Dear Diary...

Today's the day.

It's senior year!!!

It's barely been the first day and I'm already scared of the final exams... Is that bad?

I mean, this year basically decides over my whole future! All the studying I did for all my life has to come to a use, I need to work hard...

But this entry should not only be about school.

As you may know, this little book has caused me so much damn trouble, might aswell say it ruined my whole life. But since I do believe that everything happens for a reason, I've finally been able to pull you out of the most abandoned corner of my most hidden drawer, after spending months after months of not sparing you a single glance.

I was so scared someone would see you. I didn't want to touch you, I literally got scared looking at you, I always felt super uncomfortable because of you, your mere presence drove me insane. But somehow, I couldn't bring it upon myself to just rip you into shreds and throw you inside the rubbish bin. Probably because some crazy part of me already saw this coming, that I would actually build up the courage to write inside you again.

You've brought me so much pain, you can't even imagine.

However, it kind of was my own fault and I've come to terms with it, so I'm finally done being a coward.

Today, I'll see Jungkook for the first time in three weeks. Three damn weeks, I missed him so much I could cry!

We're a couple, by the way.

Dear Diary, you missed out on a lot. But some things are better untold...

Today's also my first day back in school (senior year!) so of course, mental preparation for being the most hated person in school is very necessary.

Just like I said, you missed out on a lot.

But I'm glad I'll also see Jimin and Chaeyoung aswell. Chaeyoung's my new friend, she's the sweetest little thing and her hair is as soft as cotton candy!

She's going through the exact same things I used to go through, the one-sided crush on your best friend, being closeted, the fear of failing your family's high expectations-- you must remember better than anyone. Maybe I'll show my early entries to her.

I hope she gains courage soon enough, just like I did. And if Lisa doesn't like her back, my girl Chae can throw her into the trash. (Just kidding lol... unless?)

By the way, my dad's shipping me off to America right after my graduation. Isn't that awesome? (Detect the sarcasm, please.)

I still don't know how to tell Jungkook, time's running short... Will there ever be a right moment? He's so excited to spend the future with me.

And so was I... I think some part of me likes to believe that I actually don't even have to go, that fate just starts changing itself and I can stay. But I've always been more of a creative soul, 99% of the things I wish for are so bizarre, they could never happen... Let's just stop talking about this or I'll get depressed.

Last thing I'm going to tell you. Chris apologized to us the day before the holidays. Chris!

It was hilarious.

Jungkook forgave him pretty quickly but I was a bit more reckless than that.

I made him kneel in front of me and beg for forgiveness, for ten minutes straight. He must've been super humiliated. Then again, that's what happens when you kiss my boyfriend.

Don't try it ;)

This is getting too long, I'm sorry. There's just sooo much to tell!

By the way, I'm NEVER EVER taking you to school again, NEVER EVER. Don't even think of it!

Dear Diary, it was nice to see you after such a long period of time, I hoped you missed me too. Unfortunately, I need to leave for school now.

So bye bye,

-Taehyungie ♡

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Taehyung scoffed.

"What a bitch. Out of all Chemistry teachers we've ever had, she's the absolute fucking worst. And I know what I'm talking about, alright?" He flipped his imaginary hair, huffing as he recalled certain memories.

"Yeah, me too. The way she snapped at me for using a pencil instead of a pen? And she didn't even let me use the damn toilet! Jesus fucking Christ, she's moody," his (still) lab partner Park Jimin complained, his face showing nothing but pure annoyance.

"I know, right? I was this close to snapping back at her! I can already picture this whole year, she's gonna be worse than Dolores Umbridge!" The blonde morphed his face into one of disgust.

Jimin shook his head wildly, mortified. "Oh hell no. No one's worse than Umbridge. Absolutely fucking no one."

"Whatever, Jiminie."

(A/N: in case you don't know who umbridge is be glad ahdjajjdjsjwjsj fuck i hate her so much and every time she appeared in harry potter 5 i wanted to bleach my mf eyes and fucking gag so yeah, jimin is very right and i'm sorry for interrupting, keep reading

The two of them had now reached the locker room, unloading their bags and opening their rusty lockers which were right next to each other conveniently.

It was an unfamiliar and strange feeling... Their last year at high school.

A place full of fear, anxiety and all sorts of negative emotions because of strict teachers, loads of homework, exams and peer pressure.

Yet, the two of them still felt a stinging sensation inside their chests as they thought of leaving the so-called hellhole high school.

Because leaving school meant growing up. Becoming an adult.

The end of their adolescence. The end of the final period of transition before becoming a fully independent and self-responsible person.

And that very thought scared them, just a little bit.

"Jiminie, can you imagine us graduating? I know it's only the first day but I can't help but imagine the future, us standing over there and holding our final speeches, saying our final goodbyes, wearing those weird hats? I'm gonna cry for sure." The blonde sighed, slamming his locker shut and swinging his backpack over his shoulder.

Jimin laughed, patting the younger's shoulder. "Woah, where'd you get that thought from? Don't tell me you're gonna miss all of this, you and Jungkook got bullied for so many months, just because you were a couple. And that dickhead Jackson still hasn't apologized for threatening and harassing you, remember? People here are the fucking devil, I swear."

At that, Taehyung pouted.

"Yes, yes, I know. But graduation is like the beginning of adulthood to me and I'm not ready to be an adult yet! You know, what happened to me in the past is in the past. Absolutely not my point "

Jimin couldn't help but smile fondly, his friend was being extremely adorable and he simply could not resist pinching his soft cheek.

"We have the whole year to accomodate ourselves and we have college and university ahead of us. I bet it's going to be just as shitty as high school, studying, studying and studying. Like, fuck that shit, I want to dance. But of course my family doesn't so I need to get my grades up and study something I'm good at," the redhead unintentionally spilled, rolling his eyes afterwards and cocking an eyebrow at his friend who just looked at him with wide eyes.

"Oh, Jiminie," he whispered.

"I'm so sorry your family doesn't support your passion, you should be able to dance professionally. And they're trying to block you-- that must be torture!

But what if you get into a dance school, with a scholarship? Maybe you can pursue your dreams after all," the blonde exclaimed.

Jimin smiled softly, shaking his head slightly.

"I doubt I'll get a scholarship. And even if I did, my family would never let me. They've already got their perfect little picture painted into their heads: lawyer Jimin, sitting inside his boring office all day and doing nothing but study the boring law." He shrugged.

"Nothing I can change about it."

"Jiminie, no! Your family can wait. You should be able to do what you want and if they don't like that, they can go fuck themselves!," Taehyung protested, the redhead sighing at his words.

"It's not that easy, Tae. If it was, I would've already tried."

"Well, promise me you are gonna try. Who knows, maybe you'll get somewhere. Take a risk, Jiminie. It's for a good cause." The blonde held out his pinky, looking at Jimin expectingly.

After a while, the older gave in and lined his own, much shorter pinky up beside Taehyung's and intertwined them.

"Ugh, fine. I guess I will try. But I'm not guaranteeing anything, so don't expect me to succeed." He laughed at the way the other nodded enthusiastically.

"What about you, Tae? If you're really going to America, you should apply for some colleges there. What do you even want to study?"

Taken aback, Taehyung groaned.

"I don't know. My whole life's been studying without an end, I might've accidentally forgotten to find a passion. I guess I'll study medicine or something. Or... wait." All of a sudden, he started giggling.

"Maybe I'll become a Chemistry teacher." Jimin raised his eyebrows, his face full of confusion.

"Uh, okay. That was kinda random. May I ask why?"

"Our Chemistry teachers sucked ass, they took away all the fun of the subject. Hey, don't look at me like that. Chemistry can be fun if you understand it!" With his eyebrows still raised, the redhead patted his shoulder again.

"Sweetie, you're crazy."

Laughing at the way his friend was sulking, Jimin's features relaxed soon, becoming very serious all of a sudden.

"Oh, before I forget. Have you told Jungkook yet?"

Taehyung felt his heart weighing down instantly, his face dropping.

"You mean-- no. Not yet."

"Taehyung, this is serious! Sooner or later, he'll have to know. Do you plan on leaving without him knowing? Christ, he'll be left crying on your doorstep and I'm sure that is something you don't want," Jimin scolded, sounding almost desperate at this point.

"I still haven't figured out what to exactly say to him. How to put it into words." The older rolled his eyes.

"It's literally so simple, just tell him the truth. What your mom told you. But you better tell him soon before it's too late and you'll be in a whole ass different continent already."

"Fine. I'll try." Now, Jimin smiled genuinely.

"Good. Promise?"

"Promise."

As they intertwined their pinkies again, the redhead was interrupted by a sudden phone call.

"Ooh, it's my girlfriend. I gotta go, please think of what I said, okay? I want what's best for you." Bidding him goodbye with a quick hug, Jimin disappeared rather fastly, leaving Taehyung alone with his many thoughts.

Sighing, he turned around.

And gasped, his heart quite literally sinking as he locked eyes with the person in front of him.

"J-Jungkook."

"S-So... you're leaving?"

:D

(btw: i'm the only half asian in town)