i hope in some part of this text to serve at least a fathomable fraction of consolidation: we are mirrors of sincere emotions; we return what is done to us with sincerity. always be sincere with the people important to you, because you will realize in the end, something real can save somebody. like how you saved me. i say this with conviction because you do this to me, your sincere feelings make me have the same for you— with this conviction i then desire victory, determination, and happiness. feelings of fervency bleeding from my pathetic perfervid pulsing insides make me wish ardency in virtuous forms; a smile. a remedy. a kiss. we are far too gone in this swath of zealousness. i feel it when i touch you. aching. this vehement amorous passion isn't something you should share to our church congregation or even our parents. but. i can see God when you look at me like that.

// for lucas