James' P.O.V.

After binge watching Stranger Things and Mean Girls, and eating loads of ice cream, I decided to stay the night. I didn't want to interrupt... anything that could be happening at the dorm...

Just thinking about it makes me cringe... just thinking of him with someone else makes my heart break more and more.

"JJ, I'm sorry he did that and he found someone." Peggy apologizes to me for the 10th time.

"It's fine Jem. I've just never had a crush before and we'll... it just.. stings I guess. I'm really fine though." I lie. We both lay in her bed. We gossip for awhile before both of our phones go off.

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I feel guilt in my stomach and set my phone down. What did I do..? I ignore Peggy and fall asleep in an uncomfortable state of mind...

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That entire week, Thomas has been a jerk to me. He's told me he hates me. He tells me to kill myself. He ignores Lafayette's pleas for him to break up with Sally and to talk to me. I've been distancing myself from everyone.. wearing black more often... Peggy is the most worried and the sisters... they've seen me like this before.. it isn't pretty.

"Hey James..? Mon ami?" Laf asks, sitting at our lunch table. I just keep drawing in m sketch pad, ignoring him. I don't want help or pity.

"James." Alex tries this time. Again, I ignore them.

"James Kayne Madison are you going to ignore your friends and be depressed or ask for help?" Peggy snaps at me while standing up. I can tell she's just worried.

"I don't want help Margarita!" I snap back, standing up. Silence goes through the lunch table and a few other students stare at me.

"Y-You called me Margarita..." Peggy states and I nod.

"You called me James." I reply, crossing my arms over my chest.

"I just want my best friend back... my brother..." She says, sitting back down. I scoff and grab my sketch pad before leaving. I walk towards the bathroom.

"James.." John says quietly to me, putting a hand on my shoulder. I freeze. He sighs when I say nothing in return and whispers in my ear.

"It's not Thomas' fault. Something happened... something bad... I can't tell you exactly. Thomas is cursed. You're the only one who can fix it... look into his eyes." John tells me, I stay frozen, but nod. He lets go of me and I continue walking.

Should I believe him?

. . .(at the dorm)

Reynolds was right. I should have committed suicide a long time ago. I pull down my long sleeves to cover the scars and cuts bleeding out. I haven't spoken for tried to use my power at all... Thomas has been hanging out with Sally and Aaron Burr and Reynolds... he's become one of them.. a bully.

(Possible trigger)

I finish tying my noose and look at it. Hm. I feel my phone buzz.

I ignore her plea and put the good of my black jacket up. I haven't cried. I'm numb. To all emotions or cares or pleas by the other. What the other say. I set the noose down under my bed as I hear laughing coming towards my doorway. I sit up straight as Reynolds and Thomas come in. Thomas has his arm wrapped around Sally...

"Hey Jamey!" Reynolds says in between laughs. I scoff and cross my arms in front of my chest.

"Look at the emo bastard!" Thomas screams. They all burst out in laughter again and Reynolds walks toward me. He pulls a dagger from his arm and brings it to my upper arm, where my tattoo is.

"Come on.. flinch.. cry.. try and defend yourself." He whispers in my ear. I shake my head and he swipes his dagger across my skin. Cutting straight over my tattoo. I stay still bit tense up at the pain.

"Pathetic." He spits at me.

"Too emotionless to think." Thomas says with a look of disgust on his face.

I don't eat.

I don't drink.

I cut.

I don't defend myself.

I don't help.

I'm pathetic

Useless.

Nothing...

Then Reynolds says something that hits a nerve for me...

"Let's go pick on his little sister instead." Reynolds says while turning to leave.

"I don't care if you mess with me. Touch my sister and you'll be 6 feet under without anyone knowing you're gone." I say sternly, standing up. Reynolds turns and smirks at me. He knows how to hit the right buttons.

"Oh yeah? Watch a gonna do about skank?" He throws at me, crossing his arms over his chest now.

"I-I.." I start..

"'I-I..' so pathetic cant even get a sentence out!" Thomas laughs. I look into Thomas' green eyes...

Green? No... that...

Thomas' eyes are brown...

"Baby, why don't we go outside and mess the those Schuyler sisters?" Sally suggests, looking as innocent as ever. Thomas gives her a quick kiss. They walk out.

"Die." Reynolds tells me before leaving. I sit back on my bed...

That sounds good.

I get up and walk out of the dorm. I follow Reynolds and Thomas. My heart races but my feet tell me to keep going. They all walk outside, talking to one another. They walk off of school grounds and I continue to follow. We end up at the Schuyler mansion.

"Alright, here we go." Reynolds says, about to knock on the door.

"I told you not to mess with them." I say, anger bubbling inside me. They all turn around, shocked to see me.

"I told you to kill yourself." Reynolds replies back, looking at his nails. I feel my tattoo burn. I look at it's white glow. I pull down my hood, the three gasp. I give them a glare and Reynolds gives me one back.

"He can't do nothing, come on." Reynolds tells his groups, then turns to knock again.

I put my hand forward and a light ray comes from it. It wraps around Reynolds and pulls him back. I make him turn to me and he looks at me shocked, trying to break free of the white shadows? I don't know what to call them.

"You can call me useless," I slap him. My voice sounds demonic.

"You can call me worthless," I slap him again.

"You can cut me and tell me to kill myself." I grab the collar of his shirt so he stares me in the eyes, he looks terrified.

"You mess with my sisters? You're. Dead." I say, and push my hand towards the ground. It throws him to the ground releasing him. He coughs, trying to catch his breath.

"Thomas, attack him!" Reynolds demands in between coughs. Thomas tries to come near me , I snap my fingers quickly. It makes him push back by an unknown force. He slams against the wall of the mansion.

"Tommy!" Sally screams and tries to check on him.

Anger and jealousy boils inside me once again.

Suddenly, I freeze. I think of something.. it comes into my mind as Thomas' voice.

'I can't stand to see people cry. I swear, if I was the maddest person ever or hated you, if you started crying in-front of me. I wouldn't be able to take it, I would give in immediately.'

Has he said that before. Thomas gets up from the ground and glares at me. I hold my hand out and it pins Thomas against the wall.

"Sally, if you don't want to be slapped into tomorrow the run." I say in my now demonic voice. She runs for the hills. Reynolds tries to go for my legs but I reach out my other hand to stop him. I feel something warm trickle down my face from under my nose. Blood? I make the hand which is holding Reynolds down into a fist. He cries out in pain and I drop him. He stays in a ball and backs away from me.

"James??" I hear some people say from the doorway. I feel another trickle of blood from my other nostril. I snap my head and see the sisters looking terrified and Alex, Hercules, John, and Laf. Laf looks mad but the worry in his eyes outweighs it. I look at Peggy.. my sister.. she has her hands over he mouth and is crying.

"Peggy..?" I say, bringing my hand down a bit. That gave enough time for Thomas to free himself.

"James look out!" John screams, before I feel thorny vines wrapped around my arms and one across my neck. It slides across my cheek, causing a cut across my cheek.

"James!" Peggy screams, and I see her sisters pull her back.

I look at Thomas, and see his black eyes...

"You shouldn't have followed us." He states, his grip tightening on me. Now lifting me from the ground. I try to rip his vines from my neck with my hands but it just cuts my fingers. The other watch in terror. I feel blood trickle down my neck.

"Th-this is not who you are." I say to him, trying to break free. He just laughs at me. The others cry for me and cry for Thomas to stop. I quickly pull my hand up in front of his face, my palm facing up. White glows from my hand and a white silhouette forms. Looking at Thomas. Thomas' eyes go wide, and his eyes go back to green. He slowly puts me down and retracts his vines from me. I hold my neck and cough while shaking, still holding the silhouette out in front of him. I feel hot, salty tears run down my face. I drop to my knees and start crying as only my sobs are heard. I hold my aching arms in my hands.

"James?" I hear Thomas question. I look up at him and get up. I see his brown eyes...

"Wh-What happened..?" He asks, rubbing his head. He looks to our other friends then me. I starts to come toward me but I flinch away and back away. Reynolds had already ran away.

"James I... you're bleeding.. are you okay?" He tries to touch my arm but I instinctively bring my hand forward, making him push against the wall of the mansion. The other gasp. They can't judge me.. I'm terrified of him... he looks at me shocked. Peggy runs toward me but I bring my hand up again, holding her back but not pushing her. My breathing is increased by a ton.

"James.. calm down." Alex tells me but I shake my head. I put my hands down, releasing Thomas and Peggy. Peggy's sister come towards her, helping her up. Lafayette and Herc help Thomas up. I turn to leave.

"Wait! James!" Thomas yells for me and I freeze.

"I want to help you. I'm so sorry...What do you need?" He asks me I turn my head towards him, glancing at everyone.

"I need time.." I tell them all, before turning and walking away.