Christy's POV

I got out of the car and I walked to my locker. I honestly didn't feel anything anymore. I let someone in after they promised they wouldn't hurt me or leave me and now this. Maybe love isn't meant for me. Maybe I gave her too much. Maybe I expected too much.

When I got to my locker, I saw Kayla standing there with a cup of coffee, a flower, and a bagel.

I ignored her presence and mumbled a soft "excuse me" as I walked in front of my locker.

Kayla stepped to the right but she didn't leave.

"What do you want?" I spat out bitterly.

Kayla's whole body tensed before speaking. She had never experienced this side of me. The side that was bitter and hard, extremely cold to the touch. The side that I reserved for certain people in my life. "Christy, can we please talk?" she said softly.

"I don't have anything to say."

"Come on, I brought you coffee and a bagel please babe I-" She pleaded.

"Don't babe me. I'm not your babe. I also don't want your coffee or bagel." I turned around while turning away from her and started walking toward my class.

"Please Christy I just need-"

"Need to what? Justify why you fucking cheated on me with Jesse even though you said there wasn't anything going on with you two?" I looked straight into her blue eyes and stared at her. She didn't say anything for a moment since she was drawn in by my sudden eye contact.

"Jesse and I were nothing-"

"Can you please stop fucking saying that? You obviously were willing to ruin our relationship for him, so why do you keep saying that?"

There were tears running down Kayla's face now. I could feel mine piling up in my eyes threatening to spill.

"Please. I just need a second chance." Kayla pleaded as she held on to my arm. I noticed a crowd was forming around us so I decided to just leave her there and go to class.

I was furious at Kayla. I wasn't actually mad, I was more sad and hurt than angry. I let her in. I told her my secrets and I trusted her with my heart. I can't believe she got the best of me and I trusted every word she said cause little did I know, she would rip my heart out and stomp on it in front of me.

The first three periods made my whole day worse. I guess word got around that we broke up pretty quickly people in my classes were talking about how Kayla was single now. It honestly disgusted me how this was how high school was. A couple breaks up and the first thing they talk about is how one of them was single.

Finally the bell rang and I headed to my fourth period. Great. It was the class I had with Kayla. I decided to take my time walking to class so that she wouldn't be able to talk to me before class. It worked cause right when I stepped into class, the bell rung.

I noticed that people were sitting in different seats than usual. Oh god we changed seats.

"Ah how nice of you to join us, Ms. Johnson." Mr. Curtin said. "Your new seat is there, right next to Ms. Owens."

Fucking great.

There was a bunch of whispering and snickers when Mr. Curtin said that and he scolded the class and told them to be quiet.

I walked over to the table and sat down. I scooted my chair as far away from Kayla as possible and paid attention to the lesson.

"It's almost like fate huh?" Kayla whispered with a small smile.

I ignored her and began taking notes on the lecture.

"You can't ignore me forever Christy. I just want to talk."

"You should talk to Jesse." I told her.

"Come on don't be like that-"

"Ms. Owens, do you have something to add to the conversation?" Mr. Curtin said, obviously irritated by the side conversation.

"No, sorry Mr. Curtain." Kayla said as she slumped into her seat.

For the rest of the class, Kayla didn't try talking to me, which I was fine with. I felt her staring at me constantly though, and it bothered me. It was like her eyes were burning into me. As much as I wanted to look back at her, I didn't.

When the bell rang, I rushed out of the classroom and I was so close to the school's exist but not before Kayla stopped me.

"Christy. Please." Kayla said while looking down at me.

Whatever, the sooner we have this talk, the less I'll have to avoid her. We walked toward a more quiet area outside of school. Even this walk felt awkward and weird. We were holding hands, talking, flirting with each other or anything. It was just us walking next to each other with an uncomfortably big gap between us.

We stopped and we stared at each other for a while.

"Well? Are you just going to stare at me this whole time?" I asked her in a witty tone.

"I'm sorry that I hurt you Christy. I really am. I never meant to hurt you. I really didn't. I know I promised to never hurt you, protect you, and care for you to the best of my ability and I failed at it and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I broke the promise and hurt you. I'm sorry that I lied about Jesse. But I do love you Christy. I mean it every time I say 'I love you'. I love you Christy. I still do and I won't stop loving you. So please, all I need is a second chance. To make everything right again. Please Christy." She had tears running down her face and her hand was clutching mind.

I stared at her for a few moments. "I'm sorry Kayla, but no."

"Please Christy. Just one last chance. I don't care about Jesse I just want you."

"Nothing's changed on my end Kayla. I won't just give in that easily. I know this game, I've been there with Carmen. I did everything right with you, I gave you love, freedom, care, but I guess it just wasn't enough."

"It was enough Christy! I don't know why I was stupid enough not to see it!" She basically shouted.

"I'll never be what you want."

"You're the only thing I want. You're all I want. I can't lose the only thing I care about, Christy please."

"I don't wanna do this honestly do you?" I told her while sighing.

"Do what?"

"This whole thing where we go back and forth talking about our mistakes and shit when we're still not going to be together in the end."

"Christy-"

"When Jesse screws you over, don't wish you picked me. Cause you picked him and you have to face your mistakes and deal with them yourself." I got up and started walking away. I could hear Kayla crying.

"Wait." Kayla said and I stopped. She walked up to me and made sure she was facing me. "Could we at least be friends?" She asked softly.

"I don't think for the time being that would be a good idea. Maybe later on."

Kayla nodded slightly as she took half a step closer to me. "Could I have one last kiss? Please it's the last thing I'll ever ask of you."

I looked at her and I saw the pain in her eyes. I could tell that everything she said was genuine but I wasn't going to take her back. I stepped in and tip toed slightly and pressed my lips against hers. I felt her kiss me back and then her lips quivering and I pulled away. I saw that she was crying and had her hands to her face. I started to walk away and she didn't follow me. She just stood there watching me go.

***

After school, I went straight home and into my room. I dug out two box and started to put all the things that were related to Kayla into the box. For the other box, I started to put all the things that belonged to Kayla in it.

There were tons of photos, posters, ticket stubs, and love notes that I found. I couldn't help but crying as I looked at the photos. We had photos together from the first time we went hiking, the playoff basketball games, championships, that fancy dinner date we went on, and tons of off guard photos we took of each other.

"Need some help?" Maddie said as she walked in.

I wiped the tears from my eyes and stood up. "No I'm good."

"Why are there two boxes?"

"One's for just stuff of us two and the other is full of Kayla's stuff."

"Listen, I'm not good at this comforting thing like Steph is, but I am here for you if you need anything. Like if you want to go out right now and go shoot some hoops or grab some tacos just tell me. We'll be out in a second." Maddie told me while fidgeting with her hands.

I smiled at her gesture. This was the Maddie that not a lot of people got to see and probably why Charlotte loves Maddie so much.

"Thank you. It means a lot Mads." I told her and she pulled me into a hug. "I'll take up that offer on the tacos though. Let me just finish cleaning this up and we can go."

"Take your time." Maddie said and she walked out of the room.

I walked to my closet and pulled out all of Kayla's hoodies, shirts, and sweatpants that I have acquired over the time I dated her. Honestly probably half her athletic closet was in here because I loved the way she smelled. She smelled like home.

I picked up one of the hoodies and inhaled deeply. The scent of Pink's perfume filled my nostrils. There was always a dash of vanilla and cinnamon in there that had a very home feel.

I folded up the clothes and put them in the box. I thought I was done until I walked past my nightstand and saw the bracelet Kayla gave me for our one month anniversary. It was a silver bracelet with our initials engraved on it. I picked it up and threw it into one of the boxes, not caring which one it went to.

I walked outside into Maddie's room. "Hey can we get tacos? And before that, could we stop by somewhere first?"

"Of course. Are you ready now?" I nodded and grabbed the box full of Kayla's stuff and brought it into the car. I was thankful that Steph and Katelyn were out for a date night because then that meant Steph left her car which meant either Maddie or I could drive it.

I gave Maddie directions to Kayla's house and we sat in silence as we drove there.

"Do you want me to come with you?"

"No I got it. Kayla shouldn't be home right now, she has soccer right now so probably her brother or her maid will answer the door. Then I'll just tell them to give the box of stuff to Kayla." I said as I opened the car door and walked up the driveway.

I rang the doorbell while carrying to box of stuff. Man did I take a lot of Kayla's clothes.

The door opened and it was Kayla. Great.

"Oh hey. Don't you have soccer practice?" I asked her, curious to why she's not at practice.

"Yeah uh I guess I just needed a mental health day to get myself back on track." She looked down at the box I was carrying and pressed her lips tightly together.

"Well yeah your mental health is more important than soccer right now. Um I brought you back your stuff. I have your Polaroid camera in here and all your other stuff. I don't know if I got everything so if I do, I'll just give it to you later."

"Okay thanks." She said softly as she took the box from me. "Er, I haven't started getting your stuff yet so.." She said in a stutter.

"No it's fine take your time, don't worry about it."

"Um do you want to come in? Have a drink or something?" Kayla blurted.

"Oh no thanks, Maddie's waiting for me." I pointed at the car and she looked up and I could see her eyes getting sad. She gave me a look of disappointment before she gave me a small smile.

"Oh well I don't want to get in the way. Bye Christy."

"Bye Kayla."

I walked down to the street and got into Maddie's car. When I looked back at her house, I could still see Kayla holding her box, eyes glued on the car. She didn't go back inside until the car was out of sight.

Kayla's POV

Christy gave me back my stuff. It was a bunch of my clothes and my Polaroid and a lot of other things she borrowed that I completely forgot about.

The majority of the box was full of clothes but after I emptied it, I saw something shiny in the bottom of the box. I picked it up and realized what it was. It was the bracelet that I had given her during our one month anniversary. I held it in my hand and started crying. Why why why did I have to fuck this up? Why couldn't I just hold on to the one good thing in my life, one of the only things that made me happy?

I loved her. I loved her so much. You know I thought that I loved someone before, but I never experienced love as I did with Christy. Suddenly all the love songs were about her and I could catch myself thinking about her constantly. Everything good that happened in my day, the first person I wanted to tell was Christy. I would see things in stores and think "Christy would love that" and get the urge to buy it then I remember how she felt guilty about me constantly spoiling her so I would time my gifts so she would be able to accept them.

I don't know why I decided to sleep with Jesse. I guess I was just feeling a bit lonely that day and Christy was out with her family and it just happened. It is my biggest regret and if I could take it back, I would.

I never intended to hurt Christy. I loved her with all my heart and I wanted to protect her and care for her but all I ended up doing was hurting her.

I know tons of people at school want me, they have been giving me no space by just hitting on me now that I'm single. I don't want anyone else though. I'm willing to wait for Christy to hopefully forgive me and give me another chance. I swear to fucking god that I won't fuck it up this time.

I wiped the tears from my face and then walked over to my desk. I looked at the bulletin board that hung over my desk and it was full of pictures of Christy and I. There were pictures of us from the championship game, our one month, and tons of photo booth pictures. In every picture, Christy had this huge smile and it breaks my heart because I haven't seen her smile that wide ever since we broke up. It was my fault Christy was sad and hurt and I'm never going to forgive myself for it.