sometimes i can't help blaming you

for leaving me here, what am i supposed to do?

maybe it's my fault but maybe it's yours. you left me. maybe it wasn't your choice but you left me. im worthless now, wallowing in self disgust and self pity.

i can't do this anymore. i don't know how i did it for so long.

it's like my brain wants to leave you, my brain wants to move on. but my heart wants to run back to you, like it always has. because it wasn't your fault, it was my fault, like always. i love you. i will love you forever.

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