《*Gay Panic*/Billie Eilish x Reader》Alone Chapter 12
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"Wanna go somewhere private?"
Did I just hear what I think I heard? Did.....wait....the fuck! I mean of course but I don't think this is the
right time. And she's drunk she doesn't know what she's talking about. Ok I'm rambling.
"Hello?" Billie said, "Y-Yeah?" I replied.
"I asked you something babe." She cut short,
"Oh yeah, that, um I think we should just hang out, you know." I said facing her, "well yeah, ok. But I just wanted to talk, did you think something else?" She said smirking.
You dumb bitch, You seriously thought she wanted to fuck you. Wow.
"Uh um no no no. I- you know, just wanted to hang out. We're at a party so." That was a horrible excuse y/n, good going.
"Sure" was all she said before she went up to Eli, Rich, and some dude. Nice, now Billie thinks, you think, she wanted to fuck you.
I walk over to Rich and pulled him outside, we were near the door.
"What the fuck do you want?"
"Billie wanted to go somewhere private, I thought she wanted to do the nasty so I said no. She asked me if I thought something other than talking, and I said that we were at a party so we should hang out with everyone else, but bitch it sounded soo fake. So now she thinks that I thought she wanted to fuck ME!" I ramble super fast.
"Ok first, calm down, second, so what! You want to fuck her so I don't see the problem here." Rich replied,
"But she doesn't know that!"
All of a sudden Billie opened the door leading inside, leaning against the door frame, "Who doesn't know what?"
"Oh well y-" I cut Rich off by putting my hand up to his mouth, "Nothing, no one, everything's fine!"
"Alright, but am I missing something here?" She questioned, "Nope" Rich and I said in unison.
She shrugged and walked more out the door, walking over to Q and his little gang of lice. Gooood going!
"Now you have to deal with her."
"What?" "What do you mean I have to deal with her?" I said, "listen bish, I'm not the one who wants to marry her, she seems a little upset. You seem to make her happy. And well we did just kinda exclude her from our conversation. Trust me girl, I know what it's like to have someone hiding something from you." "And the stunt you pulled, about
how you just wanted to "hang out" with her definitely put Billie in the friend zone.
I see the way she looks at you! Just hang out with her, that's what you and her wanted right?" Rich said.
"Yeah" I replied, "Then go and talk to your woman, alone." "She has shit to say, let her speak girl, let her speak!" He said being over dramatic. I laughed, which caused Billie and Q's little gang to look over at us.
"Ok. I will." I say, "Yaaaaay" Rich said hugging me.
"Go get her tiger" "Shut up"
I made my way over there. Billie noticed and started to walk over to me too, but Q pulled her back.
He looked in her eyes, then mine with a smirk before he KISSED HER! His gang started chanting and yelling things like,
"Get some Q!" "Ayyyee, that's my boy" "Gettin mad hoes!" "Booo get a room!" "Get the camera, he's doin it!"
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My heart stopped, it felt like time had stopped working and focused on this one moment.
I couldn't breath, I couldn't think, I felt like my world has fallen, and my heart has been ripped out and stomped on.
I felt like I was gonna puke, the scene before me was disgusting. I didn't know if I should cry and fall, or
leave and let Q do what he wants with Billie. It shouldn't matter, she wasn't mine and will
never be now that she kissed him. I knew him and her had a thing, the way he looked at her, the way he made her laugh. She was even straight, what am I thinking?
I was pulled out of my thoughts when I was taken inside by Rich. When he closed the door all that he did was hug me.
"I'm sorry," was the word that made me fall. I cried and I cried. He pulled away and took me places again.
Rich took me to an empty bedroom, he locked it and sat down on the bed. He patted next to him,
wanting me to sit down. I did.
He side hugged me and I put my head on his shoulder.
"I know what it feels like to fall for that straight someone. But we can't do anything. I know how special she was to you."
"But it's going to be okay, you will move on, find yourself a wife, visit your sister, have a family, do all that stuff!"
He chuckled, I did too. Rich always knows how to make me feel better.
There was a knock at the door.
Rich got up and opened it, then a warm smile appeared on the persons face, it was Eli. Once Eli saw me his smile dropped and went straight for a hug. He pulled away and asked "What happened y/n/n(your nickname)?"
"Billie eyelash problems" Rich joked, "What did the straight girl do this time?" Eli joked back.
I sighed, remembering what happened, "She kissed Q" was all I said.
Eli sat where Rich was and Rich sat on the floor in front of us. "oh that douche bag, he was flirting with aaalll the girls!
I was dancing on the table with some hotties and he swiped one away from me!" "Poor, poor, Eli" I said sarcastically.
"You don't need a hoe! You need a keeper! A little housewife, yuh hear me!" We laughed at Eli, they always make me feel better, they know what's good for me.
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After a few we went back to the party, having fun. Eli was dancing with some hoes and I was dancing with Rich. Someone screamed "Truth or dare game in the kitchen!"
"Ayeee! Rich, Y/n, y'all wanna go play some truth or dare?" "Sure" "Sure why not"
We headed to the kitchen, seeing some people doing the same. As soon as we got there we see someone taking shots.
But my luck really loved me, so Q, Billie, AND Grayson were in the kitchen playing. Grayson was sitting on the counter, while Billie was sitting on Q's lap, and Q on the counter too. Bil looked like she didn't want to be there, which I would feel and look the same if I was sitting in Q's lap too.
All three heads looked at me, I was starting to feel my anxiety kicking in again. Eli picked up
on that and put his arm around me, making me feel more safe. Q stoped looking but Billie looked hurt, then turned away. BUUUUT but but but, Grayson was watching my every move. He looked at all of us when we walked in but he kept his brown eyes on me. Those brown eyes that I thought I could trust but little did I fucking KNOW.
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"Wassup dyke!" Grayson yelled, my eyes widened when I heard him. "Oooohhhh!" "Yo that's not cool!"
Q and his buddies from before started saying it too. "Fucking lesbian!" "Haha dyke!"
Eli then stepped up and said "Aye dickheads! That's not fucking cool, stop that or I'll punch your face in!" They stopped, but I was still very embarrassed. People were looking at me. Rich flipped off Grayson, and Grayson did the same to Rich.
The same dude that yelled about truth or dare said, "Let's just continue, and no more name calling."
People agreed and they started playing again. They wouldn't pick me because of what happened earlier, and it was pretty noticeable that they were skipping me. One drunk girl looked at me and said "nah, I don't want to hurt your feelings" and picked some other girl. Let's just say that the game was fun to watch.
The game ended when two dudes started fighting over a bottle of vodka. I feel bad for who ever had to clean that up.
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Rich and I had to find a ride back to the hotel. Eli was blasted, Grayson is just him so we can't ask, and Billie was are ride here and back but that whole crisis happened so no way. We had to leave tomorrow and go pack tonight, so we kinda had to go.
"Hey guys!" A girl said behind us, by the sound of her voice you can tell she's drunk. Nothin new. I turned around and Billie was standing there.
"I'm taking you guys home right?" Rich wasn't impressed. "I'm cool if you two are cool." He turned around and walked away with Eli by his side. "Billie." "Yes?"
"W-why did you stay with Q after he kissed you?"
She paused for a minute, she had a guilty look on her face.
"I...*sigh*...I don't know what me and him are." Billie finally said.
"F-F-Feelings are there, b-but-but they are on and off. He's cute and all but. I want someone who treats me right." She slurred, "I didn't w-want to kiss him. But I didn't-t want to leave him there, he w-would hurt m-me." She says the last part very quietly, like she was about to cry.
Q was hurting her? He was messing with her feelings?!
"He hurts you?" I asked her, "Sometimes. I'm sorry." She hugged me,
"You don't need to be sorry Bil. It's okay." I hugged her back.
"Hold on" I told her. I signaled Rich, told him what's up and asked Billie for her keys. Rich drove us home cause he was sober, Eli was trashed, I was tipsy, and Billie was drunk. So he kinda had to do it.
—
We all got to the hotel, Rich and I helped Eli inside while Bil was close behind. Once we were inside our room Eli crashed on the bed. "Good, he'll finally be asleep" Rich said.
I felt a tug on my sweater sleeve, I turned and saw Billie.
"Yes?" I said to her, "Can I sleep here?"
I looked over at Rich, he gave me a look, "I'll be back ladies" he went into the bathroom. That prick.
"Uh Ok. I'll just be packing" I told her.
"Wait, you're leaving?" She said, "Yeah, we leave tomorrow." I started packing up my things, I didn't bring a whole heck of a lot so packing would be short and easy. Billie laid on my bed.
"Y/n?" "Yes babe?" "Hug?" I turned to her, I gave her a confused look, "I. Want. A. Hug!" She told me.
"Okay okay" I raised my hands up to surrender. I went over to her and hugged her. I was about to go back to packing until Billie pulled me back. "Nooooo" she told be, "Bil, I have to pack babes" "just stay for a second, I feel safer with you right here." I like that comment, but that kiss kept playing in my mind.
"Billie. I have to pack." I said sternly, "Fine Fine" she let go of me.
—
After I was done packing Rich had come out of the bathroom, and Billie was sleeping in my bed.
"ssshh" I told him, "You're gonna wake her up!" I whisper yelled.
"Sorry" he whispered. Rich walked over and packed up his stuff, he closed his suitcase really loudly caused Billie to wake up. She looked up at me "y/n" she whines, "Yes?" "Kiss?" I looked at her shocked, Rich did the same, "I want a kiss" she told me.
"You heard the lady" Rich joked to me, I hit his arm.
"Bil I can't kiss you" "Yes you can!" "No I can't" "Yes you can! People do it all the time!" "But we are friends" "KISS ME!"
I sigh and go over to her, sit down and peck her lips.
Which I very much enjoyed but her and Q kissing played over and over .
"Nooo a longer one!" Billie said, Rich laughed in the corner of the room "Do it" he whispered.
"Billie I can't" I told her "Yeah you can," "alright but that's it." She smiled widely. I kissed her a little longer this time. And I enjoyed it again, but every second of it Q was there throwing up the middle finger, I guess to say he kissed her first. God fuck!
I pulled away and was very red.
"Awww" Billie said, she put her arms around me. She kissed
my cheek, "You are so cute when you're red" I looked at Rich for help, he sighed and walked over to us. "Alright love birds time for bed!" He pulled Billie away and made her lay down gently. He pulled me outside the room.
As soon as he closed the door he high fives me. "Good job y/n/n! You got to kiss her!"
"Yeah but." I paused for a moment,
"she is drunk Rich, if she finds out she might kill me! She's straight, why would she want to kiss her girl, pause, friend." I hide my face in my hands, "everything's fine! Just
say she wouldn't go to sleep if you didn't, which I'm pretty sure what would have happened" he put a hand on my shoulder. "But, I don't know what to think. Every time I kissed her I saw Q. Q kissing her, Q JUST there!" I felt like crying but I held my shit together. "We have to leave tomorrow, let's get some sleep. Okay?" Excuse me?! He just wants me to sleep on my problems. He wants me to sleep with the girl I'm having a hard time figuring out! "Okay?! Richard I can't go to sleep with her! We sleep in the same bed again, we would technically be married!"
He sighed, took a pause and said, "y/n. Everything is going to be fine. She will be fine, you will be fine. Q kissed her before you, so what! That might not have been her first kiss. I sure as hell know that wasn't your first. She's popular, she could get anyone. Billie is straight but maybe things could change. You can't let the straight girl ruin
your life. If she doesn't like you back you have to move on." He gave me a hug.
"Can I tell you something?" He asked, "Sure" I replied.
He let out a sigh, "I liked Grayson, I thought he was the love of my life. He even kissed me. We were dating for a week when he told me he wasn't a fag and other names. I knew
he liked me back but he didn't break. That's when I knew he played me. He wanted to mess with me. So trust me when I say this. Don't fall for her if she doesn't like you back." He pulled away and walked inside. leaving me there. I then walked in too.
Grayson has ruined so many things. He hurt Rich, and I can't believe what he might have done to Eli.
When I walked all the way in I saw Rich packing Eli's stuff. I walked passed him and patted him on the back,
He turned and gave me a smile.
I laid next to Billie. She cuddled to my side. I rapped my arm around her, "I love you" she said, my everything stoped, my mouth dropped. Even Rich turned around, he looked at me with wide eyes.
I didn't know if I should say it back but she's not sober.
She'll forget it in the morning.
"I love you too"
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