What am I gonna do? This is the most terrifying thing I have ever had to face in my entire life. Yeah, my mom dying from cancer was terrible, but now, I'm the one that might die from cancer. I haven't even lived my life. I'm just a 17 year old high school student trying to figure things out. I had dreams of having the perfect wedding, the nicest house on the block with a white picket fence, and 2 beautiful kids. I don't know if they'll ever come true now.

I sighed and slowly slid into my comfortable bed, cuddling with a huge blanket my grandmother made me. When she found out we were moving, she said she wanted to make me something that would keep me warm at night and remind me of home, so she made me a gigantic blanket covered in titles of my favorite songs. I love it so much. On the back of my blanket, she put the last words my mother said to me. When she first showed me this, I cried and screamed at her. I didn't want to be reminded of that horrific day, but in the end, I knew she was just trying to remind me of how much my mom cared about me. I read the tear inducing words every night before I go to bed.

I love you to the moon and back. You're beautiful inside and out and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You have the biggest heart of anyone I know. You are the reason I looked forward to waking up every morning. You lit up every room you walked into. Your smile always made my day. I want you to have the best life possible. Get married to the man of your dreams, and have the job you're destined for. I'll always love you, my darling. You are my angel.

I miss her so much it hurts. I always went to her when I needed help with homework, or talk about anything from my day to my recent crush. We talked about anything and everything. We were so close. She was my best friend.

I started sobbing, not being able to control it anymore. I let out every tear I've been holding in for the past 5 years. And that's how I fell asleep, crying my eyes out.

I woke up to the annoying sound of my alarm clock. Now I have to go to stupid school. At least I get to see Brooklyn, Cody, and Ezra. They are the only reasons I actually show up to school. If it wasn't for them, I would probably be homeschooled.

I dragged myself into the bathroom and turned on my shower. While I waited on the water to get warm, I brushed my teeth and turned on my music. I brushed my teeth for about 3 minutes and then hopped into my inviting shower.

15 minutes later, I'm scrummaging through my closet, trying to find a presentable outfit for school. I decided on a T-shirt I got from a Saving Abel concert a few years ago, and a pair of miss me jeans. I threw on a pair of black converse with hot pink shoelaces. I straightened my hair and braided my bangs to the side. Simple, but cute. It'll do. I grabbed my over the shoulder purse and my cellphone then ran down the stairs into the kitchen for a good breakfast. I made myself 2 fried eggs, 3 pieces of bacon, and a gravy covered biscuit. I poured myself a glass of apple juice and sat down at the kitchen table to enjoy my delicious meal.

I listened to the sound of birds chirping and the whistling wind. The buds were blooming out into lovely flowers. When you take just a few minutes to admire the worlds ravishing beauty, you realize you may have been taking everything for granted. We wake up every morning complaining about the smallest things when we should be waking up praising all of the things we've been blessed with. Some people weren't lucky enough to wake up.

"Oh crap!" I yelled to myself.

I looked at my phone, and started rushing to my truck. I have 20 minutes to pick up the Williams' and get to school before 1st period begins. Great way to start off the day.

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"Did you see her face?" Cody laughed. "It was priceless!!"

Everyone at our table is laughing their heads off because there's a video of me yelling at Britney on our school's website. I don't see what's so funny about it, but whatever.

"You're a legend." Cody's new friend Josh stated.

"No I'm not. She just finally got what she deserved. No one else had the balls to do it." I said, stating the obvious.

"You got that right. No way could I have done that. I would be too afraid of her ruining my high school life by torturing me every day. She would probably hire some jock to put my head in a toilet." Josh laughed.

She probably would. She's tortured me already, so it wouldn't change anything from the current....... relationship we already have.

"Hey babe. You ready for that date tonight?" Ezra asked as he sat in the chair next to mine.

"Umm.... Yeah, I guess. I need to stop by my dad's office before we go though. I would just call, but he never answers me at work."

"Okay. That's fine. Do you wanna know where we're going?" He asked, smirking.

"Duh."

"Too bad."

I stuck my tongue out at him and he just laughed.

"You're so cute when you're acting childish."

"Whatever." I replied, sticking my tongue out at him again while slightly blushing.

He put his arm around me so I was practically shoved into his lap. I was gonna fight him, but I decided to just give in and save the time. I need to savor every minute I have.

I wasn't paying attention to what anyone was saying. I was too busy thinking about what my future may hold for me. I'm not ready to leave this place. I don't want to be so sick I can't even lift a finger. Life can be so cruel. I'm not going to blame God. I know he didn't do any of this to us. He's a God of love, and a God of love wouldn't do this to his children. Satan and his demonic self did this. He's ruined the world God had planned on making into a Paradise for all of his children to dwell in. God helps us cope with all of the crazy things the world may throw at us. I'm glad I can talk to him. I know he'll help me. It may not involve healing me, but at least he'll help me through this life changing event. Who knows? Maybe I won't even have cancer. I really need to hurry up and take these dang tests.

"Hey, you okay? You've been out of it all day." Brooklyn said in a whisper, so only I could hear her.

"Huh? Oh yeah. I'm fine. Just a little stressed about all of my college applications and scholarships."

It wasn't a lie. I've applied to 6 different colleges. They are all my top choices, so an acceptance letter from any of them would be a blessing. I've applied for around 60 scholarships. They are really hard to get. I started applying for them the first day of my senior year. We only have a semester and 4 weeks of school left so I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get all of this mess finalized. My career counselor and I have been having a meeting once a week to go over all of my applications and all of the costs each college will have if I don't get enough scholarships to pay for all 4 years. I'm gonna have to get multiple jobs to pay for my advanced education if it's not paid for.

"I feel ya girl. My mom is hounding me 24/7. I've applied for so many colleges and scholarships, my fingers are about to fall off. Those essay's are really long and difficult to write. I won't be surprised if I don't get in anywhere. My essay's look like they were written by a 4th grader."

I laughed. "You're essay's are ten times better than mine. You've always been better at English then me. I bet you get in to every college you've applied to."

"Pff. Yeah right. In my dreams, literally."

Not only do I have to worry about having cancer, but I have to get everything in by the deadline and they are all due during the same week. All of my hair is gonna be gone by graduation from me pulling it out.

"I'm gonna go to the bathroom before class. You know how she is."

"I sure do." Brooklyn sighed.

Ms. Jane hates it when we ask to use the restroom in her class. She only let's her favorite students leave. Let's just say, I'm not on that list.

Before I made it to the bathroom, I ran into a tall, muscular figure. I looked up to see who I needed to apologize to, and immediately regretted it. Austen was looking down at me, smirking.

"Kylie, Kylie, Kylie. You're lookin pretty down today. Trouble in Paradise?" He asked.

"No. Ezra and I are just fine. In fact, we're better than fine. We're amazing. Best relationship I've ever been in." I smirked.

"I wasn't just talking about your 'relationship' with Ezra."

"Why did you put air quotes around relationship?" I asked curiously.

"That's for me to know and for you to find out."

"Okay........ I'm fine. Now just let me use the dang bathroom." I declared, shoving him out of the way.

I didn't want to push any further on the whole 'for me to know and for you to find out' thing. I knew if I did, he would just find a way to bring me down like he always does. I wish everyone would leave me alone and live their own life instead of worrying about mine.

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"I'll be out in a minute. You can come in and set in the waiting room if you want. It would probably be better than setting in your car."

"No. I'm fine. I need to make a call anyways." Ezra replied.

"Okay." I kissed his cheek. "Don't leave without me."

"Wouldn't dream of it." He smiled.

I smiled back and walked off towards my dad's office. He works for a law firm. Their office building is huge. I always get lost in it. My dad finally, after getting lost 7 times, made me a map. Instead of bringing it with me every time I come here, I took a picture of the horribly drawn map so I didn't lose it.

"I'm here to see Mr. Anders. I'm his daughter." I told the overly dressed receptionist.

"He's in a meeting, but he should be out shortly. You can take a seat right over there." She said, pointing to an open seat area by a large water fountain.

I fiddled with my fingers, played candy crush, checked all of my social sites, and had a short conversation with an old man before my dad was done with the boring meeting.

"What do you need? I'm kind of busy at the moment." My father said, looking through a stack of papers.

"I just have a small question. I would have called, but you never answer when you're at work."

"Sorry about that. I'm always in a rush to get everything done. As you can see, it's very hectic up here."

"Yeah..... This won't take long.... Umm..... Do I have to wait until the day I turn 18 to take the tests or can I do it now? I hate having to wait."

My dad's face turned a pale white. He stopped shuffling through the papers, sighed, and then finally answered my question.

"I don't know. I'll call them tomorrow morning and ask. Don't worry about it. Everything's gonna be okay."

"That's what you said about mom. It clearly wasn't okay. She's dead, dad. I don't wanna end up like her. I want to have a chance at life." I said, holding back my tears.

"Hey. Come here." He said, opening his arms.

I gladly went to them. I hugged him with all of my might.

"I love you daddy."

"I love you too sweetheart."

(A/N Okay so.... I was reading through some of my book and I realized, I need to edit A LOT. I'm sorry for all of the mistakes. They will be fixed soon. Thank you for reading! Y'all are amazing! :D)