It's been a month since I last saw him, at first I wanted to give up, he was the only person who made me feel safe and I thought I loved him. Cordelia has been there for me, she taught me a better way to stitch my wounds and never judged me.

He said he pushed me away for my safety but I know he just didn't want the burden of caring for me, now he's gone back to fucking his club whores. I'm trying to forget about him and be happy in my safe place. Knuckles isn't happy I haven't been outside in a month but fuck him.

Socket came back to look out for me a week after I was taken, I told him he didn't have to but he said he wanted to. I didn't want him outside alone so he stays inside with me. We've become friends in the last three weeks which Cordelia said she was proud of me about.

Cordelia had her baby a few days ago and I really want to go and see her

"You ready?" Socket asks as I take the key from around my neck. I nod and unlock the door, I step outside and feel the sun on my skin. Socket walks along side me as I walk through the long grass to Cordelia's house. I still have this stupid boot on my foot, but two more weeks and I should be healed.

"Hi Indigo, I'm BFG, Cordelia's upstairs with the baby, go on up." He says as he opens the door, another weird name, he's shorter than me, giant my ass. I slowly walk up the stairs and I hear Cordelia's voice as she sings

"Cece, it's Indigo, can I come in?" I ask as I reach the top of the stairs. The door to my left opens and Cordelia steps out looking exhausted but with a big smile on her face

"You came to see me." She says wrapping her arms around me

"Come see the baby, I just got him to sleep." She says as I follow her into the room. It's a blue room with motorcycles on the walls and Diesel is written above the dark wood crib

"This is Diesel Adrian Jackson." She whispers as I look down into the crib, there's lies the smallest thing I've ever seen wearing a onesie with the club logo on it. Although Cordelia looks exhausted she also looks so happy

"Come on, let's go downstairs." She whispers as we head out and leave the baby to sleep. Cordelia guides me to sit in a large armchair in the window, BFG and Socket are sat on the couch and Ice walks out from the kitchen and hands me a beer

"See your face healed nicely" he says as he sits on the chair opposite me. I stroke the small scar on my left cheek

"Yep. Just need to get the boot off. Thank you for saving me." I say looking up to him and smiling

"Any time for a pretty lady." He says winking

"Ugh Ice I thought you were a pervert when I met you don't make her think that too." Cordelia says sitting on the couch next to BFG. I ended up staying at Cordelia's for a few hours and the best part is I wasn't scared even though there was Ice, BFG, Socket and Cordelia.

"If you ever need a baby sitter let me know." I say as I hug Cordelia goodbye and step out onto the porch with Socket, I turn to walk away and he's there, Rowan. I don't know whether to kiss him, punch him or run away. Instead I link my arm through Sockets without thinking

"Come on Socket lets go home so I can start dinner." I smile at Socket and try my best to ignore him as we head off the porch towards my house.

"Sorry, I didn't think what I was doing." I say as I lock the door behind me and Socket and place the key around my neck

"It's fine. That bastard needs some payback for hurting you" he says laughing. We ate together and laughed, Socket really is my friend now. We sat on the couch to watch a movie but I must've fallen asleep.

As usual I dream about Rowan. I feel him pick me up off the couch and I curled up against his chest, then he lay me down on the bed

"Goodnight Indigo" he whispered as he let me go but I pulled him down and wrapped my arms around him

"Stay" I whisper

"I don't think that's a good idea Indigo" he replied my arms still around him, I groan and tighten my grip around him

"Ok, but only to sleep." He says as I feel him slide into bed next to me, I curl up into his side and drift off feeling his warmth surround me.

I woke up to sun streaming through the window, then I felt the warmth I was curled up against, Rowan? I open my eyes and look up to see Socket asleep in my bed. Oh fuck, tell me I didn't fuck Socket. I mentally slap myself and pull back to sheets to find we're both still wearing yesterday's clothes. I sigh relief and sit up

"Morning Indigo" I hear from behind me and turn to see Socket rubbing his eyes

"Umm, morning?" I say climbing out of bed

"I'm confused. How did we end up in bed?" I ask as he sits up. He laughs

"I thought you were dreaming but you had like a death grip on me. You fell asleep watching the movie so I carried you to bed but you wrapped your arms around me and begged me to stay." He says standing up and smoothing down his clothes. I feel the heat on my cheeks from my blush

"Don't sweat it Indigo, nothing happened, we're friends yeah?" He says walking around the bed to me and placing his hand on my shoulder. I hide my face in my hands and he laughs again

"Will you be ok if I run back to the clubhouse and shower? I'll be twenty minutes." He says as we head out into the living room. I nod and pull the key from around my neck. I watch him walk off to the clubhouse and head for a shower myself. I stand under the hot water and let it run over my hair and down my body. I need to move on from Rowan, he hurt me and doesn't want to be with me, I made Socket get in bed with me thinking it was Rowan. The water begins to turn cold so I step out and dress in shorts and a tank top. I dry my hair and watch it fall down to my hips.

I make myself some coffee and decide to step outside to smoke today. I unlock the door and step out onto the small deck, I light my cigarette and close my eyes feeling the sun on my skin when I realise I can hear shouting coming from the clubhouse, I turn and look and see a circle of guys outside the garage, I stand and watch for a few minutes before I realise Rowan and Socket are in the middle of the circle.