Excuse any errors. ❤️

Felt like this song fit.

Queen Anya in the mm 🥺🥰

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"You sure?" I heard him say as I sat at the edge of the bed, I looked over at him and shrugged he was taking off his shirt and tossing it into the laundry hamper.

"I don't know. I'm just asking because I felt sick and have been throwing up."

He leaned down to my level and cupped my face with his hands. "We're gonna be straight, have you taken a test?"

"I'm too nervous to take it but I know my body, I felt the same way when I was pregnant with little bean." I said as he grabbed his car keys, throwing on a windbreaker and no shirt on he kissed me on the lips before heading toward the door.

"I'll be back, I'm gonna go get you a test." He said as he headed for the door, I laid across the bed and looked over at little bean. Was I ready for another baby? I don't know. We talked about this a few weeks go, she hadn't reached her terrible twos yet and I'm not even working. If I am pregnant I'm probably gonna get a job at Walmart or something because I don't want Milo to have to pay for everything with his checks from the benifits he was getting that was his money. Even though he said he'd use some of it to help but still.

I felt like I was laying there in the bed forever before hearing the door open, I sat up and he followed me to the bathroom. My heart was already racing and I haven't even pissed on the stick yet.

"You ready?" He said as I nodded sitting down on the toilet with my leggings at my ankles. He opened the box and passed me a test before chewing on his bottom lip. I guess he felt my nervousness because he sat on the sink and looked over at me as I peed on the stick before I flipped it over so I couldn't see it.

"How are we gonna take care of two children under two? I'm still looking for work and-"

"Hey, relax. It's gonna be fine ok?" He said hopping down from the sink, He walked over to me and leaned down to take the test from my hand, he kept it flipped over before sitting back on the sink. We sat in silence for a few seconds, it wasn't super uncomfortable but the thunder started to rumble and I hoped it wouldn't wake up little bean.

Clearing his throat I looked up from staring down at my feet.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

Those two minutes felt like a lifetime to the both of us, I watched him as he flipped the text over and looked over at me swallowing down, he blinked a few times before tucking his lips in and look at me once more.

"What does it say?" I said letting out a shaky breath.

"You're pregnant baby. It's a blazing positive.." He said before standing up and showing me the 2 pink lines on the test as I started crying. I stood up and washed my hands after pulling up my leggings and flushing. He engulfed me into a hug and I cried in his arms. I wasn't mad but I was scared because I thought I'd be farther ahead as far as a job goes. I had a lot of thoughts going on in my head.

"I just don't want you using your benifits checks to pay for everything."

"Anya the checks are a nice amount, besides I put half of each one I got so far into my savings account. Don't stress ok?"

I nodded and sniffled as he wiped my tears with the pad of his thumb.

"Jax said don't cry. He doesn't like that shit."

I chuckled and sniffed again as he leaned down and kissed my stomach which made my heart melt.

"You're not mad we didn't wait?"

"What? Of course I'm not. I'm excited, what if we have a son this time?." He said as he stood up cutting off the bathroom light.

"That would be cute. He'd look like you though I bet."

"I'd think so too." He chuckled before giving me another kiss, we got into bed before hearing little bean crying.

"I got her." He said cutting on the lamp as I watched him interact with her. "Come on princess, what's the matter huh?" He cooed.

It was the cutest this seeing Milo being a father I couldn't help but smile. Maybe being pregnant again wasn't a bad thing? Regardless of what gender I knew Milo would always be here.

She stopped crying instantly when he picked her up, he checked her diaper before leaning down and grabbing a clean one.

"Can you hand me the wipes over there please baby?"

I leaned over to the nightstand and grabbed the baby wipes. We had to get the Honest brand because Luvs brand gave her a rash I think Huggies did the same thing so we switched brand.

"Thank you pretty." He said winking at me.

"You're welcome handsome."

I could see his face turning red, he was so cute when he blushed. After changing little bean he got into bed with me, it was raining and the thumbed tumbled outside our balcony window but it wasn't too love. It was actually peaceful.

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"She's pregnant again.." I said as Brianna took her glasses off sitting them next to her. I had a session today which I was actually ok with only because I wanted to talk about it.

"How are you feeling about it?"

"I'm excited but Anya's a little scared because she hasn't found work yet, but I told her things like that take time and that we just graduated and jobs in her field aren't really available." I said sighing.

"Milo do you think that Anya feels like you shouldn't take on the responsibility of all the bills?"

I nodded and twisted my lips to the side. "I just want her to know that everything's gonna be fine. I don't want her to stress herself out."

"Just show her that she has now reason to stress. Both of your cars are paid off, insurance and rent are covered. Little beans healthy.. Maybe a road trip away from home would do some good?"

"That's not a bad idea." I said as she smiled.

"Alright so aside from that, how are you feeling?"

I rubbed my hands together and really thought about that answer.

"I feel good, I can say that in all honestly. I'm happy. I mean I still switch like 3 times a day but as far as wanting to hurt myself I don't feel that anymore.."

"You've made so much progress. I'm very proud of you."

I couldn't help but smile it was genuine this time and not fake.

"Thanks Bri. I'm proud of myself too."

After my session I made my way home. Pulling to the apartment I went inside and see Anya holding little bean in arms. I don't think she noticed me coming in until the door shut behind me.

"See, you were doing all that crying and daddy's right there." Anya said as little bean giggled as me coming toward them. I kissed Anya on the lips first they reached for her.

"Hey princess, you missed me huh?"

She was touching my face as I sat down on the couch. I didn't wanna switch but I knew it was coming. I sighed and leaned my head back a little.

"You ok Lolo?"

I closed my eyes and felt Anya taking little bean from me, I guess she knew what was happening. She always knew, when I first me Anya at school she picked up on my switches within the first couple of days. To be honest she's really the only one who showed she actually cared and wanted to help me.

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Standing up from the couch Sai ran a hand down his face.

"It's been a while since I've fronted. Wow." He chuckled seeing Anya and little bean.

"Sai?"

"Yeah it's me beautiful. How are you?"

"Good, you?"

"Hanging in there. I mean what choice do I have right.. Can I ask you a question though?"

Anya nodded as she fed little bean a bottle since she was drifting off to sleep.

"How come you don't talk about your parents?"

Anya furrowed her eyebrows a little before looking down at Anya. "They aren't worth discussing.."

"Did they do something to hurt you?"

She nodded her head and looked away from him, her parents were a touchy subject that she still wasn't ready to talk about. Her mother had become addicted to drugs are finding out her father had a secret family when Anya was a teenager. he then left and divorced her mother. Anya's mother also neglected her for a while but would try to shower her with gifts once she was sober.

She sniffled and quickly wiped the tear that seeped from her eye. Sai tilted his head to the side before scooting closer to her.

"I'm sorry I- I didn't mean to make you cry. Here let me think of some fun facts to cheer you up. Let's see." He said putting his finger on his chin.

"Oh! I got it. Did you know that McDonald's fries were cooked in beef fat until 1990, and Hawaiian pizza didn't come from Hawaii, and "The Girl From Ipanema" was the first Bossa Nova song to become a worldwide hit in the '60s... and it won a Grammy for the record of the year in 1965.. He a musician and-"

"Sai." She laughed a little before looking at him.

"I'm fine I promise."

"Ok well lemme give you one more fact ok?"

"Ok." She chuckled shaking her head.

"Did you know that almost everyone in Brazil brings a toothbrush and a toothpaste with them everywhere they go and they brush their teeth at work after lunch?"

"I had no idea. That's interesting."

"See! I knew you'd be interested."

She smiled and stood up carrying little bean to her crib, kissing her cheek she laid her down before yawning.

"You can get some sleep Anya. I'm gonna go watch Shark Tank. Goodnight, sweet dreams." He smiled as she got into bed. It was going on 10 in the evening and Sai would normally stay up watching something animal related on TV until someone else fronted and went to bed. He'd stay up all night if he could.

"Goodnight Sai."

Closing the door behind him he grabbed some snacks from the pantry and sat on the couch watching TV until he fell asleep, Jaxon had fronted once he woke up and noticed the snack wrappers on the table.

"Damn Sai at least clean up, shit."

Oops, sorry Jax.

"It's cool man, just don't leave a mess next time.."

Getting up from the couch he cleaned up the mess and made his way to the bathroom to take the medicine, tossing the trash away he noticed the pregnancy test in the garbage, kneeling down he saw the two lines and smiled.

"Damn Lo, pull out game weak." He chuckled to himself before going to bed.

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have joy 💛