Ever since the first mission, I've been filled with frustration and thoughts that haven't dared left my mind. So, I've decided to go full-on training mode to try to forget about these thoughts. To suppress these emotions that stop me from thinking straight. Especially about that flash I had. It's best to jut ignore it for now.

So, now, I'm on the deck of the Bounty, training. The ship is floating perfectly still on the water. There's no breeze and no clouds in the sky. The fish swimmingly peacefully in the sea by the boat. Everything is just in balance.

And, yet, I'm the only thing that's not, unfortunately.

I start to move gracefully along the floorboards of the deck, trying not to let my mind wander. Because if I do, I'm gonna start spiraling again. With every move, not a single creak can be heard on the floorboards. Quick, graceful, deadly, and repeat.

As I'm repeating my fighting moves, a memory manages to slip into my process.

The visit from Jay's parents, and the talk of parents lately.

I slowly stop moving, my fans lowering to the side of my body and my mind begins to fill with thoughts.

Why am I thinking about parents now?... I have to stop or else I'm going to start thinking about the other thoughts I have. I can't have that. Besides, I can't start thinking about my parents now or else I'll start falling behind. They're gone anyway...

I shake my head as I continue on with my training once more. I swing my fans smoothly around the air as I attack at the same time. Then, I throw one of my fans at the mast of the ship, leaving a rather deep cut in the mast. I smile at how deep my fan managed to cut as I get into my stance once more. I close my eyes tightly, letting silence surround me. I sweep my feet around the ground, finding the best angle to throw my fan.

I slowly stop moving, allowing my ears to take control. All I hear is the ocean softly hitting the side of the ship and the breeze flowing through my hair. If I wasn't training, I would fall asleep right there and then. I quickly throw my last fan, hearing my fan get stuck in the wood of the ship. Immediately after that, I hear a rather loud scream. "Gah!"

I snap open my eyes, turning my attention to where my fan landed. My fan embedded in the wood of the doorway and right next to that, Jay standing there, cowering in fear.

"Please don't kill me!" He screams out in horror.

I quickly stop everything I'm doing as I run over to him. "Ah! I'm sorry Jay! I didn't see you there!"

Jay drops to the ground and starts cradling himself, trying to calm himself down. "I almost died again... I'm never interrupting your training sessions again..." He sniffles, on the brink of tears.

I bend down to his level, patting his head hoping it would calm him down. He usually does that to me whenever I'm upset so I hope it works for him too. "I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to. I didn't hear you come in."

Damn it! I should've heard him walk by at least! I need to pull myself together! I can't let my thoughts invade my mind anymore! I have to keep a clear mind at all costs!

Kai walks onto the deck, hearing the rather loud cries from Jay. He looks around for a moment before spotting him on the floor as I'm trying to calm him down. The red ninja walks over to us, rolling his eyes. "Guessing another training incident?'

I give Kai an awkward smile, "Yeah, heh."

"You really need to be a more careful kid." Kai shakes his head, sighing. He really doesn't want to start babysitting us whenever I train. "Well dinner is ready, so better come inside before Cole decides to eat it all. After all, it's Zane's turn to cook."

I nod, helping Jay up sighing. He's managed to slightly calm down, but still a bit nervous to even walk near my fans anymore. My mind begins to wander a bit as we're about to head inside. Why is my mind so everywhere lately?...

We start walking inside, Kai noticing my saddened face. He decides to ignore it for now. After all, when his sister truly needs help, he'll be there. Just like he was there for Nya when their parents left, and now for when y/n needs it too.

~

I stare at my food as I pick at it sluggishly simply ignoring everyone's conversations going on around me. Why am I so off lately?... Why am I so frustrated?... Why can't I just... Gah! I don't know! Ever since that first mission where we met Lloyd, everything just started to change! I started thinking about things I never thought about before and asking questions I didn't know I need the answer to! Especially now Why am I caring so much about my parents now?! I never used to think about them until as of late! Was it because of Ed and Edna's visit?... Am I really desperate to know my parents now?...

Frustration begins to boil inside of my stomach as I try to figure out why I'm thinking and feeling all of these things. What unlocked all of these things that day?... My head is just spinning with these thoughts and feelings and I hate it. I absolutely hate it. I just want to return back to the way things were before...

Zane takes notice of my sluggish behavior, feeling worried his food wasn't up to their normal standards. He has his priorities of course. "Is something wrong y/n? Is the food not to your liking?"

I hear Zane, snapping me from my thoughts and I quickly turn to him. "N-no, no! Nothing is wrong Zane! I'm just not feeling too hungry right now... Training just took it out of me really heh."

So convincing y/n. So convincing.

Nya stops her eating before turning to Kai, wondering if he knows what's wrong with me. After all, she knows how hungry I truly am when I'm done with training. She shudders at the thought of her poor candy bar. Kai turns to Nya, shrugging before eating his food again. She sighs and asks, "You never miss out on food, especially after training. What's really wrong? Does it have to do with the Lloyd thing you told me about?"

Everyone immediately stops what they're doing and turns their attention to me.

My eyes widen as I look at everyone. Oh Spinjitzu, everyone is looking at me. I can't believe Nya just said that out loud! I sigh disappointedly. There's no way of getting out of this now. I can't fight them all and just run to my room! Damn it, I'm outnumbered. I have no choice.

I look to the side of the room, avoiding their piercing gaze. "...I guess. It's just..." I sigh. "I'm just having a lot of internal issues at the moment... Especially about my parents and why they abandoned me... Ever since that first mission where we met Lloyd, all of these things just happened..."

Everyone stays silent, trying to process my words. This was the first time I've opened up about something like this. Jay decides to walk over to me and hugs me tightly, feeling something in his gut stirring. "Look, it'll be alright. I'm guessing my parent's visit didn't really help with this. I'm sure one day you'll find your real parents one day, I know it."

His hug surprises me for a moment as I hug Jay back, feeling nothing though. "Thanks, Jay, I appreciate it."

That's when everyone starts saying their own comforting things about their parents and how I'll find mine one day as they try to comfort me. But, for some reason, their words don't seem to be making me feel any better. They just go through one ear and out the other. Only one word repeats in my mind at this point. Why?...

Sensei Wu doesn't join in, as he just stares at the hugging group now. He sighs before deciding to leave the room.

~

I lay down on my bed, staring up at the ceiling simply lost in my thoughts. What happened to me on that mission?... Why am I thinking and feeling all of these things?... Why am caring so much about my parents all of sudden?...

I pull my blanket over me, allowing myself to fall into the warmth of it. But because of that, I fall deeper into my thoughts. These thoughts are spiraling throughout my head, feeling frustrated, confused, and most importantly, just tired.

Tired of all of these questions. Tired of these thoughts. Tired of feeling frustrated. Tired of that... flash. Whatever that was. And tired of thinking about my parents.

"First Spinjitztu Master, why can't you just tell me what's happening to me?"

"Because life is never in a straight line. I doubt Destiny would be pleased about you wanting to cut corners," Sensei Wu chuckles as he enters my room.

I sit up from my bed, looking at the old man. "Didn't hear you come in Sensei heh," I say with a fake smile plastered across my face.

He walks over to me as he sits down on my bed. "You have many internal issues, don't you child? The biggest one being parents, am I right?"

I hesitate for a moment before nodding. He always knows what's wrong with me for some reason.

"Y/n, these turmoils will someday be solved. I may not have the answers you are searching for, but I do know how to solve one of your inner demons."

"You do? Is it about my parents?... " I ask curiously, hoping it's true. Hoping it's something about them.

He nods. "It's about the day you came into my care child."

My face lightens up with hope while trying to stay a bit skeptical. "Really?... It's not the same story you always to told me right? Because if it is, not a good joke to play on me. "

He chuckles before saying, "No child, heh. I promise. But, I did not tell you everything that happened that day." He sighs, seemingly nervous about what he's about to say.

"Didn't tell me everything? Sensei, what do you mean? It seems pretty straightforward to me. Did you actually meet my parents?..."

He hesitates for a moment. Why is he so nervous to tell me about this?... When I was found here, was it a bad thing?... Did my parents really not want me?...

"You see child before I found you on the steps of the Monastery. Something happened..." He pulls on his beard lightly. "The day you arrived, I was outside in the courtyard, drinking my afternoon tea. That's when the sky suddenly turned purple along with everything else as well. I was immediately preparing myself for any that could've been a threat to Ninjago. Then, lightning outside the doors of the Monastery. After that, immediately everything returned to normal as nothing had passed. I walked outside and saw you unconscious on the floor. I took you in, noticing a scar on your left cheek but disappeared a few moments later. Finally, you woke up."

I just stare at him, trying to process everything that he just said.

What do you mean I just showed up like that?! What do you mean the sky turned purple?! What happened that day?! A freaking scar?! This didn't solve anything! It just made everything ten times worse! This didn't help at all!

I can feel my breathing quicken as I blink rapidly at him. I look down at my hands, seeing them shake violently. I can feel my heartbeat almost beat out of my chest. Sensei Wu takes notice of my panicking quickly growing inside of me. "Are you alright, y/n?"

My chest begins to tighten, feeling harder and harder to breathe. I can't think. I can't think straight anymore. I feel everything starting to spin as I try to focus on something. Anything! But, nothing is working. I felt hot, burning tears beginning to fill the brim of my eyes. I try to focus my eyes on Sensei, my tiny voice finally manages to squeak out. "So, I never had parents?... Not even one?..."

For some reason, that's the only thing I can focus on. The one thing I had something to cling on to. The one thing I could get an answer to, a definitive answer to was who and why my parents left me here. And, in an instant, it was all ripped away from me with the cold hard truth. I just appeared one day. No parents. Just straight up appearing.

Sensei Wu looks at my teary eyes, his heart breaks seeing his youngest child in tears. He's only ever seen me in tears a total of three times, and now this makes four. He hugs me tightly, trying to comfort me. "...that, I do not know of. And, sadly no. I'm sorry."

This doesn't solve anything. This just creates a lot more questions that I didn't need! I spiral further and further down the hole of my mind, feeling anxious and frustrated at the same time. My chest tights even more becoming even harder to breathe as I try to grasp at breaths. I try to focus on Sensei, everything becoming extremely blurry. I quickly get up from my bed, no longer being able to sit. It's all just becoming too much.

The room starts to spin, trying to balance myself. I can feel my head beginning to hurt so badly as I hold onto it tightly. Nothing is making any sense anymore. It's just too much at this point.

Sensei Wu notices my frazzled state, seeing me become wobbly. "Y/n are you okay? What's wrong?"

I try to calm myself down, but nothing is working. My head is just spinning. My breathing quickens. My body is trembling. Tears on the brim of falling. Please...

Somehow though, I manage to stuff these emotions and thoughts down inside my gut. Stop it. Stop it. Stop it! Everything in my body begins to slowly and rigidly relax. I wipe away the tears that threaten to fall off my face. I take a few deep breaths before turning to Sensei, putting on the best smile I can muster up. "Everything is alright Sensei Wu," I say with a strained voice.

He manages to see right through me as he stands up and tries to reach out to me. "You are not alright. You're-"

"I'm perfectly fine Sensei Wu!" I shout out. My eyes widen at my outburst. I just yelled at Sensei... "I need to train..." I hurry off out of my room and onto the deck of the Bounty.

Kai hides in the shadows as he watches me walk by him, hearing everything that went on in my room. He studies my disappearing figure as he sighs before entering my room. "Sensei, she's not alright."

Sensei Wu looks at the red ninja, shaking his head. "We cannot force her to tell us about her problems. She must come out with them in her own time. We must leave her be, for now."

Kai stays silent, trying to figure out his next step. He knew Sensei Wu was right. He couldn't force y/n to open up. But, he also knew that Nya went through a similar situation when their parents left. "Right Sensei..." He says before leaving the room and heading off towards his.