《Midnight Lullabies》42 | Words
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I can't find a word that fits
Tears
Angst
Anger
Sleep deprivation
Heartbreak
The sound of my god damn voice cracking as I'm saying 'I'm fine, it's okay'
The lump in my throat that continues to grow no matter how many times I swallow
The deafening silence that fills my veins as the last glass shatters into pieces on the kitchen floor and I swear I can see my reflection blink
The breathlessness before the fall and the air that suffocates you on the way
The tickling of their whispers behind your ear as you swallow one more pill one more pill
The hope that your fingers will never have to touch the end of the bottle but here you are buying another one
The deep red that you bleed and watch as it washes away and mixes with tap water and slowly it becomes less harsh less painful
The words that sit on the tip of your tongue waiting to be let out but you swallow swallow swallow little girl keep your mouth shut little girl filter your opinions to their preferences
The emotions that evolve within me when condemning men like Trump men that break into houses when condemning all the things in the world out of my control
The cluster of tears words angst anger heartbreak broken dreams and used bandaids
that sit in the bottom of your stomach
Take a deep breath.
I found the word in the cluster that had escaped through my mouth and down the toilet bowl I have found the word that makes everything look beautiful and ugly all at once and makes me numb makes me feel everything all at once I have found the word that seems to snatch the rug from under people's feet I have found the word I go to sleep on and wake up to I have found the word that is hidden within everything I have found the word that keeps the blood in my veins rushing won't you listen I have found the word that keeps me alive keeps me moving helps me find the beauty in everything I have found the word I bleed to - for I have found the word that takes my breath away
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Sometimes I forget to breathe.
I have found poetry.
Or perhaps it has found me.
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