Chapter 24

SeniaMarie Milano

"Babe don't cry, y'all are gonna work it out. Y'all always do." Erin said trying to sooth me as I shook my head.

"No not this time. It was different. The way he looked at me I mean everything about him screamed hate." I cried.

"I mean you can't blame him though. You literally was playin with this man thinking you had the upper hand." She said and I knew she was right.

There was no arguing I was wrong and that was that.

"He's not even answering me." I cried.

Going on Instagram I saw that he'd posted a photo with him holding a cigar.

'And just when you thought it was an enemy, it be your own'

Reading the caption I sighed and liked the picture anyway.

"Coulda been worst. A bitch coulda been sittin' on his lap." She said as I cried harder knowing I was making the ugliest face.

"Girl quit all that, y'all gone be fuckin in a week span and you gone be right here tellin' me how good his dick is." She said trying to cheer me up but it really didn't.

Rahmik was definitely the love of my life and I never knew that when that person hurts, you hurt. I was stupid and didn't think all this through at all.

I tried calling him for the past three days and his phone just kept going straight to voicemail.

"You have work in a few, You needa get up." She said as I nodded sitting up. I looked at my phone seeing that I had work in an hour.

I sighed going to my drawer getting a few things for me to freshen up.

After getting out of the tub I grabbed some jeans and tried sliding them on, jumping and kicking it was just doing no work. I looked at myself in the body mirror seeing how ill fitted the jeans were and burst completely into tears.

I just knew that today was gonna be long.

... A few hours later

"I wanna do extravagant. I'm getting married and I only plan on doing it once." One of our clients spoke causing Ms. Michelle to laugh.

"I can definitely feel where you're coming from with that." She answered after.

After going through all the other details she was given a fitting date before she left.

I started to clean up the place being in deep thought that our brides were finished for today. We were only doing potential customers now.

"So what goin' on whichu missy?" I heard Ms. Michelle say as I turned towards her.

"Huh?" I asked slightly confused.

"Somebody treating you right?" She asked resting her hand in her hips as I looked at her confusingly.

"Getting a lil chunky skin got all that extra glow..." She said as I giggled waving her off.

"I had just gotten a facial." I said remembering my Valentine's Day gift to myself.

"Ok I hear you, and the chunky-ness?" She asked causing me to laugh even louder.

I honestly didn't know why I was gaining this weight, and it was crazy knowing that I was supposed to stop considering that I stoped taking birth control five months ago.

Crazy to the point where my ass had to settle for a spandex dress.

"Stress weight, trust me." I mumbled sighing as I felt myself getting depressed again.

"Something wrong?" She asked and I nodded.

"Whats wrong?"

"Rahmik doesn't love me anymore." I mumbled trying not to cry.

"Why do you feel like that Nia? I thought things were getting better between the two of you." She said confused.

Sighing I started to explain what had had happened, leaving out nothing and even telling my distasteful side.

"Nia, that shouldn't a been the way you went about things." She said.

"I know. It was stupid. I just wanted to be the female that didn't care for once. I really didn't know what I was thinking." I said rolling my eyes actually seeing how dumb all of this was.

"Why would you do something like that, shoulda just starved him a sex." She chuckled and I shook my head.

"Nuh uh, he wouldn't have allowed that. Off the bat I think he would've thought that it was someone else." I said looking over to her trying not to cry.

"Baby don't cry, you are going to be ok."

"Yea but I took it too far, I just wanted to see change." I mumbled the last part as I heard her sigh.

"Baby, Listen. I always told my son if he wasn't contributing to your life, when it came to helping you grow then he just needed to cut all things with you..."

"You met Rahmik the way he is and obviously something had to turn you onto him and I'm sure as hell it wasn't the money."

"What draws you to Rah?" She asked and I really didn't have to think twice.

"I just honestly love him, I see how he tries to put me first. With him, nothings to good for me to not have. Whatever I come with he takes the full package, and when he's not being on his bull he's honestly just the sweetest..." I cried heavily knowing how much I'd fucked up.

"You see that." She smiled.

"If you're gonna be with him, you gotta appreciate the good with the bad, it's never gonna be all perfect. I know Rah has a temper, I know how he gets. But I also know the heart my boy has and I see how you are the only person that keeps him goin most days..."

"I'm not telling you to put up with no mans shit baby, but if you're looking for perfect, you'll be looking all your life. Enjoy what you have, cause in the blink of an eye it can all be gone just....like...that." She said snapping her fingers as I nodded.

"You're right." I sighed grabbing some napkins and wiping my eyes.

I knew this wasn't something that was going to be easy but I had really wronged him, there was no way I was allowing us to stay on these terms.