I was laying in my bed when I started to hear violent doorbell ringing. I laugh at the thought of Billie ringing the doorbell that much. I leave my bed for the second time today. Instantly regretting the feeling of dreadful standing while having a horrible hangover.

I run down the stairs, seeing the door in my vision. I laugh out loud as the annoying sound gets louder.

I finally open the door to Billie still ringing the doorbell, not stopping. "You can stop now asshole." I said, walking away to the kitchen.

"I wanted to make sure you heard me bro!" Billie responds following me to the kitchen, her hands on the straps of her backpack like a little kid taking a school tour.

I open the fridge to get a water bottle. Since the one Eli gave was warm and also gone in two seconds, I needed another.

The condensation wetting my hand, making me cringe, as I grab the plastic bottle.

Billie sets down her bag on the kitchen island, and pulls out a notebook.

As she does this I chug a good portion of the water. The bottle now half empty, I start to feel less dehydrated and more content with myself. I eyed at Bil very puzzled. She was writing down words very fast in one page. Then suddenly flipped from pages to pages, writing, drawing, and even more writing. "I thought you were gonna help me..." I say trailing off.

She nods her head, "Sorry, I just gotta get this one part down. Then I will gladly help you." Bil smiles, facing her head towards me for a slight second, then goes back to what she was doing before.

I let out a small sigh as I sit myself on the counter. It then clicked in my mind I have to record a song of mine.

"It comes out next week!" I shout to myself. I jump up from the kitchen counter, and head straight for my recording studio. "Where are you going?" Billie questioned from the kitchen. "I gotta make a song!" "Oh hell no!" She shouts back. I could hear her footsteps behind me, as I continued walking. I then felt someone's arms around me, and my feet off the floor. "Hey! Let me down!" "Good call. Cause I can't hold you for shit!" Billie huffed out as she put me down. She turned me around. My mouth fell open. That made me a little self conscious. Billie noticed and quickly said, "you're not fat! It's just I'm weak!" She explains. I chuckled awkwardly, knowing I was overreacting a little. I did take in the detail she was kinda small.

"But Bil. I gotta finish this song." "Me too. But I gotta take care of you!" Billie bickered. I wasn't going to let my guard down that easily. "Then you could watch me while I do it." I say walking to the studio again. "At least let me get my stuff bitch!" Billie shouts speed walking away to take her bag.

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*music stops*

"Y/n...what was," Billie paused, "horrible. I know!" I shake my head. "No." "No?!" My head turned so quick I think I got whiplash. "I think it was beautiful. I was shocked to hear that come from you." Billie smiled softly to herself, turning her spinning chair from left to right, stopping at a certain point to still face me. I stiffly smiled at her, turning my self around to face the screen.

"I still need to add something. I just don't know what." I question out loud. "I know what might help," Bil says while getting up and entering into the sound booth. "What are you-" I was going to say before she popped her head out. "Just play the damn song babe!" She smiles while shouting. She heads back into the booth, putting on the spare headphones.

I don't protest it and play the tune. Thinking about the pet name made my heart flutter with happiness, but I didn't let it show.

I gave her a thumbs up. "What is this girl going to do?"

Then it hit. This bitch was gonna do some background vocals! My heart is failing!

I continued to mentally scream in my head that Billie Eilish was doing background vocals for my new song that I didn't even notice she was done.

"Earth to y/n," Billie waves her hand in front of my face. "Mhm?" I shake my head. "How'd I do?" Billie asks with a smirk. "I think you did amazing." I turn myself to replay the recording to edit and listen again since I totally zoned out. "What do you have to do now?"

"Nothing to bad. Editing, cutting, etc. You can go back upstairs if you want. My living room entrance is pretty open so you should see it." I respond to the black haired girl. "And before you ask no I don't need anything." "Are you sure?" She asked in a motherly tone. "I'm fine mom go upstairs!" I joke with her. She snickers, "I'm not saggy yet." She points out randomly. My eyes shot up to her. My eyes fall on her breast's then I quickly go up to her eyes again. "Cool." I mutter out. I can already tell I'm turning red. "Okay bye!" I turn around once again. Billie then starts laughing really hard while walking away. She noticed. Great. My ex friend? Just saw me look at her boobs. Good going y/n.

*after the song was finished*

As I walked up the stairs I had the song stuck in my head. It was beautiful, and Billie definitely added way more to it. Should I tell people publicly? I mean I'll have to put it somewhere she did the background vocals, but like posting it on Instagram saying, "Billie Eilish, the girl I haven't seen or talk to in months, did my background vocals for my new song, buy it on iTunes." Like what?! People will hear a change in voice most definitely, so it's not like I can say it's me even if I tried.

People online, especially my fans think that we don't talk anymore because we hate each other. I don't hate her, and I don't think she hates me either, but I kinda did for like.....all of the months she wasn't in my life. Kinda. But that's not the point. My fans will still very much speculate the situation, and I don't blame them.

Even when I did "hate" her though, I did recently realize that I wasn't the only one hurting for those eight months, that I wasn't the only one suffering. Ouch, y/l/n.