I can't register anything in my mind my breathing just getting heavier. The only thing I hear is a constant knock on the door and in the next moment I see out of the corner of my eye that someone wobbles on the doorknob wanting in.

After a few more minutes I finally could calm down. Standing up on shaky legs I open the door. Seeing Theo standing there. The moment I open the door he embraces me in his arms.

"Oh good ur okay" he says but he's wrong I'm not.

So I just shake my head signaling him that I'm not really fine.

"We are gonna find a way. We can do this" he try's to comfort me only making it worse.

"The fuck no, we are not don't you get how this would ruin my life!" I explode fighting my way out of his embrace.

Looking at me completely perplex "what how can you say that a baby would ruin your life you don't do anything at the moment anyway"

"Just because I don't do anything at the moment doesn't mean I don't want to! God, I wanna go to college and find friends and just enjoy my life not being stuck in this house and marriage and now a baby!"

"You are not stuck how can you say that. I know you didn't want this marriage but it wasn't quite my choice too!" We scream back and forth.

"Fine so no one of us want this then why do we have to?!"

"You know exactly why"

"So I'm not just getting forced to marry someone but I'm also getting forced to have sex for a stupid company."

"Is the thought to have sex with me really so disgusting. I mean yesterday you could rub yourself against me until you came without any problem!"

"Yeah well maybe I shouldn't have done this. Maybe it was a mistake. And just because we did that yesterday doesn't mean I wanna have sex! It's just not fair!"

"Well sorry your parents are such a bitches that they don't care about you or your feelings but that's not my fault!" He screams at me really hurting my feelings.

"You have no right to say that!" I scream my voice breaking and from the look on his face he regretted it the moment he said but it's too late.

"Rora I-"

"No" I cut him off "your parents agreed to this just as mine did and just because my parents don't care about me doesn't mean I don't care about them. Even if I shouldn't."

With that I storm out of the room.

"Rora, where are you going?"

"I'm gonna sleep in one of the guest rooms. I don't wanna see you right know."

"No please, come on we can solve this now."

"No we can't" and with that I slam the door shut,locking it behind me.

I take my pants and jacket off leaving me in just my underwear and a crop top. Snuggling into the pillows and he blanket I let the tears stream down my face.

Every time I think it gets better something comes and just makes it all worse.

Falling into a deep sleep with tears still falling down my face I hope that everything will magically work out and that whatever relationship we have it's not destroyed by this.