You looked at Draco. How could you not? It was strange.. weird.. something that never happened before. You didn't know what it was. This wasn't pretending.. this wasn't fake. These were real.

Draco turned his head and smiled at you. You immediately smiled back. He was your friend. You had been friends for awhile. He was the only one who didn't bully you.

You were bullied because you couldn't feel emotions. You never could. So you just started pretending that you did to stop most of it.

Lately you didn't have to pretend. It was strange. For the first time in your life you felt emotions. Every time you looked at Draco. You fell in love with him. You didn't know why he was the person to make you feel all of this but you were happy with it. Even though feeling love was one of the most dangerous feeling there was.

'Are you okay?' Draco asked.

'I'm doing great.' You smiled.

'You've been very cheerful.. considering.. you know.'

Draco knew about your situation. Everyone did.. but he also noticed the change in your behaviour. He hung out with you all the time so he knew what you were usually like. You smiled more often. It wasn't something he was used too.

'I can smile, can't I?'

'No it's different. It's like you actually.. You know... feel happy.'

'I smile all the time. Just because I'm not feeling it doesn't mean I can't act like I do.'

Fear was a thing that you felt too. You were afraid of what Draco would say if he would find out. Could he be with someone like you? It was all a bit strange and scary to you. Could he guide you through this all?

'I don't think that's it.' Draco said. 'I can't quite place it. It's something in your eyes every time you smile.'

Draco took a bit of his food. He was onto you. It was horrible. He knew you too well. He was so cute. His eyes, his hair, his smile.. His voice.. his everything basically.

'Maybe I just got used to pretending and now I'm a pro actress.'

Draco grinned.

'You're not even taking what I say serious.'

'I know. It's odd what you're saying. You know what the problem is, don't you?' You asked.

'I know. It's just that.. It all feels different.' He said.

-

That evening you were sitting in the common room. Most people were sleep but you couldn't really sleep. You just stared off into the distance while millions of thoughts ran through your mind.

All of these sudden feelings were too much to handle. You didn't know how to deal with it anymore. You never experienced them before. It was frustrating but it also scared you. You actually felt like crying, something you had never done before.

Someone entered the common room. You saw Draco. You weren't even supposed to be out of the common room that late.

'Oh hey.' He smiled.

'Hey, Why are you up?' You asked.

'I could ask you the same thing.'

Draco saw that you weren't doing okay. It was kind off surprising to him.

'Are you okay?' He asked.

He sat down besides you. You just kept looking forwards. You didn't want to look at him and feel even more.

'Y/N?'

'I'm fine.' You just said.

'Y/N, I can see you're not. It's also new for me to see that. What's wrong?'

'I can't tell you.' You said.

You tried to swallow. This was all becoming too much.

'Why not?' Draco asked.

You looked at him. He saw tears in your eyes.

'Because.. I'm scared.' You choked.

'But you-'

'I know. I know I normally don't feel anything but I'm scared. I'm scared, frustrated, sad.. I'm everything.'

Draco seemed a bit shocked. He grabbed your hand but you pulled it away.

'Y/N, it's okay. These are just emotions you're feeling.. only they're the bad ones.'

'I don't want to feel anything. I always wished I did but I don't want it. You can have it back.' You said while a tear escaped.

'I? I can have it back?' He asked.

You wiped your tears away and got up. Draco grabbed your arm. You turned back to him.

'You can trust me. Talk to me. What's going on?'

'I was doing perfectly fine.' You said. 'And then you show up. You with your everything. You.. You made me feel things I've never felt before. Every time you look at me, every time you touch me, every time you talk. I need it to stop.'

'Y/N.. Are you in love with me?' He asked.

You didn't say anything. You just looked away from him. Draco pulled you into a hug. You hugged him back right away.

'It's okay.' He smiled. 'You're amazing, I like you too. I didn't know if you even liked me because of everything. I'll help you with this. I can help you.'