I'm feeling all these different feelings about this baby after finding out a few hours ago. Like one half of me is sad, scared, guilty and disappointed but then the other half is excited, happy and surprised.

Disappointed because I'm only 17, I'm still young myself, but maybe this was a gift to bring us closer? I don't know, all I know at the moment is I don't know whether to keep the baby or to give it up for adoption. I will not get an abortion, this baby has done nothing wrong and I don't believe in killing babies (that's just wrong. I don't know when to tell Ace? I mean what if he leaves me? What if he doesn't want this baby? What if he makes me get rid of it? Or what about our families? What if they kick me out?

Okay I've seriously gotta stop thinking of the negatives, that will put more stress on me. I'll just think positive and take each day as it comes. Now all I have to do is , think of a way to tell Ace and I honestly have no idea on how he's gonna take this.

"Autumn, baby!" Ace calls from the kitchen, while I'm sitting in the lounge on the couch watching tv.

"Yeah?"

"What do you want for dinner tonight?" Hmm, what do I feel like? Oo I feel like chicken pasta bake! I haven't had that in ages and apparently I make the best chicken pasta bake according to everyone who's eaten it.

"How bout I make some of my chicken pasta bake?" I call back as I get up off the couch and start walking towards the kitchen.

"Please! You make the best chicken pasta bake babe! Please please please!" See, told ya. He even pulled out his puppy dog look and he knows I can never say no to that face, ugh cheeky little....

"A! You know I can't say no to that face! It's not fair!" He just thought it was funny and laughed at my response. Cheeky little....

"Well you better get your butt out of the kitchen, so I can start cooking then aye?" I didn't even give him time to answer and started pushing him out of the kitchen.

"Okay okay, geez women. I'm leaving." He put his hands up in surrender.

"Tha-" I was cut off because he still had to finish his sentence.

"On one condition." Oh no he's playing that card, usually when he does this it's something cheeky and he always finds it hilarious.

"What is it?" I asked as my shoulders slumped knowing it was gonna be something bad.

"You have to give me a kiss." Well hey, that I don't mind! That's a bonus, I'll happily do that, hehe.

I stepped closer to him and grabbed the collar of his black t-shirt and pulled him closer to me, once he was close enough I placed a quick kiss on his lips and pulled back so quick he didn't get time to react to the kiss, then I pushed him out of the kitchen and onto the couch and walked back into the kitchen smiling in victory, he didn't see that coming.

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Oh I hate when she does that to me , she's so cheeky and she loves showing it. I just love being around her, she's beautiful, gorgeous, cute, amazing, cheeky, sexy, sassing, hot. She's just on my mind 24/7 and she just won't disappear.

These past few weeks have been amazing and the best weeks of my life and I'm sad that I will be coming to an end soon, another 3-4 weeks and out parents will be back. I just wanna know what's gonna happen with us? Are we gonna continue this 'more than friends, less than a relationship' thing or are we just gonna go back to being best friends and forget it happened.

In my opinion, I want to continue being 'more than friends, less than a relationship' but I'm hoping by the time our parents get back, I've grown some balls and asked her to be my girlfriend.

I haven't asked her yet because I don't want to rush into her relationship, I know she's never had a boyfriend so maybe she doesn't want me to be her first boyfriend, she might want someone else to be and if so as much as I'll be heartbroken and gutted that I can't be her first, I'll respect her decision.

"A! Do you wanna go down to the pizza place and grab some garlic bread to go with dinner?" I heard Atty's beautiful voice from the kitchen, where she was cooking. Which mind you smelt amazing! Gosh I love when she cooks, her food is amazing!

"Yeah sure." I replied as I turned of the tv and walked into the kitchen to grab my car keys of the counter. "I'll be back in 20." I explained as I walked over to her gave her a quick kiss and then walked out of the kitchen.

"Okay! Drive safely please!" I heard her yell from the kitchen and I chuckled at her comment. She was always telling me to drive safely whenever I go somewhere and drive. I love how much she cares about me and I'm care about her the same amount if not more.

I got into my car which was a yellow and black Holden. I got the car last year for my 17th so it was ready for me once I got my p plates, my mum and dad brought it for me but Scarly (Scarlett) picked out the colour, she's has a good memory on her that girl. One day she was asking me question and one of them was 'what was my favourite colour?' And I told her it was 'yellow.'

When I saw the car Scarly was quick to say 'I picked the cowour, I remembwed it was lellow!' When she said that I laughed at her comment, picked her up face her a big kiss on the forehead and thanked her.

Ever since I've been in love with this car, I love driving it everywhere, it's my baby. I even name her, yes I know I'm a popular boy in school and I've given my car a gender and a name. I named her Bee because she reminded me of Bumblebee from Transformers.

I flicked the radio on and started driving to the pizza place while also tapping my hands to the best of the songs on my steering wheel and singing along here and there.

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I was finally on my way home after waiting 15 minutes for the pizza to be ready and then I had a run in with Katie which I wasn't happy with, seriously she's so annoying.

I pulled into the driveway of my place and grabbed the garlic bread that was sitting on the passenger seat and started walking towards the house. I unlocked the front door and I had locked front door on my way out so I knew Autumn would be okay.

"Babe! I'm home!" I screamed through the house for some unknown reason since she was just in the kitchen, but oh well. I saw Autumn peek her out of from around the corner and smile her beautiful smile at me, that one smile I love the most.

"Hey, what took you so long?" She asked as she disappeared back into the kitchen with me behind her.

"Did you miss me too much baby?" I teased as I sat the garlic bread on the counter and wrapped my arms around her from behind while she stood at the counter.

"Haha, very funny. You wish!" She teased back. She did miss me, it's in her voice! Ha, court ya babe!

"Nah I took a while because I had to wait for the pizza and then when I was heading out I ran into Katie." I explained as I rested my head against her shoulder, I felt her body tense up at the mention of Katie.

"Oh, what did she want?" She asked so quietly, sounding scared to know the answer.

"She wanted to get back together, saying she didn't mean to hurt you and she was only doing it because she was jealous of how close we were and all other crap, but I didn't believe her from a bar of soap." I explained as I kissed her temple and turned her around so her back was resting against the counter and my arms resting on either side of her on the counter, trapping her in place.

"Oh okay." She replied sadly as she put her head down. Oh how much I hate seeing her sad.

"Hey, baby look at me." I spoke softly as I moved my hand up to her chin and lifted her head up so her big beautiful chocolate brown eyes were staring at me. They were my favourite eyes, always have been, always will be.

"No one and nothing is gonna take me away from you. Okay, I'm yours and no one else's. Even though we're not exactly dating yet, I know we will be soon. I'm just waiting for the right moment. But baby don't worry I'm not going anywhere." I explained as I leaned down and passionately kissed her, I put so much into the kiss as I could: love, lust, passion, truth, care. Everything I could.

I truly did love this amazingly beautiful girl standing right in front of me and nothing will take me away from her or change my mind on how I feel about her.

She's my best friend, my baby girl, my other half, my girl, my baby, my partner in crime, my world, my everything!

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