Beverly's pov

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"Oh shit, sorry" Aqua hissed

My eyes looked up to find her covering her face with her palms. I chuckled and wrapped my towel tighter around my body. The water droplets ran down my skin and touched the bare floor as I walked into my bedroom

"It's okay, it's not like I'm naked" I chuckled

"Yeah I'm sorry, I shouldn't even be in here" she muttered

It's been a few weeks since Aqua's stayed with me. My parents still haven't returned from their business meetings. It's been two months!

As each day go by, I still couldn't figure myself out. I always saw myself as straight, I never felt something towards any female. Josie's gay, I never found myself attracted to her or any other female before.

It's just all so confusing, I knew I told Aqua that I didn't want it to confuse our friendship but it really was starting to.

That kiss... It was something special... But do I want to push it further? Should I? I'm not even sure, which basically means I shouldn't.

I'm not appalled by the fact that I might like someone of the same gender but it's just new to me.

Aquamarine has been staying in another room of the house, she knew I needed space to think about stuff but... She's been distant lately.

I couldn't blame her, I blame myself. I started it. I told her I needed space and my dumbass didn't speak to her for weeks.

I don't know what came over me, I just couldn't find the will to be in the same room with her. I just feel so many emotions when I'm near her

It's almost suffocating to look at her.

So I purposely distanced myself and I now I hate myself for it. I could have spent those weeks learning her. Learning the way she thinks, learning to way she acts, learning how to control myself around her.

But nope, stupid me just had to stay away. At this point, I don't know what to do.

What I was sure about was, I really missed Jason. It's stupid. Yes I'm stupid.

.

When you give two years of yourself to someone, it's hard to just let them go in just two months. I'm so accustomed to having him here.

He was an ass, a real dumbass. But he was here when I always needed him to be. Except when he had practice.

I'm not saying that I want him back, I'm just saying that it's been a while since I've done anything with a guy.

!

Maybe I need to put myself out there? Dib my toes back into the dating lifestyle and see what it has to offer.

"It's okay, did you need something?" I asked the girl

"Um... Yeah, Allie wanted to know if you wanna go grab something to eat"

Ah yes, Allie. She's been staying here for the past two months. Her father is always busy just like my parents so they mutually agreed to make my life a living hell. Aka, make Allie stay with me.

The next part was how close Aqua and Allie has gotten. They were like two peas in a pod. Connected by the hips. It was annoying.

They finished each other's sentences like they knew each other since they were tiny swimming sperms.

There wasn't a minute when they weren't together. I knew then snuck into each other's room when the night came. The thought of what they would do in that room sent me mentally insane.

"Yeah sure, just let me get dressed" I muttered, the girl nodded and left the room. I watched as her shadow faded away behind the door.

I sighed and started to get myself ready. I'm the cause of my own misery. I'm the cause of my own downfall. As sad as it sounds, it's true.

I always felt a unfamiliar feeling course through me when I saw them both together. They always whispered something in each other's ear and giggled. Sometimes I just wanted to hold their heads and slam it together.

I finally slipped into some shorts and a band t shirt. My hair was pulled into a neat bun and I applied light makeup. I had no one to impress either way.

I made my way down the stairs to see Allie and Aqua standing by the door. Allie rolled her eyes and walked out the house while Aqua started at me. There was a weird flicker in her eyes but it quickly disappeared.

"You look great" she whispered

"It's nothing" I chuckled, I finally approached her.

Aqua's eyes were still on me, they trailed from my legs and landed on my own eyes. I felt a blush creep to my cheeks.

"Come on, let's go" I giggled and opened the door.

My eyes immediately met the golden hour. The golden sun kissed every inch of the plants beside the house. I made my way towards my car, unlocking it and slipping in.

I adjusted my mirrors, in the corner of my eyes I noticed Aquamarine. She stood there and looked back and forth between Allie and I's cars.

A horn then startled me. Allie pressed her car horn, alerting Aqua go get in this car. The girl sighed and headed towards the Range Rover. I chewed my bottom lip nervously before turning the engine on.

I guess she wanted to ride with me.

I pulled onto the main road and followed behind Allie's car. I prefer to drive me own vehicle, my cousin and I still had unfinished business.

It took us about half an hour to get to our destination. The wind whipped past my face, I adjusted my glasses and pulled into the parking lot of the diner.

I locked my car and headed towards the diner, the two girls trailed behind me. I could hear their stupid giggles, I rolled my eyes and pushed the door open.

I was immediately met by a retro style. The black and white tiled floor was drowned out by the red chairs, neon lights hung through the entire restaurant. Soft music blasted through the speakers in the ceiling. I made my way towards a booth.

I slipped into my side of the booth and the two girls sat on the opposite end. I held the menu but caught glances of them giggling. The rage was burning through my veins, I inhaled deeply and allowed the fresh oxygen to calm me.

"Alright ladies, what will we be having?" a waiter said. I furrowed my brows at the familiar voice. My eyes met the waiter

"Raymond?" I gasped, my jaw dropped as I saw the boy

"Beverly? Holy shit dude" he squealed, I stood and wrapped my arms tightly around his waist as I hugged him

"It's been so long, how have you been?" I asked the boy, somehow I felt a pair of eyes burn into my side profile but I kept my focus on the boy I haven't seen in so long

"I've been great, my family and I actually moved here a few weeks ago. I took up a job in the diner to make some extra cash. How have you been?" he smiled

"I've been... Great actually, I tried out for cheer team. Hopefully I make it next month" I smiled

"Are you kidding me? Hell yeah you're gonna make the team. You're fantastic" he smiled, a blush crept onto my cheek

"Thank you" I muttered

"Here's what, my shift actually ends in like, two minutes. I'll just grab your orders and join you?" he asked, I glanced at Allie and noticed she was engaged in a conversation with Aqua who seemed to be in deep thought.

"I think that's a great idea" I smiled, the boy's grin reached his ear

I sat back down and he took our orders. Raymond was my childhood bestfriend, we did every single thing together. There wasn't a day that we didn't have a sleepover. It all ended when I moved closer to this beach house, we haven't seen in other in a few weeks.

Raymond returned and I made space for him, he slid into my booth and held his smile

"Hi Allie, it's been a while" he smiled

"Sup Bozo"

"I see you're still your charming self" the boy chuckled

"Hi, I'm Raymond"

Ray held his hands out and a grin on his lips, Aquamarine looked at his hands then pierced her eyes into his. An awkward silence fell between the two as Raymond retracted his hands. Even Allie seemed to notice it.

"Awkward"