Chapter 65

Harry's POV

~~a while later~~

I had decided to stop at the convenient store, I'd been wandering around for a bit, my mind blank and heart heavy. I'll never be able to get over this...they took Louis from me....we were suppose to be together forever....

he promised, he said he'd never leave...I-I guess I'm happy for him..he doesn't have to put up with me...I never deserved him anyway, he was amazing and perfect in every way. I loved him, always will, more than any thing in the world....

I sighed aloud and grabbed a bottle of vodka off the shelf. Ok so it's probably not the brightest idea to go home and get wasted, but do I care? I'll just end up sitting in front of the tv and crying myself to sleep...I'm used to it though...

Although, it would've been different before, Louis would've sat with me while I cried, he'd tell everything would be fine, he'd let me fall asleep in his arms and sing to me....

He's only been gone for a few hours and I miss him already...

As I walked to check out counter to pay for my stuff, I heard a familiar voice. I glanced over my shoulder and cringed. It was Edward...I absolutely hate that guy. Hopefully he hadn't seen me and I could just buy my things and leave. I walked up to the counter and set the bottle down. The teenage girl at the counter stared at me, eyes wide.

"HARRY OH MY G-"

"Shhhh...please...I-I don't want anyone to know I'm here.."

She nodded and winked at me "ok! Your secrets safe with me"

"thanks.."

I paid for my stuff and shoved the receipt in my pocket. I looked over my shoulder just as Edward turned the corner, he glanced at me and narrowed his eyebrows, squinting some. Once he realized it was me he tapped one of his friends shoulders and whispered in his ear. The four of them began walking towards me. With a look of horror on my face I bolted for the door. I ran outside as they followed close behind. They yelled at me but I continued walking to my car pretending like I hadn't heard them.

"Hey! Come here!"

I stopped in my tracks and clenched my fists close to my hips. I just stood there without moving a muscle. If I tried to run he'd just grab me so there's no point in that...I'll just get this over with...

Edward walked up behind me and slowly, I turned around.

"w-what do you want?" I asked, nervously, while biting down on my bottom lip, causing it to bleed some.

"Where's your boyfriend hommo?" He said teasingly, a sly smirk on his lips.

I swallowed hard and shook my head "I-I...we...um broke up.."

"awww that's so sad, boo hoo. Looks like he didn't even want you, don't blame em"

I felt my cheeks turning red as I swallowed the lump in my throat. don't cry...they can't think they've won. I won't let them tease me.

I wiped my eyes and began walking towards my car

"Hey, we're not finished here"

Edward grabbed my arm and I howled in pain. I tried to break from his grasp but he tightened his grip. Tears filled my eyes and I stopped walking

"p-please! stop! That hurts! please.."

"saying 'please' makes no difference" he smirked and held my arm behind my back, pushing it upwards, causing me to whimper. He squeezed my arm tighter and I closed my eyes, tears sliding down my cheeks.

This, to me anyways, was worse than the other times Edward picked on me because at least I had Louis...now I have no one..

Edward held my arms behind my back and marched behind the building, his friends following him, laughing and cursing at me. What had I ever done to them?

He shoved me up against the wall and smirked.

"you don't deserve to be here. People like you should burn in hell."

"b-but I didn't do anything...why do you hate me?"

"I hate you because you're disgusting. You think you can go around kissing guys and get away with it? You make me sick."he sneered, pushing me back and spitting in my face. ok that's disgusting, I might kiss a guy but at least I don't spit on people... Has he no shame?

He stood there saying the most awful things he could come up with. He kept telling me how I was disgusting and don't deserve to live. He told me to keep cutting myself as it was the only good thing I've done. I'm so ashamed of myself because I could've walked away. I should have, but no. I stood there crying like a little girl and allowing him to push me around.

He grabbed my arm again and stared at my sleeve, he attempted to pull it up, I ripped my arm out of his reach and hid it behind my back

"w-what are y-you doing?"

He didn't answer my question and pulled on my shirt again I screamed at him to stop but he wouldn't, he ripped my shirt off and smirked while rolling his eyes.

I tried to grab it from him but he shoved me again.

"s-stop....it's not funny..."

"well I think it is"

"Why do you hate me?! What have I ever done to you?!"

"Why do I hate you? Because you're a fag and don't deserve to live. You're disgusting. Do us a favor and just kill yourself already."

"f-fine. That's what you want? What if I don't? Will you ever leave me alone...?"

"Ha! Yeah right, you won't do it, coward! do it. just end it. DO IT"

I stared at him, my cheeks stained with tears

"o-ok.....w-wait here..."

He laughed and threw my shirt on the ground in front of me. I picked it up and quickly put it on. That was so humiliating.... Why do people find it enjoyable to hurt me? I couldn't ever hurt someone, no matter what they've done or who they are...I wouldn't want them to suffer like I did...I'm done with life honestly...

I walked back inside the store, my heart beating rapidly inside my chest and my hands were shaking violently. Did I really want to do this? Of course I do...I will.

I'll show them, I'll do it..

I walked down the aisle and over to the medicine section. I stood I front of the shelf and bit my lip. I grabbed a bottle of sleeping pills. I held it in my hand, examining it. I began reading the 'warning' sign on the back of the bottle.

'overdosage could cause death'

Just what I needed...I don't want to be alive anymore...

I trudged back to the check out counter and placed the bottle down. The girl gave me a strange look but didn't ask any questions. After paying for the pills, I muttered "thanks" and snatched up the bag she'd put it in. I walked outside over to Edward and his friends. He greeted me with a smirk and a hard slap on the back

"soooo?"

I swallowed the lump in my throat and wiped the tears from my eyes. I slowly took the bottle of pills out of the bag and held it up for Edward to see. He laughed and grabbed it out of my hands

"Just do it. I dare you. But you know why you won't? Cause you're a coward. You won't do it."

I snatched the bottle out of his hands "I will..." I mumbled, looking at my feet as tears filled my eyes again.

"No you won't, fag. You're too scared. You won't do it."

"I...don't think this is a good idea...Edward just stop...." The brown haired guy mumbled. I'd never heard him talk before and now he's standing up for me? Why? Edward shot him a murderous glance "Don't you tell me what I can and can't do. I'll do what I please"

"but what if he does...you'll be responsible..."

"Oh yeah? Well he won't he's a coward. I won't be responsible cause he won't do it"

"I-I'm gonna go..." I mumbled, hanging my head and starting off towards my car. I mouthed 'thank you' to Edwards friend. He gave me a sorry smile and bit his lip.

"DO IT! I DARE YOU. KILL YOURSELF HOMMO"

Edward kept yelling at me until I was I seated in my car, I slammed the door to block out his hurtful words. I started the car up and glanced at Edward one last time. He pointed his middle finger at me and mouthed "do it"

Ok fine....