Days had gone by, a full week had gone by and his touch, voice and scent drifted through my mind. I was too proud to beg for him back, when he had hurt me more than he realized, he stood there as I begged him to tell me he wanted me. But his silence scarred me more than his words could ever.

"Smoothie?", Avery asked as she handed me a mango smoothie, the color of yellow reminding me of how I felt when I was with him, happy.

"Have you heard anything?", I asked her as she had just gotten off a call from Tyler. She shook her head as my expression fell yet again. I asked myself at night why I didn't go home, leave my stubbornness here and say that I didn't care, I didn't care if he hated me, if I was too much for him, because I just needed to feel his touch again, his lips again. But I never could, and the end of the day I spent alone, in a large bed on an exotic and romantic island.

"I was thinking we should go out tonight", Avery suggested as I looked down at my butterfly fuzzy pants and up at the sun set.

"Come on, please", she begged as I sipped on the sweet nectar smoothie.

"Fine, as long as I get to leave when I want", my one condition she agreed too and dragged me to her closet, she threw multiple dresses at me as I flipped through each one trying to figure out what dress to wear.

"This one is perfect", she held it up as I starred at it with a questionable expression. It was short and tight, and just something I would never wear.

"I don't know if I should go", I spoke hesitantly as I saw her expression, she tried to persuade me but I wouldn't budge.

"I didn't want to tell you this but Nolan is out he's partying, see", she unlocked her phone as I saw him drinking an exotic drink as girls wrap around him and I couldn't seem to notice Tiffany trying to get his attention.

" that's not him, right", I roam the picture to the center as I see his bright smile, but I try to hide the fact that I know it's him. He could've been the guy in the background, the stripper for all I care but he was happy, happy without me.

"Listen he still loves you I know he does, but I think he's just angry and going drinking and hanging out with girls, cools him off", she explained but it didn't make me feel better, not at all. How could she say that was an excuse to do this? How could she not understand the rage coursing through me? He was dirt to me, any of of his explanations wouldn't make sense, I was tired of him saving his own ass in the end. But he wasn't the only one who could have all the fun, two can play at this game, dearest husband.

I grabbed the tight dress and put it over my head, he didn't miss me, but like hell I missed him.

He doesn't miss me, what was I thinking, that he would come down here and declare his love for me and we'd promise to try together. This is not a movie or a romantic love story, it's my fucked up life that I eventually have to fix.

"You ready?", Avery peered in as she came back in a red silk dress that flowed from each way. It reminded me of that night on the beach as he said he loved me over and over again.

"Yeah", I ran my fingers over my wedding ring, wondering if it had left his finger yet, or had he kept it on. I slid mine back on as a sign of the future and forgetting the past.

I stared at myself in the mirror, trying to feel that love and laughter that surrounded me when I was with him. I longed for that feeling, but I knew deep down that no one not even myself could love me just as much as he did. The words prevailed me as I stood tracing my body just like he would on cold stormy nights. I missed him, but did he miss me?

Nolan's POV

My hands were cold, my heart was numb as I slept on the lonely couch hoping to wake up from this horrid dream. I didn't realize just how much she had changed me until she left, how much she had changed my bachelor pad, it didn't reek of fancy cologne but of sunshine, the bed smelt of us together creating a scent I wish I could savor forever. The bathroom smelt of her sweet perfume and the smell of the red nail polish she painted delicately on her stubby toes. I wasn't mad at her, how could I. It just struck me how much she knew so much about my life and I didn't know much about hers. I don't know why I left and I wish I could explain it, I went up and down on the elevator like a mad man and as I saw a couple getting on holding hands, I knew that she was the one, the other stuff didn't matter. I went back to the apartment in a rage, but when I arrived she was gone.

I had devoured myself into my work, to take my mind off the fact that Natalie was gone. My eyes burned as I remembered the evenings she spent working with me finishing documents and signing. She would call me a workaholic any chance she got and I would play along knowing it was true, but now that there was no one to distract me or make me want to make time for something. The bar was a new investment I made impulsively and it spread like wildfire, soon the streets were filled up and there the club was in all its glory. That night I had spent forgetting and drinking, every girl I saw I wish it was her, her scent was like no other, her touch was like no one else and her lips so soft.

She would come back, I reminded myself every moment my mind started to wander, to what she was thinking. But every time I would turn it off and absorb myself back into my work, forgetting there was ever a girl who ripped my heart out.

"Can I get 2 shots of tequila and keep em coming", Avery shouted against the loud music as he poured us a shot. The atmosphere was lively and smelt of sweat and lust. I grabbed the small glass and poured it down waiting for the burn, that stung more than the aching one in my heart.

Shot after shot, everything started to become blurry as I danced across the room, letting the feeling of loneliness not take effect. Hands wrapped around my body as I lost myself in the music.

I sat back down at the bar as I drank Avery's drink hoping the fruitiness would take away the strong taste in my mouth. Avery on the other hand was playing darts by the top of the club with a group of girls.

"That man over there ordered you a drink", the bartender pointed at a man across the room as I felt flattered and he started walking over.

"Never seen a pretty lady like you here, visiting?", he asked as I nodded my head drinking the vodka he sent over. His hands held mine as I shook it off and he didn't get a hint. The song I needed finally came on, I handed him the drink back as I disappeared onto the dance floor.

I lost myself in the song as a man's hands held my waist and it reminded me of him so much, I closed my eyes and saw him seducing me in the mirror.

"Nolan", I moaned feeling his burning touch against my skin as he kept going.

"Names not Nolan, but you can call me whatever you want", I turned around as I had hoped this whole time it was Nolan, his hands guiding my body and his words guiding me to where I need to let go.

"I'm sorry I have to go", I said as I stared back at his face, they looked nothing alike yet just a memory of him would suffice for me. I scurried off as I ran for space outside and Avery followed.

"I'm so stupid", I grabbed my phone that had been tucked into my clutch and I began dialing his number.

"Think about what you're doing here, you came to escape", she reminded me as I was about to hit call, I wanted to call him, to hear his voice. I hit call and the phone dials as I listen closely and I hope he picks up.

"Natalie", his voice sounds surprised and I listen as he repeats it over and over again. I hang up the phone, reminding my self that he is the one that broke me.

Avery takes my phone and stuffs it in my pocket as she grabs us a cab, her fingers run through my hair as I cry on the way home, letting my emotions flood from me.

The cab dropped us at our beach house and I ran to the beach in search of honesty and no more fear.

"He's moved on hasn't he", I cry into her shoulder as we sit on the beach watching the moon shine onto the crystal water.

"No, you two love each other, just give him some time and he'll remind you why you love him in the first place", she assured me, that night seemed the most lonely I had felt and as I checked my phone there was no new phone calls or messages.

His voice played over in my head as I tossed and turned trying to sleep peacefully, but all I thought was I wanted to go home.

How did it come to this? I had one rule in life don't ever stay in one place long enough for people to figure you out, but know everyone knew me, everybody had figured me out and I couldn't even stay around this time.

I closed my eyes, wanting too forget the hurt I had caused on him and he had caused on me. His silence stung that night, but his actions hurt me more, he would talk to her of all people, she had ruined us once and now she's come back to claim what's hers, was I really competition, no.

My mind drifted to a dream where I was safe, my eyes opened vividly as I scanned the room for him and there he was brushing his teeth over the counter, he rinsed his mouth and gave me a kiss, tasting of mouthwash and mint. I woke up smiling, feeling the sun stretch along my skin, the door opened as two little munchkins ran in chasing each other. They were beautiful, the girl looked so much like Nolan, daring yet beautiful, her eyes sparkled as she came and hugged me softly. My eyes glanced over to the boy, he looked just like me, his brunette curls and his shining eyes ran to me.

"We have a beautiful family", Nolan said as he sat on the bed and kissed my cheek as they sat on our laps, it was so real, so close, but I couldn't grab it, so close it so far. I saw the smile that was seen across my face and I wanted to feel that happy, that loved, that full of happiness.

My eyes flickered as I shut them tighter to go back to the moment, I wanted to grab and hug. A gust picked up outside as I had left my window open. I shut the window and ran outside to feel the breeze rock me far away.

The tears fell from my cheek as I cried out, in search of serendipity. I rocked myself against the cold wind. The rain came down light, as I let it hit against me. The water drenched my hair as I called out to the rain feeling it crash against me.

"Why do you hate me so much?", I shouted into the sky as lightning struck the weightless water. The words struck me as I realized it was all me I had messed everything up.

I pulled my phone out covering it from the rain as I dialed his phone number, I loved him and that was that. It didn't matter who called first, it mattered that we both loved each other with whatever was inside of us.

"Nolan, I love you and I miss you and-", the ringing came from a distance as I turned my back.

"I miss you too", a voice called from the distance as I turned around and saw him, drenched in water walking closer to me. His suit was drenched in rain and as he stopped in front of me our eyes couldn't take a second away from each other.