chris' pov

matt better not take y/n from me. i genuinely love her. i dont know what i would do if she wasnt with us

y/n's pov

i go to chris' room to talk to him.

me: chris why are you acting like this?

chris: what do you even see in matt

me: what do you mean

chris: its like you have a favorite triplet

me: yeah, i do. his name is nick

chris: more like matt

me: why are you so mad about me "choosing matt over you"

chris: because theres nothing special about him. im hotter, smarter, a-

me: chris stop

chris: its true

me: definitely not the smart part

chris: so the hotter part is true?

me: did i say that

chris: ooh do you have a little crush on me

me: no chris. stfu

chris: alright

me: chris, youre gonna have to start acting like a normal human being

chris: i am one

me: yea i dont know about that

chris: whatever, sorry

me: i dont know. should i forgive you?

chris: bro just forgive me

me: guess i could

chris: see? you love me

me: true, but not like that

thats when i hear matt and nick at the door

nick: are you guys making out or something? hurry up

matt: ew nick

nick: what? its a possibility

matt: y/n doesnt even like chris like that

was

matt's pov

i was hoping my words were truthful. if not, id be heartbroken

nick: true

i hope hes right

y/n: bro we werent making out and yea, i dont like chris like that

thank God

chris: yea, we didnt have time to

y/n: chris shut up. i wouldnt make out with you for a million dollars

chris: that hurt

y/n: oh so youre the one who likes me

chris: no! i didnt say that

y/n: okayyy

me: whatever, guys come back downstairs

me and nick head down the stairs back to the kitchen

nick: ngl, you and y/n look good together (nick whispered that into my ear)

that made me smile but i tried to hide it

nick: is that a smile i see

me: shut up nick you cant tell her

nick: dont worry i wont

me: ARE YOU GUYS COMING OR NOT?

y/n: WERE COMING!

nick: oh and by the way, chris likes y/n

me: WHAT

nick: yea, he told me that hes liked her ever since the 6th grade

me: no wonder why he got so mad

nick: dont tell him i told you that

me: i wont

y/n's pov

i think its pretty obvious that chris likes me. i dont even like him back. i dont think anyone likes me back. that just makes me so sad. no one loves me. on top of that, im depressed asf. ive hid it from the triplets. they think that i got over it but they're wrong, so wrong. everyday i think to myself, would anyone care if i took my own life? im gonna go to matt's bathroom so no one sees me cry.

me: uh chris im gonna so to matt's bathroom ill talk to you later

chris: oh ok bye y/n

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i head to matt's bathroom holding back my tears that are waiting to come out. once i get there, i start to bawl my eyes out. all the memories of me cutt!ng myself and trying to cover it up are coming back. my face is soaked with tears. my depression is so bad. i got my depression from my trash life with my dad and people not paying enough attention to me. but the main cause of my depression is my older sister that is now dead because my dad abused her until she just took her own life to stop dealing with it. right before she took her own life, she texted me. "i love you y/n. i love emery too. tell him that ill miss him for me. of course, ill miss you too. both of you please stay strong for me. i love you both so much. ill see you two later. bye." i was so confused. i tried to ask her what was going on but i was too late. she was already dead, her name was elliana. i miss her so much. the triplets dont even know about her, i never told them anything about her, even when we met. i told emery that she moved away and he believed it. thinking about this makes me want to take my own life just to see her again but id feel so bad for my brother because then he would be so alone. im about to scream my pain away. i cant do that because the triplets would be so worried. ugh i love them so damn much.

matt: y/n? chris told me you were in here. please open the door. are you okay?

perfect timing matt

im done with today bro fml

me: oh uh hi matt

that made it so obvious that i was crying. he could hear it. why am i like this?

matt: y/n open the door please, i wanna talk to you

me: not right now

matt: please?

me: im sorry matt, maybe later

matt: ...yea. yea ok sure

me: thanks, just give me like an hour or two

matt: yea of course y/n

what am i doing anymore? i have to tell them everything eventually. i dont think i can tell them about it. im still staying strong for elliana. im so happy that i am

1 hour and 30 minutes later

im still crying really hard. if possible, harder than before

nick: y/n, do you wanna talk to me? its okay if you dont want to. i get it

me: i dont even know anymore nick

nick: i can get matt in here for you if youd like

me: uh yea sure, thank you

nick: yea.

1 minute later

matt: hi y/n. you alright?

me: no. definitely not.

matt: do you wanna come out and talk about it or do you want me to come in

me: gosh i look like a huge mess

matt: its okay

me: i guess you can come in but close the door

matt: ok

he comes in and i wipe my tears with his sweater

matt: oh my gosh, you were crying that hard?

i nod while sniffling

me: yea uh it was a lot

matt: you can talk to me y/n

me: i know, i just don't know how to explain everything

matt: lets go to my bed, its more comfortable than the bathroom floor

i follow him out the bathroom and try to hide my face even though no one was there

matt: ok, now tell me everything

me: it's my depression. you all thought that i recovered from it but i didnt. its gotten way worse. theres also a major portion of my life that you don't know about. it hurts so bad to even think about it so i just never talked about it to anyone.

my tears come rushing out

matt: dont cry you're gonna make me cry

he pulls me into a hug as i cry into his chest

matt: you dont have to talk about it, ill understand

me: this is why i love you so much matt

i wrap my arms around his waist and just cry harder

matt's pov

i feel so bad for y/n. i can tell that shes going through a lot. i shed a single tear

me: you're making me cry

y/n: sorry

...

y/n: i love you

WHAT

WHAT

WHAT

WHAT

i try to stay calm

me: i love you too y/n

i smile

we finally let go of the hug

i stare into her beautiful eyes

y/n's pov

were staring into each others eyes

then...

he holds my face with one hand on each side

he goes in

he kisses me

i kiss him back

i feel so safe with him

i forgot about all my problems

what he does to me

we pull away. i smile at him and put my head back into his chest and just smile. my worries we're washed away

ill love this kid forever

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that rhymed

i should be a poet

hope y'all enjoyed! maybe another part tomorrow

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