"I was losing and gaining at the same time... But the loss was so much terrifying that I afraid what I am gaining is gonna make me lose everything..."

Life was perfect. So perfect that it sometimes scares you. But you had the love of life with you. He was perfect.

Had a beautiful personality and a kind heart.

That's what you thought.

And that's what he makes you to see.

You believe him more than anything. He is the only thing you had with yourself. Cause everything else was falling apart.

It didn't happen in just a minute or moment. Slowly happened which made you feel scared. But he always said everything will be alright.

"Don't worry Y/N... Everything happens for a reason"

"But why?"

"Maybe they are repenting their sins"

And then he smiled.

Which made you rely on him. More and more. So much that you couldn't figure out what was going behind your back.

"Sometimes it takes a lot of work to love someone without being dirty and I think I failed that"