: Ahem...

So I'm not dead!

Alright alright put down the torches and pitchforks before you chuck them at me! But yes I do wanna apologize for not updating in awhile. I just kind of lost the motivation to update, and I guess it didn't help that this chapter is very much a filler chapter before we get into the meat of the story and the Dark Signers. I did have fun though getting back into Cathy and the Gang and trying to play off their personalities!

Hopefully I did good and I get back into the swing of updating more! Remember my loyal readers that I don't own Yugioh 5Ds, just the OCs and the OC cards! Thank you so much for sticking with me for so long and being patient! Remember to vote and comment if you wanna! Enjoy!!

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Last time on Yugioh 5Ds Lost Memories! The group and I left the hospital and went to Goodwin's mansion to get the answers that he apparently had for us. When we got there, he tried to lead Yusei, the others, and I to where the answers would be which was apparently a large temple that he had stashed away in the basement of his mansion! But for some reason I felt fear and just couldn't go near that temple as my powers weren't letting me. So I let my friends deal with those answers while I wandered around the mansion talking to that voice in my head. We had a lovely conversation where we talked about my abilities and I gave him the name 'Void' so I don't have to call him the voice in my head anymore. While looking around the large mansion, I stumbled upon though Goodwin's office! And looking around his lair, I found that this man had a whole me! And that he's been researching my abilities and things similar to it. When the man himself came into his office and caught me, he called me something that made my head pound. Catarina Sullivan. One of the names that was apparently on my Birth Certificate that he had.

My fingers picked at the grass that laid next to where I sat in the backyard of Goodwin's Mansion. I rested my backpack behind my back, tempted to pull out the snacks I had stolen earlier from the limo. But I didn't have an appetite at the moment.

Just watching the the clouds roll by above the sky. It all looked peaceful, but I really didn't feel it at the moment. I just felt so lost and confused...

I'm still not over what happened with Liquid, but now I have more on my mind.

My 'birth certificate' gripped tightly in my other hand.

It just seems like every time I come to figure out who I am or who I was, there's something new about me that gives me more questions.

Everything that happened in Goodwin's office just a few moments ago replaying in my head.

"What does this have to do with me?" I remembered questioning him staring still at the pieces of paper in my hands. "Even if this is someone I'm related to, this is all in the past! It doesn't matter cause there are far more important things compared to now."

"It's quite ironic that you say that, Catarina."

"It's Cathy! I don't need any more names for me, I'm just Cathy!" I was getting so annoyed with this man! Who does he think he is? Acting like he knows everything about me?!

Goodwin sighed before sitting at his seat at his desk, then pulling out something again. But this time it just looked like a book with some sticky tabs sticking out from it. "My apologies. I'm just saying that it is interesting you say that, when our past defines who we have become."

"And what is that supposed to mean?" I had put down my birth certificate back on his desk, pushing it towards him.

"It means," I watched as Goodwin opened the book to a specific page, "those who do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it."

He continued while reading from the book as if looking for the history within it, "There have been numerous sites and history of tragic events that were caused by 'mysterious circumstances'. Not just recently some odd years ago connected to Miss Callista Sullivan, but also farther within history."

Goodwin found the section he was looking for before pushing the contents of the book toward me a top of his desk. There was photos, pages, of all this history with articles. Examples being the wars in Greece being waged with strange divine abilities appearing, the ancient cities falling due to these wars and destruction, Egyptian history of monsters appearing and wreaking havoc, the rise and fall of dark beasts with the ancient markings of the Nazca Lines... Wait these markings!

"These are the Dark Signer marks." I mumbled under my breath, but it had been enough for the strange man in front of me to hear. And to know what I was talking about as well.

"I see your on the point of the origins of the Dark Signers. I have already told you're friends, so I'll keep it brief. The Earthbound Immortals use the power of darkness and chaos to bring destruction of the world and fight against the Crimson Signers and the Crimson Dragon. For years, until they were trapped inside those lines, till now."

It was all so confusing and what the heck did it have to do with me and my birth certificate?! My silence with a grip tightening on the book, I glanced back the director. "So this is a job for my friends, I already got that and I'm going to help them. So did I need a moment with my possible family? What does this have to do with where I come from?"

He just sighed, probably also bothered with me as I am with him, "I'm telling you this, because where do you think they got the idea to use chaos and darkness into a personification?"

When he said that, I dropped everything in my arms staring at him. What in the world was he insinuating?! Is he saying that my abilities are what the foundation of the Dark Signers are based on?!

Something I didn't even ask to be born with, that apparently has been around for what sounds like a very long time, is linked to the very thing my friends are trying to stop. "Are you saying...." It was hard to get the words out, as I could feel my nails dig into the palms of my hands. "Are you saying what I can do, its linked to the Dark Signers? That I'm evil?"

"'Evil'? That I do not know yet." He stood up from his seat to turn and lookout the window behind him. His hands behind his back as he kept talking, "without light, there would be no darkness. Vice versa. However, the Earthbound Immortals and Dark Signers use a different, more evil matter of darkness. One that is connected to the Netherworld. Your's is different and I have not been able to pinpoint where it's origins came from. Something more ancient connected to your ancestry. Something more, chaotic."

If he were to look more into that, would that be an invasion of privacy?

Goodwin turned back to look at me, something in his eyes was a lot more serious. Something he was dreading so strong enough that I could feel it. "Ever since I saw you in the Fortune Cup, your duel against The Trickster and then Yusei, I now know that your abilities are unstable. I fear that if you do not hide or control them soon, the Dark Signers will try and use them to benefit their goals. You must be careful. Catarina."

It was after he said that, I had enough and walked out of his office. Like I should've done a long time ago before he even started speaking to me. He let me take my birth certificate with me too stating that 'it belongs' to me. So I guess I'm keeping it.

And so that's why I'm sitting here, on the itchy grass through my leggings, looking at the sky, so lost. I've tried contacting Void, but he's gone silent since that whole Goodwin confrontation. I don't even know where the others are either. They've got a lot on their plates too so I'm sure they're busy trying to wrap their heads around it.

Around the idea of the Dark Signers... The group that apparently my old friend Kalin is a part of and how he hates mine and Yusei's guts at the moment.

So much has happened lately, so much of my past coming to haunt me. Then there's also the mystery of more then just my past but also my history. Or well my power's history that is. I want to know more once again, but what will that cost this time?

'Do the Dark Signers know what I am as well? Will they try and use that against the others too to try and grow their power? I've already seen what Kalin's Earthbound Immortal did! And two Dark Signers destroyed the whole Arcadia Movement together... The Arcadia Movement... Liquid...'

My mind remembered everything I just thought of which made me hug my knees close to my chest.

"Cat?" My head quickly shot up to the sudden voice of Akiza coming up towards me. I couldn't read her emotions, but judging by how her brows were furrowed together with worry evident on her face, she took a step closer to me. "Do you mind if I sit?"

I shook my head scooting a little for her to sit next to me on the ground. "Go ahead... be warned the grass will itch." I tried to make a joke through all my thoughts.

The auburn girl just chuckled a little and sat next to me. I just continued to stare ahead thinking. "I was just in the rose garden here. It's really beautiful." Akiza mentioned but I only nodded half listening. She seemed to have noticed, and I feel bad acting like this in front of her but my heads just not in it.

Akiza's hand on my shoulder did catch me enough to look back at her, "are you okay? I know that you and Yusei have a lot on your mind, especially with your friend being a Dark Signer..."

"I wish it was just that..." I muttered, my hand gripping the paper still in it. She seemed to have noticed this looking at what was in my hands.

"Cat? What is that?"

What do I tell her? What do I tell them? Do I just say, 'hey guys! So you know I have been called basically almost every name possibly imagined?! Well guess what, here's a new one called Catarina and it must be true since here's my birth certificate that Goodwin had for some reason! Oh and the only other name on it is some lady called Callie Truesdale so does that name ring any bells? Also that's her married name cause she was apparently called Callista Sullivan which means her and I are related! Cause she had powers similar to mine! Oh, speaking of my crazy abilities!!'

I had to stop my psycho thought train by biting my tongue then groan leaning back on the grass and backpack not answering Akiza at all. I want to avoid it as long as possible, but she wasn't going to let me like the good friend she is.

"I understand if it's not something you want to share, but if there is anything I can help with, I want to. Just like you helped me."

Wow she's better at convincing me to be open then I thought. Maybe Yusei is rubbing off on her.

So I just sighed and handed her the piece of stapled two paged paper to her. She looked at it and whispered my biological name aloud, "'Catarina Sullivan'?"

"It's my birth certificate." I clarified folding my arms over my eyes, continuing, "Goodwin had it."

"Why would he have your birth certificate?" Akiza asked in disbelief just as confused and lost as I was.

My shoulder only shrugged though. "I don't know exactly. But I think it has something to do not just with my abilities, but also my ancestry. I think he thinks that where my powers come from is connected to where I'm from. And not just the Satellite."

Hearing her flip the page from the side, I could hear as well her whisper the last name of the woman also on the page under 'Next of Kin'. "'Truesdale'?!"

The way she said it though. Her tone sounded like she recognized it. I sat up from my spot looking at Akiza raising a slight brow. "You know it?"

"Vaguely." She told looking back at me. "Back in Duel Academy there was these two great duelists who went to my school. They were brothers and their last name was Truesdale. I don't know much about them since they graduated a long time ago, before I even attended Duel Academy."

"Do you know if either of them got married? Or at least the name 'Callista Sullivan'?" I questioned even if it was a long shot. Akiza shook her head and that was all the answer I needed. She handed the certificate back to me before I laid back on the grass, after putting it in my backpack not wanting to think about it anymore.

'Well I guess that is some lead to my familial past... But I honestly don't particularly want to look into it. Goodwin already did that enough for me.'

"Cathy, Akiza, there you are." The familiar voice of Yusei made me open my eyes and look up the said male coming towards us with Jack who had the same grouchy look he always had.

Akiza was the first to greet them with, "hey. Are you feeling better?"

I guess I was right in Yusei also had a lot on his mind with everything about the Dark Signers and Kalin. He just nodded though and smiled back at her, "yeah I am. Thank you."

She smiled back at him with a sigh of relief. "That's good. Cause you know that we need you with us Yusei to take down the Dark Signers."

"Same to you both as well, Akiza, Cathy." Yusei looked at the two of us. But when I looked into his eyes, I wanted to feel that wave of worry wash over me like I usually do... But instead it only grew with his words.

'Do they really need me? I know I kept pushing that I will help them, but what Goodwin warned keeps replaying in my head. If I don't learn to control my powers soon, then I may just become another obstacle to them. And especially now it hasn't been easy to try and hide them.'

I moved my head away, shutting my eyes tightly to try and suppress these thoughts. But I need to tell them what I'm thinking. I could feel the three of their eyes on me, knowing I still had a lot on my mind right now.

"Cathy-"

Yusei was about to say something when Luna came running towards us, "Yusei! Cathy!" We all looked at her coming up to us as she had a determined and excited smile on her face. "You guys will be going to protect the world right?! We'll need everyone's help."

"Of course."

I stayed silent though biting my tongue once more. They didn't seem to notice this however while Akiza spoke again, "and Leo? Will he come with us too?"

We all looked back behind Luna a ways to see the boy twin walking to us. His eyes held a familiar feeling in them, lost and worried. Worry about the battle and I'm sure worry for his sister. Yet he stopped and something in his mind began to think before his mouth curved to a smile, then he began to run to the rest of us like his sister.

"Are you guys ready?! I get front row seats to watch you guys take down these evil doers and it's gonna be amazing! I so can't wait to see it!" He cheered us on, and even though I could still feel he was worried and nervous, his excitement and pride for us wasn't fake. He believed in us. He believed in them.

The boy still continued his cheering but jabbed a little at Jack going to the blonde, "oh and even though you're not number one anymore Jack, I know you'll be just as amazing and cool."

Jack didn't seem to like the implications Leo was making as he leaned down to the young boy glaring a little. "What do you mean I'm not 'number one'? I'm still the greatest duelist there ever was and don't you forget that!"

"Well I mean yeah you are still super strong, but technically you lost to Yusei so that means your number 2."

"Number 2?! Listen here you little pip squeak!"

We all just laughed and chuckled at their playful argument and it did help to ease the tension and stress in all of us. It was funny watching Jack get annoyed and upset with the words of a little kid. But Leo just had a way with people I guess.

"Don't worry about it Jack! I still get to watch you take down a couple Dark Signers so I know you're still great. Cathy and I will still cheer ya on!"

"Just you watch then, I'm going to take down all the Dark Signers and you and nobody else is going to tell me otherwise."

They both continued their little dispute while I looked back down at the grass. I would love to see that happen, or just my friends take those guys down. But I think I've made up my mind, even if I don't like it...

"I'm not going."

My out of nowhere words seemed to have stop time for them as I could feel the tension grow coming off from them. I didn't need to look up or at them to know that they were staring at me.

"Cathy..." Akiza muttered my name under my breath with a tone of worry.

"What?! But Cathy we promised to cheer them on together even if we're not Signers ourselves!" Leo tried to reason coming up to me but I couldn't bare to look at him already feeling his emotions.

Luna came up next to him kneeling right in front of me. "Please Cathy, we can't do this without you!" She practically begged that it made me immediately want to take it all back, but I tried not to.

"If it's about Kalin, or if you're worried about getting in our way, believe me you won't-"

"It's not that!" I interjected Jack's words feeling something in me begin to boil. It felt like back at the hospital. My overwhelmed mind was affecting my powers and I need to contain this, this was just the reminder of why I had come to this decision. I looked back at them all, the twins looking especially worried and scared at my snapping.

Feeling bad, I took a deep breath to try and calm down which seemed to help ease that boiling feeling. "I'm sorry... It's just, I'm starting to realize I might cause more harm than good in this battle."

Akiza placed her hand on mine that I hadn't even realized was digging deep into my palms again. "What do you mean?"

Sighing once more, I tried to think of the best way I could explain it. "After your guy's chat with Goodwin, him and I had a chat as well in his office... He began to tell me that there may be more history, and more of a connection between my powers and I with the Dark Signers."

Luna and Leo gasped as well as everyone giving subtle surprised breaths.

"S- so... Are you saying y- your a Dark Signer?" Leo asked cautious which I quickly shook my head at to assure him.

"No! No no no I am not. He told me that much that I am not one of them... But he did warn me. He warned me that the Dark Signers may use my abilities to help them. And I know you guys can understand what he means, you've seen what I can be capable of."

I gritted my teeth remembering hearing about the destruction I cause back at the Fortune Cup, to Yusei, then back at the Hospital. "If I go to the Satellite with you, what's to stop the Dark Signers from using me to hurt you guys?!"

"Us." Yusei just said one word, but it was enough for me to look up at him wide eyed. His face holding such seriousness and determination it was hard not to just notice by looking. "Cathy, we won't let that happen. We will fight them and protect you, so you don't need to worry."

"Yusei..." I wanted to believe him. Believe in all of them like how I believe they will win... But I can't for some reason. I shook my head, "thank you, but I don't want to be another thing you guys need to worry about..."

"What are you even saying?! You're talking as if you know that the Dark Signers have already taken you and using you against us!" Jack's words of annoyed assurance made me look at him unamused. "Just stick close by us and watch as we defeat them before they can even touch you!"

I bit my lip looking away. There's much I want to say, but I just can't find the right words to say it.