dear angel,

i tell myself that everything will be okay.

i tell myself that i'm strong enough to get through.

i tell myself that i'm happy, and that i'll keep my sadness down.

that i can hold myself together.

but how do i even attempt to believe my own lies, when i don't even know who i am anymore?

---when i lost the battle to win you?

why do i hate myself so much now?

because...

loneliness threw love in the grave.

sincerely,

tae kwang