I sighed in frustration trying to sleep but it wouldn't come. My mates slept beside me, both snoring as usual. Alaric and Karter have both been staying awake most nights so I can get a full nights sleep to have the pups while they slept throughout the day.

That was two months ago we agreed to do that. It started off okay, but for the last two weeks I haven't been able to sleep at all. Alaric and Karter sit in the nursery so the pups don't wake me, they get to the pups quicker if they sit in there. My only concern is that the pups will get used to their fathers being there every night so they won't sleep on their own.

Especially Amaris, as a runt he has his comfort person, at first it was me and now it's his fathers. I don't want him becoming too dependent on them simply because we won't be here forever. Well I won't be that's for sure. And I am so used to sleeping in a bed surrounded by my mates, it's now only registering to my body that I'm alone.

So instead of worrying my mates about my sleeping habits, I've laid in bed so they think I'm asleep. I don't move, I keep my breathing level so they don't over worry themselves. Eventually sleep comes to me so I get enough hours to care for my children, but tonight no matter how hard I try, I can't sleep.

Getting up, climb over Karter and walk into the nursery. Now my pups are four months old, they are going a few more hours between feedings, in a couple months they'll be able to go on to baby foods, so hopefully when they're about nine, ten months we can take them off the milk and try them with cows milk, not formula. Then when they get to a year and a half old we'll get them to sleep on their own without the comforts of milk so they don't become dependent on sleeping with milk.

Walking into the nursery, I look at my sleeping pups. Atlas looking more and more like Alaric, Aria so much like Karter and Amaris is definitely my mini me. I thought if we had a girl and a boy, the boy would take after his fathers, having features from both my handsome mates, but no. My two oldest pups having all their fathers' features while my youngest baby is like me. I'm sure his mindset will be like mine as well, but we'll take one day as it comes and we'll do what we can to help him with every one of his needs.

Moving from their cots, I sat down in one of the rocking chairs pulling my legs up to my chest. I placed my arms on my knees before placing my chin on top. My eyes flicking between each of my pups who I could see through the bars of their cribs. A soft smile came on to my face when I saw Atlas smile in his sleep. Probably dreaming about milk. The chunky pup could drink milk enough for the whole pack and want more.

My baby girl laying there, she's so beautiful it's hard to even comprehend she's my daughter. I'm no beauty but seeing her I know she'll have all the boys after her. Even girls, I don't care as long as she's happy. The same with Atlas and Amaris, as long as my children are happy I don't care who or what their mate is. Or mates if they have more than one.

Look at me, I ended up with a mix of wolf and vampire for one mate and a full vampire for the other. I don't know what more I could want. I have everything I've dreamed of, a mate to love and care for me, I got that. I got double of it. Children who mean the absolute world to me, I got that. I have everything I could ever ask for.

Just as my eyes were closing, a cry filled the room making me and my wolf go on high alert. I only relaxed when I saw it was Atlas crying, it was time for the pups to feed anyway. I picked up Atlas to calm him before he woke his siblings and fathers, they need their rest and it's not like I'm not capable of doing it on my own. If I need help I know where my mates are.

Taking my hungry pup to the kitchen, I made up three bottles of milk carrying two under one arm while the other held Atlas. My hand spare so I could feed him then burp him so I could do the same to his brother and sister. I do tend to feed Atlas first simply because he will cry and not stop until he has a full belly. And as it's only me, my other two pups will have to wait a couple minutes.

Also Atlas drinks his milk fairly quickly so I can leave Aria and Amaris for a few minutes to do what I need to do for Atlas then get him back to sleep before feeding and burping my other pups. So when I got back to the nursery, I put the two bottles down before sitting again to carry on feeding my son in a more comfortable place.

"Why didn't you wake us?" Alaric yawned as him and Karter walked in just after I sat down.

"I've got it. You two are exhausted, go back to sleep." I told them.

"No, we can help you." Karter mumbled and picked up Amaris before coming over to me and picking up the bottle, well he tried to.

"Karter, I've got it. Go back to bed. You can't even pick up the bottle, go and get some rest." I sighed. I know he'd never harm our pups, but he can barely pick up the bottle, I just don't want him accidentally dropping our pup because he's too tired. He needs his rest.

"Karter go to bed. I'll feed him." Alaric put his arms out for Amaris.

"No, both of you have barely slept in two months. I've got it, go and get some rest please. You can do it all tomorrow." I stated.

Karter nodded and laid Amaris back in his cot before kissing my head and going back into our bedroom. Alaric sat down next to me looking down at our daughter and feeding her, her bottle. "You can go back to bed. I can manage."

"I'm fine. I'll feed Aria and then I'll go. It's okay." My mate smiled at me. I could see he was tired, but no where near as tired as Karter who looked as if he was seconds from passing out.

"Okay. Just let me know if you get too tired. I'll take her from you." I replied to which he nodded and looked back at Aria.

When I looked at Atlas he had finished his milk so I put the bottle down and raised him to my shoulder, patting his back gently to get him to burp. Once he released two big burps and a couple small ones I rubbed his back until he fell asleep before laying him back in his cot.

As soon as I turned around to see how my mate and little girl was doing, I smiled shaking my head. Alaric had Aria on his shoulder while they both slept. Carefully I pulled my daughter from her fathers hands to see if she had anymore wind so she could go back to bed. After getting my little girl to sleep, I picked up my littlest boy and sat down on the rocking chair again.

"Alaric." I rubbed his hand that rested on the side of the chair. His eyes opened as he looked at me, looking down eyes widening before relaxing seeing Aria in her cot. "Go back to bed. I'll feed Amaris and then I'll be there."

"Okay." He nodded. "Come and wake me if you need anything. I'll come running." He chuckled a little.

"I know you will. Same with Karter. Now sleep, you look like you could pass out any second." I smiled at him. Alaric leaned down and kissed me until I pulled away knowing he'll turn it into something he can't even do right now. "Bed." I told him sternly.

"Okay, okay I'm doing. I love you." He pecked my lips again.

"I love you." I smiled at him.

"And I love you little man." Alaric kissed Amaris' head before doing the same to Aria and Atlas and then going back to the bedroom.

"You're daddies are too stubborn sometimes. Come on, let's feed you and get you back to bed as well." I spoke down at Amaris.

Once he was fed and I changed their bums quickly so they could sleep peacefully until morning which their fathers will change them again and feed them their morning milk. They let me sleep then so I have enough energy for the rest of the day. Once I got back into bed, Alaric and Karters arms wrapped around me.

"Sleep, we'll do the morning feed so you can sleep." Karter mumbled sleepily to me.

"And don't fight us on it. By that time we'll be back to normal." Alaric stated.

"Okay. I love you two." I replied and kissed both their cheeks.

"We love you more." Both said and kissed mine then laid back down. And not long after I closed my eyes, I was able to sleep in the comforts of my mates.