[Bakugou POV]

It's been 2 days and a half since The fight with Ochako Uraraka. I've glanced around, seeing her with her friends Every now and then, my heart breaking every moment I see her smile, knowing I'm not the one making her happy.

I've had to change my way to get my to all my classes, because I couldn't stand seeing her walk with Deku and Iida, laughing With that beautiful smile of hers.

I've been shutting down on my friends, I haven't forgiven Kaminari and Sero just fucking yet. All I wished is I could reverse time. I just wanted to take everything back, and be calm. God damn it why wasn't I calm?!!?

I do regret a lot of things during that moment.

But I just can't forgive myself

I haven't been eating right since that day, avoiding food, Staying in my room when I'm not in class, Declining the Calls from Kirishima wondering where I've been.

I lay on my bed, the last place I held her, I close my eyes and grab the sheets with frustration. I can't stop smelling her perfume that was on the pillow from the night we first fell asleep together.

"god damn it" I mutter, closing my eyes tight to try and escape from the reality I was living, but just when thoughts were starting to fade, I hear a knock at the door.

My heart stops for a second, I get up, grab the door handle, and slowly turn it...

"Hey Bakugou. Are you okay?" Kirishima speaks through the crack of the door.

Of course it isn't her. Why would she want to see me? For fucks sake, I don't even want to see me.

"I'm fine." I groan, opening the door fully to let shitty hair inside.

"You haven't been showing up to any of our friend groups, I've been worried." His voice speaks with nervousness.

"Listen.... IM FUCKING FINE. OKAY?!! NO ONES MISSED ME. YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?!!" I yell, watching him flinch from my anger.

"Bakugou.. You haven't been yourself since-"

"SINCE WHAT??!!"

"When She.. Told you to leave" He hesitantly responds, looking down at the ground to avoid my eye contact.

"SO WHAT?!! I CAN ALWAYS HANDLE MYSELF. I DONT NEED YOU. I shove him a bit, And He speaks no words, just allowing me to push him around is pissing me off.

"FIGHT BACK YOU COWARD!!!" I try to punch him, but he acts quickly and he hugs me.

I gasp, as he is stopping me from going any further.

I start to broil with anger, I bang on his back with my fists-"LET ME GO. JUST LET ME GO KIRISHIMA. PLEASE"

"Bakugou... It's okay. You are hurt. You don't have to pretend like you're not. You and uraraka got into a fight. That's all. It happens with every relationship. But you gotta understand. There's no do overs in life. You can't take back what you said. Or what you did. That's why you have to let the moments in life count. You have to try and make her happy every moment you can. That's life Katsuki...,make it count."

My heart shatters into pieces, I fall onto my knees and he kneels down. Putting his hand on my back, as the tears roll down my face.

"I NEED HER KIRISHIMA... My voice cracks with pain... sadness.., and anger all at once.

"You're not gonna lose her."

"I DONT KNOW THAT." I sob, trying to catch my breath with every word I speak. I grip onto my hair as I panick with fear, hyperventilating from the pain I was going through.

He continues rubbing my back, trying to calm me down, repeating the words-"It's okay.." fucking over and over again.

I pant, and I pant as I sob, Kirishima closes his eyes, trying to calm himself from seeing me like this.

"Please.. PLEASE HELP ME!!" I look at him, eyes so vulnerable from the sadness taking over my damn body. I tug on the collar of his shirt-"YOU GOTTA HELP ME.. PLEASE!!"

He then hugs me once again, "It's okay man.. it's gonna be okay. Just because you argued doesn't mean it's over.." I grip onto him. The crying slows down, as my best friend comforts me. I sniffle my nose, as I wipe my tears with my hand.

"I love you man.." He tells me, helping me up from the cold ground.

"I love you too shittyhair" I chuckle, Face still red and puffy from the pain that was shed.

"I got to apologize.." I tell him, wiping my face once again. "Do whatever you feel is right dude. I know everything will be okay." He gives a soft smile, making me feel relaxed a bit.

"Kirishima. Thank you"

"Anytime. You're my best friend. I'm here for you bro." He gleams, making me smile. "I'll be okay." I mutter, he looks up at me.

"I know Bakugou, that's what I've been telling you." He responds, and I scoff with amusement.

"I was talking to myself you idiot." I reply, rolling my eyes with a half smile.

Maybe everything truly will be okay. Maybe Ochako truly can forgive me. But first of all, I have to fix the mess I've made. I have to be the reason she's happy.. no one else gets that privilege but me.

I'll do anything to keep her in my life.. Anything at all. I mean...

She's the person I long for, she's the one I want to be with.

And I'm never letting her go.