"You've always loved me, haven't you?"

I stare at Tyler's back, he doesn't freeze or tense when I say this so am I wrong? Am I just embarrassing myself? He spins around to face me and studies my face, he bites his lip; "you've got your memories back, haven't you?" He asks me, slowly I nod as a reply and he runs a hand through his silky locks. "Yes I have and I'm not ashamed to admit that, Shae," his blue eyes stare into my dark ones.

"Okay," I whisper in the quietest voice, changing the subject from past events I ask, "so did he tell you?" This time he freezes and shakes his head turning around so I can't see his face but his bare back. I don't really mind but I want to see his face so I know how he's feeling, he has a pretty good back by the way. He chuckles and I slap myself. He can read minds idiot!

"Enough about that, where did Marcus take you?" He asks with curiosity. We didn't really talk about the incident where he was going to kill my brother and I, none of us wanted to be the first to bring it up I guess.

"To a park. He wanted to help me control my blood lust, I guess it worked," I shrug. Literally he had a bite of a man then he released him to see if I could control myself, the first time I couldn't then Marcus started saying this really depressing crap like he had a family to go home to and what will they do when they find out he's dead... because of you? Immediately I released him and that's all I can think about when I even crave someone's blood.

"That's good," he murmurs quietly and I immediately know that something's up. He seems out of it, he's staring off into the distance like he isn't even listening to a word that I'm saying when I know he is.

"Are you okay?" I ask placing a hand on his shoulder, he seemed okay before. He looks down at me with his blue eyes and doesn't move or say something, but then he nods slowly. I frown, "are you sure?"

"Shae, I need to find her. I just need to and he isn't f*cking telling me where she is!" He clenches his fist and punches the wall beside him, I flinch; Alejandro obviously hasn't told him yet, this is tearing Tyler apart and if Tyler's sad, so am I. So I will figure out where ever his mother is. I push him to the bed and lie him down, he sighs and runs a hand through his hair looking up at the ceiling. I lean down and kiss him on the lips softly, I spin around and I am about to walk out when he says, "please, stay."

I look at him over my shoulder and sigh softly before walking over to him and laying down next him. He wraps his arms around me and I wrap an arm around his waist and thread my fingers of my other hand through his hair gently, he exhales in content and his eyes close. "I love you," I whisper softly and kiss his cheek, he keeps his eyes closed; he looks relaxed.

Tyler flutters his eyes open and stares at me, "I love you too." He turns on his side and snuggles into me, I chuckle and wrap my arms around him and place my leg over his hip. I wait minutes for him to fall asleep and when he does I slowly slide out from my position and tip toe to the door, I close the door behind me and walk out of the house and to the cellars. I open the cell door when I get there and glare at Alejandro, his eyes open and he sniffs the air before recoiling back in disgust which he has no right to be disgusted.

"Vampire," he growls lowly. I stop in front of him and stare down at his now bony body, his jaw clenches and he looks really unhealthy. I push back my good side and focus on why I came here, for Tyler.

"Where is she?" I spit, my fists clenching. "This can all be over if you just tell us where his mother is, is this some sort of ploy? Or do you actually not have her, you most likely don't know where she is, do you?" I fire question after question. All of these curiosities need to be answered!

Not that I know what it feels like but no one can really handle it when they loose both their parents, I wouldn't be able to handle it. Tyler's strong but not strong enough for this. He stays silent, he doesn't want to answer me. I'm not going to hurt him, it might not get me anywhere but I'm not that sort of person.

"TELL ME!" I scream at him, I'm desperate. All I want is to know so Tyler can be happy, so he can have one happy memory with his family because he has no happy memories and that isn't fair! I drop to my knees sobbing, I place my head in my hands as the sobs echo through the cell. "Please tell me, please," I plead looking up at him, for a moment I see something flash in his eyes- grief, sadness, hurt, all of the above.

He sighs softly, "all I want is to get out of here alive and get revenge on Tyler." I look at him in shock, how could he say that?

"Alejandro, you think that vampires are the monsters when you're just as bad! When I was human it was you Wolves that tried killing Sam and I, you are doing this to Tyler; don't you think he's had punishment enough? He is suffering and it literally kills me to know how much he's hurting and there's nothing I can do about it, now I'm trying okay? I'm trying to stay calm and be nice, I'm trying to help my boyfriend/ mate. I'm trying!" I'm breathing heavily by the time I finish my speech, it's all 100 percent honest.

"We are not monsters," he murmurs quietly to himself and I scoff. "Fine, I'll tell you okay? She's dead! She has been for years now, we thought that it would be a good idea to hurt Tyler. Maybe we've gone too far, I admit that. We don't know how she died at all, but it has been confirmed she's dead- I saw the body myself." I stay silent, tears push forward. There's nothing I can do. There's nothing I can do. Tyler will be broken!

"YOU ARE A MONSTER!" I scream sobbing hysterically, I can't help it. This is a sad moment for me, I wish things were different, easier. But I don't think that they ever will be any easier, everything is so hard. "You never told us! The whole time everything was a lie, just to get revenge. Now that is cruel, I understand that he killed your mum but think about this; how did you feel when she died, did it feel like the whole world was falling apart? Did it feel like you were suffocating and you didn't understand why everyone around you could breath. Then did you not want to feel? All you wanted was for it to be a nightmare, but it never was because it was reality. Reality is a nightmare! And none of us can stop it, it will keep hurting us and hurting us but god doesn't want us to hate and get revenge, he wants us to forgive! That's impossible, I get it but this was just so wrong Alejandro!"

He stays silent, everything is silent. Prisoners in other cells are even silent, the crickets can be heard literally. And my occasional sobs, does he deserve whatever is coming to him? But then I'd be a hypocrite because I said God expects us to forgive. But sometimes it's not easy to forgive and I know he knows that I know that fact. "I'm sorry," he whispers, I don't want to hear this anymore. I stand up and run out of the cell after looking it, I run as fast as I can thinking about all the ways to tell Tyler because he deserves to know. I storm through the house and straight to our room, I open the door seeing Tyler sounds asleep.

"Wake up, Tyler!" He jolts awake and looks at my face that is most likely red and puffy from crying so much, even my throat hurts. "T-there's something I need to tell you," I stutter and he sits up patting the spot next to him. I take a seat and grab his hands, seeing my stress and discomfort he sits me on his lap and rubs my back.

"What's wrong?" He asks worriedly, I take a deep breath and stare at him. So many things will go wrong, and I hate the idea of him hurting but I keep reminding myself that he needs and deserves to know.

"While you were asleep, I snuck out. I wanted to help you because I'm tired and hurt seeing you in so much emotional pain, so I went to the cell and talked to Alejandro. Lots of yelling went on and h-he told me where she is, Tyler," a smile spreads out onto his face and he's about to bounce up and down in excitement but I blurt out, "she's in heaven. She's dead, Tyler."

My lip wobbles and I can practically see his world crashing in front of him, he looks surprised then broken, he lifts me off him and grabs the nearest thing which is a vase and smashes it against the wall screaming. Screaming out in pain, I hold my hand to my mouth and cry into it; I'm meant to be there for Tyler but all I can do is cry with him, mourn his mother. I can't even be strong for him because this is the first time that I've seen Tyler really broken.

He sits in a corner rocking and muttering words, "she's dead. She's dead. She's dead." He repeats, I take a deep breath and walk over to him. He keeps changing 'she's dead' over and over again, I crouch down in front of him and he stares at me with frantic tearful eyes. I pull him to me in a tight hug, his head rests against my chest and I kiss the top of it. He sobs, "Shae, I don't want to feel anymore."

I freeze at his words and shake my head, "no Tyler. Don't give up, please. You'd be leaving me, don't leave me, don't leave us. We'll get through this, together. Please don't," I cry, his arms tighten around me and he lifts my head up. "What's the point of living if you don't have your humanity on?" I whisper.

He kisses my forehead, "I won't leave you," he promises.

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