everyone flinch. This woman, I know what she's trying to do. The guys nod and walk with her out of the living room, which leaves me and Saiid alone. Gosh, how could something be so cliche? I feel my heart beating like a monkey jumping around just to the fact that he's sitting next to me. I feel him scooting closer to me slowly. When he reaches me he wraps his arm around my shoulder. I feel my toes curl up as I turn my gaze over to him.

''Hi.'' I accidentally spat out. Hi? Hi? Why would you even say that?! Rasha, oh my god you're such a shame. He laughs and leans his face closer to me, our noses touching and my eyes boring into his eyes. ''Hey.'' He smirks.

''Uh, uh I love your friends.'' RASHA WHAT THE FUCK! Okay Rasha, just shut your mouth. Okay? Just press them together and shut up. ''Really? And what about me?'' He raises a brow. Gosh, what is he trying to do? I can't open my mouth again, I just can't what if I say something stupid. I nervously smile. Then I do a heart sign and point at him to show him that I love him, oh my god I'm so smart. Like for real, am I not the smartest person in this world? He looks at my actions before he speaks.

''What did I do to deserve someone like you?''

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