The WINGS Tour begins. This is the first concert that every member has their own solo stage. Every member releases their charm and moved all the ARMYs to tears. I can't pick a favorite between the members' solo performances. 40 000 of ARMYs singing together in the GoCheok Dome is so ecstatic. Knowing that BTS is spreading their wings and flying toward bigger success, I have nothing but faith in them. After the promotion of the special album, with their new songs Spring Day and Not Today. BTS continues its Wings Tours across the South and North America.

I did not manage to celebrate Yoongi's birthday this year as he spent his birthday on the flight to Chile. But they are finally back in the country on April 13. I've decided to find a chance to speak to Yoongi. I gave him a call and we decided to meet at his studio.

Apparently all the members have changed their studios. Yoongi's new studio even has a doorbell and pincode lock. I pressed the doorbell once and wait. Finally, Yoongi opened the door.

Yoongi welcomed me with his gummy smile, and said: "You're here".

The studio this time is 3 times bigger than the previous one.

🐱Yoongi: Just give me a moment. I'm arranging the beats for a song. I'm almost done.

I nod my head and sat down on the couch behind and wait. Watching Yoongi being serious at work reminds me of the reasons why I fell so hard for this man. I quietly watch him working. From the sound, I can hear that is is SURAN's voice. The melody is really good. Together with SURAN's voice, I'm sure this will be a hit.

Time passed quickly. Despite half an hour has long passed, I remain quiet as Yoongi is engrossed in his work. Another one hour passed, it's finally done.

🐱Yoongi: Perfect.

Yoongi look at the time and realized it is already 5 p.m.! He turns back and sees Jihye is still seated behind.

🐱Yoongi: I'm so sorry. I forgot about the time. Why didn't you call me?

🦉Jihye: I don't want to interrupt your work. The song is really good though, I enjoy my time listening to it.

🐱Yoongi: You really think so? SURAN nuna's voice captivates me when I first discovered her. Then I realized that she is a producer too. She is working hard to deliver her debut album this year.

🦉Jihye: ... I heard about it from the radio interview you had. You said you click with her really well. You even call her nuna, looks like both of you are really close. Both of you are so musically talented... it's a perfect match.

Yoongi can sense the gloomy vibe from Jihye's tone.

🐱Yoongi: Are you jealous?

🦉Jihye responded coldly: "Jealous? I am, probably. But do I have the right to do so? Sometimes, I really don't know where I stand in this relationship.

🦉Jihye: Oppa, you have never said that you love me.

Yoongi looking back at me, in deep thoughts.

I paused for a minute, thinking of all the words out of spite.

🦉Jihye: I'm sorry. I hate this gloomy side of myself too. I was never like this in the past. I seem to have lost that cheerful and confident me. This one year, I couldn't bring myself to come up with a good concept for my webtoon work. There are many things that hold me back from furthering my potential. I'm losing my identity as an artist. I'm losing confidence as Kim Jihye. So after long and serious consideration, I decided to be selfish once.

🦉Jihye: Oppa, I'm going to America.

Yoongi looks at me, waiting for me to continue my sentence.

🦉Jihye: I plan to study a program there. It's going to take 2 years. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you earlier since you are abroad all this time. I don't want to affect your work during the tour. It has actually been a long-time decision. I was offered a scholarship in this Institution to further my passion. But I rejected it last year as I want to focus on the webtoon...NO. The truth is I wanted to be around for you.

🦉Jihye: But, I realized I'm becoming less and less of myself.

Yoongi did not say anything. That makes me even more nervous.

🐱Yoongi: When are you leaving?

🦉Jihye: End of next month.

Yoongi replied coldly: "Araseo" (I got it).

I was disappointed by his response. How I wish he could at least give me a hug and ask me not to go.

🦉Jihye: Oppa. Is it really okay (for me to leave)? Should I really go?

Yoongi holds for a few seconds and replied: "It's not okay. But you should go".

🐱Yoongi: It would be selfish for me to ask you to be waiting for me. You have been giving your everything at the times I most need you. Now it's my turn.

I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. I go up to him and cry in his chest and he wrapped me in between his arms.

🦉Jihye: Oppa. You will wait for me, right?

🐱Yoongi: uhhmm.

🐱Yoongi: As for SURAN-ssi. I'm sorry that I caused made you to feel uncomfortable about it. I promise I will keep a distance from her after this song is released.

🦉Jihye: I'm sorry. I trust you, always. But I just don't trust myself anymore. I need to find myself back. The confident Kim Jihye.

Yoongi look at me in the eyes and lowered his head. The kiss is soft and warm. The heartfelt energy goes through every inch of my body seems to be telling me that I'm loved for who I am. Thank you, Min Yoongi.

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On April 27 is the release of SURAN's new single WINE (Prod. by SUGA), the new released song immediately top Melon real-time chart for 12 days. In the recent interview, SURAN shared that SUGA reaches out to her when she is feeling depressed and expressed his wish to work together.

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It is less than a month before my departure to America. Since then, I have cleared out more of my stuff in the officetel and moved it back to my parent's place. Seol-tang will be taken care of by my family as well. I am so sad when I have to shift his carrier away from the house, he is meowing non-stop.

The boys are back from their HK concert and the breaking news is they are invited to the Billboard Music Awards next week. Tonight, BigHit is having a company dinner, and I will be joining them.

After a few rounds of samgyeopsal (Grilled Pork Belly Strips), I announce my departure news to the boys. All of them were sad to hear me leave. Yoongi just stayed silent and grill the meat quietly.

🐻Taehyung: Nuna! Two years is so long! I'm already missing you.

🐴Hoseok: We can still see you around in LA! What? It's in Washington? Ummmm..... Then we should have a concert in Washington too.

🦉Jihye: Namjoon-ah. Here's your book. Thanks to you, I finally have the courage to chase my dreams again.

🐨Namjoon: Nuna... I'm glad that the book and notes inspired you. But I'm also guilty if this became the reason for your departure. But if this is for a better Kim Jihye, I fully support your decision.

🦉Jihye: Gomawo (thank you) , Namjoon-ah.

🐥Jimin: Nuna, don't worry. We will watch Yoongi Hyung for you and keep you updated at all times.

🐰Jungkook: Nuna, let's add nuna into our silent chat room!

🐿️Seokjin: Ya! Boys, we can't show those photos to jihye-ah. You always take sneak shots of the members coming out from the toilet just wearing underwear!

🐰Jungkook: Oh right! Sorry Jihye nuna. But let me create another chat room just for us. Hold on a minute!

Less than 5 minutes. Jungkook created a chatroom with just me and the maknae-line. And it is already flooded with many of their self-created memes.

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After the meat party is over. Yoongi borrowed a company car to drove us to the Han River. This is our first time going on a real date. He drove to the road beside DongHyun Park. There were hardly any people so we hold our hands and walk along the Han River Park.

The night breeze of the park is so smoothing. We sat on the grass patches and look at the reflection of the river. Words are not needed at all, for we already have each other's presence.

Yoongi then lies on my lap and smile at me. I look at him and stroke his hair gently.

🐱Yoongi: I should have done this earlier. Namjoon always asks me to go to the Han River.

🦉Jihye: It is beautiful. But anywhere is good as long you are around.

🐱Yoongi: Do you still remember our first date at Dosan Park?

🦉Jihye: Isn't our first date at Kobe?

🐱Yoongi: I'm disappointed. You forgot about it.

🦉Jihye: I thought it was just... So does it means you liked me since then?

Yoongi got up took out his phone and showed me the photo of me he secretly took in Dosan Park.

🦉Jihye: When did you take this?

Yoongi chuckled.

🐱Yoongi: I'm sorry that I have never said "I LOVE YOU" to you. Because I find that I use it so much to our fans, using it on you doesn't seem to be able to convey my exact feelings for you.

🐱Yoongi: Kim-Jihye. Niga, jjinja joah-handa. (I really like you).

Yoongi took out two rings from his pocket. One is an opal curved ring. The other is a handgrope Lapis Lazuli Ring. He put on the opal curved ring on my ring finger and put the lapis lazuli ring on his.

🐱Yoongi: I'm sorry that I lost your ring during the manila concert. It flew out from my finger during the dance medley. I tried my best to look for it but I still couldn't find it. So I went contacted and ask to get a replacement. Then your senior recommended these. He said these two rings are a great match.

🐱Yoongi: This opal ring is my promise to you. Loyalty and faithfulness.

🐱Yoongi: Not just two years. Even if it has to be five years or ten years. I'll be waiting for you. From the moment you held my hands, I knew I never want to let you go.

Tears welling up between my eyes.

🦉Jihye: Oppa... I didn't know you can give such a good speech.

But quickly, I chuckles and broke into laughter.

🐱Yoongi: Why are you laughing?

🦉Jihye: No... I just recalled a sentence said by you in 2014. That was the most cringy sentence I have ever heard. But I can't believe it is realized on me.

🐱Yoongi: Ahhhh~~! That cringy past! Ruining the ambiance!

🐱Yoongi: Look at me.

Yoongi holds me by my shoulders and said, "saranghanda ( I love you)". We kiss under the beautiful moonlight.

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We are back in the car. Yoongi is driving me back home first. I turn on the radio late-night show. Listeners may call in and request a song.

DJ: Okay, the next requested song by Park-Jeonhae-ssi is the latest trendy song. by SURAN. This song is produced by BangTanSeoNyeodan's SUGA. Totally a sweet song to listen in this full moon night.

🐱Yoongi: Never mind about SURAN-ssi. Our relationship is strictly business. She may send me text messages occasionally to ask about my well-being. But I keep the replies simple. You can check on my messages if you want.

Yoongi took out his phone and give it to me. But I rejected it.

🦉Jihye: I trust you.

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After sending Jihye back home. Yoongi got back to the dormitory. He enters the shared room with Seokjin and saw that he is still awake.

🐱Yoongi: Hyung, you are still not asleep? That's unlike you.

🐿️Seokjin: Oh... I was given an assignment. I'm asked to compose the lyrics for a song for the Japanese album. I'm still thinking of what to write. You? Went for a date with Jihye-ssi?

🐱Yoongi: At Han River Park. It's a nice place.

🐿️Seokjin: Ya, Yoongi-ah. I saw you were really quiet during the meat party. Are you really fine with Jihye-ssi leaving?

🐱Yoongi: So what if I'm not okay. I can't be so selfish. I have to , and I will get better each day. Just like how we had the discussion for the next album concept; LOVE YOURSELF. I think I got to start to love myself more and rely less on Jihye. She needs her time and space to love herself too.

🐿️Seokjin: yaaaa... our Min Yoongi has become more intellectual these days. Let me tell you a new joke.

Yoongi looks disinterested.

🐿️Seokjin: Did you know when I'm sad, I read my own blood ID? ... Because it always says B POSITIVE *Windshield Laugh*

🐱Yoongi: ... Hyung, stop it.

Yoongi took his clothes for changing and left the room without looking back.

🐿️Seokjin: Why! It's funny!

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