Taehyung was sitting on a small bench amid fresh, green grass and beautiful, tall, blooming trees, the slight wind causing petals to be swept towards the ground swiftly.

For a time he had only been turning his head around and around, as if he were looking for something. Truly, he knew what he was looking for but he couldn't comprehend the fitting words inside his head.

Until suddenly, he heard a noise from afar. It could've been a dog's bark, a shrill voice, even a phone's ringtone. Taehyung didn't know.

But as he whipped his head around to see where it was coming from, he suddenly saw someone sitting beside him. Someone with soft, raven hair covering his forehead, smiling sweetly at him.

"Jungkook?," he asked, surprised.

The other silently took Taehyung's hands into his own ones, his eyes never leaving Taehyung's and that sweet smile still playing on his lips.

"I know about everything." Taehyung widened his eyes and tried looking somewhere else, anywhere but Jungkook's eyes.

He saw a small rabbit hopping around in the distance and tried focusing on it instead.

Suddenly, he felt a small tug on his hands and his eyes wandered back to the other, whose face seemed a lot closer than it did before.

"Eyes on me." He started smiling again.

"I like you too, Kim Taehyung." He felt Jungkook's hand pushing back a hair strand and cupping his face, stroking his cheek with his thumb.

And all of a sudden, he felt this beautiful feeling in his chest, almost making him tear up.

He said nothing, just looking into the younger's starry eyes that made him feel so... loved.

And without a warning, he saw Jungkook's face come closer and closer, until...

He felt the other's lips lay on his own.

They weren't too dry or wet, just perfectly smooth with a sweet, sweet taste he couldn't even begin to describe.

His other hand moved towards Taehyungs's other cheek to cup it and bring his face closer.

Taehyung closed his eyes and responded immediately, his hands finding their way into Jungkook's soft, silky locks.

Even though their eyes were closed, they could feel the wind swaying through the branches and making petals fall off the blooming trees.

Heart-shaped petals, to be exact.

He could even hear music. The softest, sweetest and most romantic tunes he could've ever imagined. Was it real? Or was he imagining it?

Taehyung felt all sorts of colourful fireworks, butterflies, whatevers, buzzing through his body, close to exploding by the immense amount of euphoria he was feeling right now.

The kiss was not too short and not too long. Just... perfect.

And after feeling a significant deprivation of oxygen in his body, Taehyung opened his eyes.

And saw the outlines of a dark room right before him, Jungkook's bedroom.

Instead of romantic tunes, he could hear various kinds of birds chirping, but to him it didn't sound like happy chirping, more like screeching under torture. He abruptly sat up and traced his lips with his index finger, the 'kiss' still lingering on them.

This was a dream? But it felt so real!

Taehyung felt a stinging pain rushing through his chest, feeling saddened and disappointed.

I mean, actually kissing Jungkook was too good and beautiful to be true.

Right?

Speaking of Jungkook, in exactly that moment the door sprung open and the younger barged into the room, with a towel hung around his neck.

He flipped the light switch, blending Taehyung's eyes with the huge amount of light shining down the ceiling.

"Oh hey, you're awake. Damn, you look defeated. Did you have nightmares?" He grabbed the towel and started rubbing his wet hair with it.

Did he really shower this early?

"Or did it have something to do with that secret of yours? Geez, I'm sorry, don't look so surprised now."

Not being able to process anything that was going on, Taehyung just continued staring into the distance for a while.

After finally regaining his consciene, he answered: "Nothing serious, I just dreamt about some school stuff. And since when do you wake up so early?"

Jungkook laughed. "Of course, it's always the school stuff. Besides, it's 10am, I wouldn't call that very early. But yeah, I had to take a shower, I had... a wet dream."

Taehyung gasped in shock. "What? About who?!"

I never even thought about this stuff, is this normal for people my age?!

Jungkook laughed again. "Why are you acting so surprised? It's normal for people our age. I don't remember who it was about, though. But I wish I did, felt good as hell."

Taehyung screamed internally.

I am not ready to think about this! What even-

"Hey, do you think I should start dating again?"

The stinging pain in his chest increased, making hin feel weary and heavy.

"W-Well, it's your choice, actually. But we're in high school, shouldn't we be focusing on our grades right now? Also, are you seriously thinking about dating someone just because you had... that kind of dream?"

Please don't find another girlfriend. It'll break my heart.

Obviously I know that you could never like me back but my heart doesn't.

"You do have a point, I guess. My grades are kind of dropping.

Things get so boring without a girlfriend, though, how do you even survive?

Well, at least I have you, keeping me out of trouble." He looked over to Taehyung and smiled.

Ugh, I swear to god, that smile. It could kill me.

Taehyung smiled back and looked back to him, his heart racing.

"Of course you do."

"Besides, girls are so hard to understand. Adding to that, they can't seem to understand me either, gives me headaches sometimes. Hey, by the way..." Jungkook interrupted his ramble and walked towards Taehyung to sit next to him, on the bed.

Taehyung had the sudden urge to stand up and leave the room because of all the nervousness and restlessness he was feeling but since he couldn't, he just clamped his hands together so that he came off as normal.

God, what does he want? Stop torturing me with... just everything, it drives me crazy and I don't know why!

"Yeah?" He tried sounding as normal as possible.

"About that... secret?"

Here we go. Here we fucking go.

As if that dream wasn't enough.

"Do you plan on ever telling me what's going on?"

Taehyung could feel his heartbeat accelerating and his palms starting to sweat. But then he thought about Mrs. Jeon's words and gained courage.

"I do, actually. It's... no big deal, just so you know. I just don't know how to tell you."

He could feel Jungkook's gaze on him.

"Sounded like a pretty big deal to me."

"W-Well, it depends on how you view it and what kind of person you are?," Taehyung stuttered.

Jungkook chuckled. "Well damn, okay then. Did you commit a crime or something?"

Is this a crime? Is having a crush on your straight best friend a crime?

Because so many people act like it is!

"Uh, not really. Listen, I'll tell you when the time is right. Just don't expect anything?"

Taehyung fiddled around with his fingers, trying to distract himself from the nervosity he was feeling.

Jungkook sighed. "Taehyung, I am not expecting anything, I just worry about you because nowadays, you seem to shy away a lot and you also seem nervous, like you're scared of me or something. And it kinda bothers me because I care about you, obviously.

I mean, we're best friends. BFFs, like we used to call it back then."

Both of them cracked a smile.

Jungkook's smile faded soon.

"So, when is the right time?"

Now, Taehyung was the one to sigh.

"I don't know, honestly."

"Can... we make a promise?" Taehyung looked up and then looked back down as soon as he met Jungkook's eyes.

He then nodded hesitantly.

"You know what's next week Saturday?"

Taehyung widened his eyes.

"Y-Your birthday..."

The younger's smile reappeared.

"Yeah, you better give me something cool, by the way.

"And this may sound childish but could you like also, tell me your... thing?"

"As a birthday present?"

"Well, you could view it that way.

My mom planned a family trip to a fair ground with my little cousins and we want you come with us. You could sleep over again.

"And yeah, anytime that day... Could you find the right time to tell me? No pressure by the way, but you don't want me to be worried and sad on my birthday, do you?"

No pressure, my ass.

"Umm, maybe? F-Fine?"

Jungkook silently cheered.

"Fuck yeah, you said fine!

Fuck no, why did I say fine?!

Adios Jungkook, you better prepare on hating me forever.

It's just half of the real truth anyway.

Taehyung put on an awkward smile, his mind drifting back to the dream he had just a while ago.

Why couldn't it be reality?

It was so beautiful, too beautiful to just let it go. Taehyung's heart fluttered by the mere thought of it and yet at the same time, it hurt.

Would everything turn out fine? Taehyung wanted to know.

But he didn't.

The only thing he could do was hope for a good reaction.

Why does my life have to be so complicated?

my heart is going boom boom boom rn

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