I'm broken , I'm more than broken

Losing my mom and dad is not a really great feelings , I don't have any parents anymore. I kept crying at his burial ceremony and Sky kept comforting me.

Now my world was completely torn with this situation. Dad never wake up again to see us one last time. I'm hurt , I am more than hurt.

I looked at the coffin before they buried down. I still can believe this , I still can't. I don't want to believe this situation. God why? Why do you decide to take my dad away?

Mark was worse than me , he didn't say anything he just cried his heart out. We both so broke knowing he can't live again.

"Daddy!" I cried out loud and buried my face to Sky's chest

Now it's time to put the coffin to the deep soil , I'm trying my best to let go. At least I have a memory with them and they die because of sickness not stupid things. I love my parents so much and this is too much. I can't handle it

"I'm sorry" Sophia hold my hand and hugged me tightly and I cried again in her embrace

"He's gone" I mumbled

"He will be still in your heart" I heard Sophia whispered

"Thankyou" I said and try to smile even a little

Sky's friend said their deep condolence and try to comfort me but my heart still needs process about everything. After the burial finish , we all walked back to the car.

"Can I stay here for a little bit?" I asked Sky

"Let me-"

"No!" I gulped , "Let me be here alone pl-"

"I know you're not in a good condition Jenny so please let me accompany you" He hold my shoulder and she nodded weakly. Mark decided to get on with Aaron and they already gone. I leaned to Sky's car side and just stare at the ground

"Since I was a kid , we're not rich but we life a simple life. We got everything , everything was perfect until one day mom got sick" I sighed and Sky hold my hand

"She got cancer , she knows it but she never tells us. She died 7 years ago and after that my dad become so sad. He's sick and when he's driving accident happens , it made him coma"

"Ever since then I get my ass to work to survive and take care of his bills and my brother's school bills" Sky caressed my hand

"He never wakes up until 3 days ago he almost die but God gave him a little chance , we decided to gave him a heart transplant surgery and now he's gone" I cried and Sky hugged me tightly , crying in his embrace and let all my sadness out

"You're a strong girl , you know that?" He said and kissed my forehead

"Why God is so cruel? I never want anything big , I just want a simple things but it seems-"

"He has another plan for you , you can't blame him" He out his hands on my shoulder and lean down. Looking at me and he slowly smile

"I'll be by your side okay?"

"Now you make me regret writing that article in that blog" I said slowly and he chuckled lightly

"Well if you didn't write it , we won't be this close"

"I'm useless , I have think about commiting suicide a few times" I looked away not daring to look into his eyes

"If you commit suicide , your brother will be alone in this world. You want that? Who will be my secretary then? Who will get on my nerves again? Who will make me completely piss at the office then? Don't think shortly Jan , people around you need you" He pulled my chin so I'm facing him

"I'm tired of this life"

"So what do you want to do now?" He asked

"Resign from your company maybe , have a really short vacation to let out the sadness , pursue my dreams maybe.. I don't know" I sighed

"If you want to resign that bad then do it" That make me looked at him , looking for playful stare but none. He's serious

"I will repay all you kindness Sky , I promise. I swe-"

"Don't give me that bullshit" That make me stare to him shock

"What do you mean?" He suddenly took out a little brown envelope , he gave it to me. I looked at it weirdly until he force me to take it.

"It's a ticket to Greece for 3 months , I booked you a hotel in Luke's hotel there. Go have fun and relieve your stress. Reach your dreams and when you're ready and get your sense back. Come back to me in 3 months" He looked into my eyes

Shit

I'm falling for this man and this is crazy

"I- I can't take this , you already do much for me okay? I can't" I pushed the envelopes back to him

"It's not free , that's why I told you to come back and look for me after 3 months" I shook my head

"I will be a burden in your life Sky don't ma-"

"Take it and come back to me in 3 months" He repeated again , he shoved the envelope to my hand again

"I always hurt you but you always kind to me" I looked at the ground

"You never hurt me" I heard him saying

"The plane will be in 2 days at 10 a.m , I'll pick you up at 6.30 and we-" I sobbed and he stopped

"Hey what's wrong?" He asked and I circled my arms to his waist

"I just can't stop thanking you" I mumbled , he stroke my hair

"Then don't stop , make it your debt for the rest of your life" He said and kissed the top of my head

"What if I don't comeback?" I asked

"You will"

"What if I don't?" I asked again

"You will"

"Why are you so sure?"

"I'll let you figure it out in 3 months" He said and I secretly smile in his embrace. I looked up to him and just stare into his brown eyes.

"The devil sure has a angel heart" I said and smiled

"It's hidden" He smiled

"Stop looking at my lips will you?"

"Shit"

"Stop cursing" I hissed

"Are you fucki-" I shut his mouth with my lips and kissed him passionately.