Barry and Kara angst (but happy ending)

Song: New by Daya

Video: not mine!! This oneshot is based off the song but the video is so good!

"We did it!" Winn raises his glass toasting Supergirl, the DEO, and the Flash for defeating their latest villain. Kara flashes her brilliant smile at Alex causing Hank to give a small celebratory smile.

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"Two minutes." Kara pushes her heels into the ground forcing her body to stop. The Scarlet Speedster checks his watch again, "two full minutes." His eyes sparkle with pure happiness as he celebrates the defeat of Supergirl.

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"Ice cream!" Kara exclaims and Barry watches as her eyes form perfect circles before she licks the vanilla ice cream. Her cheeks flush as the cold hits her tongue.

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"We did it!" Winn raises his glass celebrating their victory, but Kara's attention is stolen by the hero of another earth. His eyes are on Winn probably expecting some sort of victory speech or whatever Team Flash does. Kara smiles as she thinks of Barry giving his "come to the light'' speech and Cisco giving the "go team" speech.

Kara wakes up and tries to erase the memories. The smile. His smile. Sitting up her blond hair falls in knots along her shoulders. Sighing she tosses her covers to the end of the bed. She doesn't have to look at the clock to know the time-3am-because its always the same. He is pushed from her thoughts during the day only to consume her dreams during the night.

"I've started to see someone..." he had brazenly told her the last time they communicated. She replied with, "me too," even though it was a lie she would dare let him see into her heart. When she began seeing Mon El it was new and exciting. Kissing his lips, feeling his Daxam muscles, and the new feelings of lust. It all fueled her escape from him.

The steaming water droplets hit her skin and mix with the salty teardrops. Leaning back her head, Kara lets her self cry.

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Barry jumps out of bed. His eyes stray from the popcorn ceiling. He quickly zooms through his morning routine. The water droplets barely have time to roll across his cheeks and mix with the salty tears falling like silent angels from Heaven.

"I've started to see someone..." He had forced those words out of his mouth the last time he saw Kara. He wanted to let her know that she is free to move on and that he is trying too, but what his heart wasn't prepared for was her answer. "Me too." He had to remind his heart to beat and force the air in and out of his lungs.

Looking at the clock beside his bed Barry sighs as he realizes its 3:15 am. Walking out the door in a daze Barry does not remember walking the mile to the park. The swings swing back and forth as the forgotten souls of lost children play. "Come on!" Kara runs past at human speed. Her blond hair sweeping over her shoulder. Her blue eyes glow with Heavenly joy. Her joyous laughter encircles the speedster as they go round an round on the merry go round.

Closing his eyes Barry tries to soak in the moment. Opening his eyes he is back by the bench watching the sunrise in an abandoned park.

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"Kara!" Mon El greets Earth's hero as she walks into the DEO at 6am. "Good Morning," she smiles a strained smile as he leans in for a soft kiss. "I will see you at Catco," Mon El smiles back a genuine smile as he leaves.

"Hey," Alex side bumps her sister. "Tonight ice-cream at your place. No discussion. No argument." Kara's forced smile is replaced with a real one. She nods as she shifts into Supergirl.

"It was a great day!" Kara exclaims as her sister enters her apartment. "For the DEO and Supergirl but what about Kara?" Alex sets down two bags. Ignoring her question for the time being Kara pulls out the first tub. "It's about to be bad if you really only got the new Blue Bell flavor." Leaning against the counter Alex pulls out the famous Rocky Road. "I know I thought I wanted new but I couldn't buy Blue Bell without buying Rocky Road."

"Mmm," Kara moans as the takes the first bite. "Don't mess with the old stuff."

"What?" Kara asks as her sister sits on the opposite side of the couch with her legs thrown over hers. "I'm worried about you. You like the old. You don't want the new." Kara laughs trying to cover the tears that are begging to roll down her cheeks. "What do you mean? I am great! I have the best boyfriend." Kara stumbles but tries to recover by talking faster. "He gets me. He understands. It's great. Everything is fine. It's better than fine. It is great. He is great so I have to be. I have to be." Kara nods her head a little too harshly. "Besides its only ice-cream, it's not parallel to my love life." Her eyes glaze over as the wall in her mind collapses as the scent of the wind, the color red, and sensual embraces overwhelm her senses.

Kara puts the back of her hand over her mouth. "Barry is doing great." She chokes on tears and Alex climbs over their legs and onto the tiny space left on the cushion. Their bodies meld together as Alex holds her sister together. "What's wrong with me?" Kara sobs. "Mon El is so perfect. He loves me, but here I am thinking of someone else." "Nothing is wrong with you Kara Danvers. Nothing at all. You may be an alien but you are also human. And humans make stupid decisions."

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"Barry," Patty runs her hands along his chest bringing his mind back to the present. Her lips connect with his and her hands continue to roam. "What are you thinking about?" Her eyes gaze into his very soul. "Your eyes are two shades darker than normal." Stepping back she removes her hands. She is beautiful, smart, confident, and so perfect for him but she wasn't the one on his mind. Closing his eyes he tries to get rid of the burning blue eyes that are etched in his brain. "You are thinking of her," Patty whispers.

His eyes shoot open expecting Patty's anger. They never talked about their exes, but somehow she knew. "Barry I am a woman. I know that look. I knew from the moment that we met, but I just," her teeth caught her bottom lip, "I thought I could..." "Patty..."

She opens her mouth to speak but swallows her words. Stepping closer to her Barry reaches for her hands that are rubbing at her blue work pants. "Close your eyes," She tells him. "Patty listen," Barry tries to reason with her and with himself. "Barry Allen, listen to me." Her hands reach up to his cheeks. "Close your eyes."

Once he obeys she continues, hands fall back to her sides, "answer me truthfully and quickly." Barry nods trusting Patty. "Name?" "Bartholomew Allen." "Favorite color?" "Blue." "Favorite song?" "Poker Face," he answers immediately. "Favorite number?'' "252." "I love" "Kara Danvers." Barry's eyes fly open. "Patty, I am so sorry."

"Like I said I knew. I still sucks though. You are a really good kisser." Patty gives a soft smile before picking up her things. "Goodbye Bartholomew Allen," she gives him a small parting smile before leaving his lab.

As soon as the door closes Barry opens a portal.

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After Kara and Alex's girls' night, Kara knew what she had to do. Taking a deep breath she walks into Catco. Walking into her new office she waits. "Sorry for keeping you, as soon as I walked--" Mon El stops as he watches his girlfriend's shoulders tense. "What's wrong?" Kara reaches her hand to wipe her tears before she turns around.

She hated this. She hated that she used him. She hated herself for thinking she wanted him. She hates herself for crying because she knew the tears aren't for the man in front of her but for her own worry that Barry wouldn't take her back.

"What the hell did I do," she whispers to herself before she fights for the courage to face the Daxomite in front of her. "Mon El, I am so sorry..." she grips her desk to sturdy her self. "When you showed up I was in a bad place and I drug you into that mess. It wasn't--it isn't fair," she feels the wood desk crumble slightly in her hands.

"I, I think," Kara looks down not ready to see his heart shatter. "We should break up." Kara squeezes her eyes shut as the words are spoken. A moment goes by before it registers that she did not speak those words. Her blues eyes meet his.

"Look," Mon El steps forward to embrace her but thinks better of it at the last moment. "J'onn, he talked to me. I have only been a hero for a few weeks now so I won't pretend to know the sacrifices but I do know that you deserve to follow your heart and I think your people would agree with you."

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"I'm missing you. What the hell did I do?" Those same thoughts kept flooding Barry's head on repeat since he stepped through the portal into Kara's apartment. He paces form the living room to the front door. "Should I wait outside? Am I out of place to just show unannounced? What if Mon El opens the door?"

Finally, Barry makes a decision. He opens a portal and steps through it.

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The door opens and Kara walks in. Pausing she listens. Ripping off her shirt, she morphs into Supergirl. She feels as if the world freezes when she sees a red-figure disappearing through a portal. Without thinking she follows the figure.

Her body connects with something solid as she falls to the floor. "Humph," the voice that has filled her every thought moans underneath her. She rolls off of Barry who turns to face her.

They both sit on the floor with their full attention on each other. "I've missed you," they both say. "Mon El and I are over." Barry's eyes fill with tears. "Patty and I are over." Kara feels the knot in her chest loosen slightly. "I was stupid, Barry." "So was I, Kara." "I love you." They say in unison before Barry pulls her into his arms.