(Will's pov)

It's Tuesday morning, I sit in my first lesson and I'm really worried.

Nico isn't here. Yesterday he said 'see you tomorrow' and now he isn't at school, I might be overreacting, but why isn't he where he is supposed to be?

He was at school yesterday - it was by far the best day I had at this school - and everything seemed okay.

He had stopped talking about losing everything, he had smiled now and then and he was holding my hand and now he isn't here.

Calm down. Everything is alright.

I can just visit him after school, look if everything is alright and then I'll see that there's nothing to worry about.

The rest of the day goes over to slow, it's like being stuck and not being able to move or to think and then, finally, I can leave.

I walk to Nico's house and when I'm on his street I already see him, standing next to the wall of a house a few meters from his own.

Maybe, if I would have thought about it, if I wouldn't have been so happy to see him, maybe then I would have noticed that something wasn't alright.

That there was no reason for him to wait for me, or to wait outside.

But I didn't think about it.

I walked straight up to him. And then, when I stood right in front of him I did notice something, not enough, just the obvious things.

The way he crossed his arms over his chest and the way he looked so cold, nearly bored.

'Hi Nico, how -'

'Hello Will. It's nice that you came over, but you should go now.'

'What?'

'This all was a mistake, you shouldn't be here.' he still looks so cold. Why does he look like this, why does Nico say these things?

'What are you talking about?' I realize that my voice is shaking, but I can't help. That's not how it's supposed to be, the things he's saying don't make sense.

'Is it again about - I said I won't leave you - '

'But I want you to leave. Right now.'

'Why?'

'Damn, Will, why do you have to make everything so complicated? I just don't want you around, is this so hard to understand?' he sounds annoyed now.

Why does he say this, what is he doing?

'But you said - '

'I said a lot of things, but now that I have thought about everything - '

'So you're breaking up with me?' No, no, no.

'Yes, you got it. Great. Have a good day.' he turns around and starts to walk away.

'Nico! You can't just -'

'Come on, this was for about three days, what did you expect? That's just how life goes!' then Nico leaves and I'm alone on the street until I start to walk home, feeling like someone punched me in the face over and over again.

I'm glad my mom works longer than usual today, I really don't want to explain to her why I'm crying.

I'm laying on my bed for hours now and I just can't stop.

How can Nico one day show me the stars and freaking fuck me and let this all be so beautiful and then the next day just... break up? Without any explanation?

Maybe this girl on my very first day at high school was right, she said I should stay away from Nico.

Nico himself said I should stay away from him.

And now he really said that he doesn't want me around and it hurts, so much more than before everything that happened, it hurts so bad and I want it to stop, all I wanted was to make Nico happy and show that I'm sorry and then I started to like him so much more than planned but no one told me that falling in love is so much pain.

After hours I have to stop because my eyes burn so much and my mouth is dry.

If Nico cried like this too? After he moved and everything was so bad and he was alone?

Did he want to make me just one time feel bad too? Maybe then I deserve this. But that's not Nico, even if he's angry he wouldn't do something like this for revenge.

On the other hand how well do I know him?

Why don't you get it in your head? He just isn't interested in you, simple as that.

Yeah, why don't I get it in my head?

Because something wasn't like it was supposed to be, something wasn't okay with Nico.

He wanted to break up with me, but why on the street? Why did he wait there?

Why did he look so cold?

And all the little things, now that I think about it.

Maybe I just want to see it, but he was scratching his arm all the time, he didn't look into my eyes once.

He slightly looked like he used to look when he was lying, back when we were young.

He also looked a little bit like he did the day when he and his dad left.

And suddenly I don't feel like someone would have punched me anymore, but like I would leave him - again.

I get up so fast that all my blood rushes through my body and I have to sit down again before I stand up again, slower this time.

I promised Nico to not leave him.

Even if he doesn't want me to be his boyfriend or whatever, I have to ask him if he's alright. Why he didn't go to school today. If everything is okay.

And I wouldn't just give up on him, I made this mistake already.

My mom is just coming home when I run out the door.

'Will is everything alright? - Have you been crying? Will?!'

'I'm sorry mom, but it's - important, I'll be back soon!'

'Will, you can't just - Will!'

I run off, up to Nico's house, I got to explain her everything later, hopefully she'll understand. Hopefully I will be able to explain anything.

It's already starting to get dark and as I run through the town I realize how stupid this is - just showing up there after Nico told me to leave. But I'm so sure something isn't alright and I can't just leave it like this.

And I can't just stay away from Nico as well. Only thinking about it hurts, he started to mean so much - so much more than ever before - to me in just a few days, and even he might be good at this - manipulating, tricking people into thinking he's someone he isn't - there was something. He liked me, I'm sure he did.

Did this all really just stop?

The second time this day I enter his street, wich is completely empty now, and run up to Nico's house.

I take a deep breathe and try to calm down a little bit, then, just when I'm about to knock on the door, it opens.