I was kicked out of my own house. My damn house. It was her who kept me silent or I was gonna burn my goddamn sister. She was so fucking annoying. I had seen other sisters who were nice to their brothers and then it was her.

Fucking monster.

"What is it, man?" Silas asked, sipping his scotch.

"Shut up" I grunted hearing him and Ryan laugh at me. Currently, we are at Ryan's house. They were having scotch whereas I was enjoying my coke.

"Ruth anything you wanna say?" I glared and he stifled his laugh.

"No boss. You're gonna kill me if I do"

"Exactly" he paled and sipped his drink and averted his gaze from us making me smirk.

"What has gotten in you, man? Becoming too soft" Sil said.

"Instead, say he's becoming more protective over her. You should have seen him losing his temper at that guy" Ryan told him.

"Shut up y'all." I need to hold her in my arms now. It was getting too much and I was already missing her. Stupid Esmee and her stupid friends.

"I never thought you'd be soft for somebody," Ruth said, passing me a smile.

"Me too" I declared lowly and the sound of 'ooos' and 'pussy' echoed in the bar.

"Look at you. I think you'll marry her soon" Ryan said, fanning himself.

"She needs time. I can't be selfish and besides, I don't know if she wants to marry me" The latter sentence left a bitter taste in my mouth and I fisted the tissue in my hand.

"Even a stupid person can point out how much she loves you. It fucking shows man" Silas said boredly and the rest of them nodded.

love? hmm.

Love.

"What about you Ruth? Got any?" I asked, bringing the glass to my lips enjoying the carbonated taste and simultaneously trying to stir away from the conversation about us that was making me miss her even more.

"Not yet boss" he grunted, shaking his head.

"Desperate hoe" I mumbled.

"I fucking know right! Look at him being a desperate bitch." Ryan pointed and Silas nodded.

"It's because of both of you. Your sweet shit is making me a desperate bitch. My mom is already eating my head and taunting me. I swear Asian moms and their taunts" We all laughed at his misery.

Mom.

It was time to invite them and show them my darling. I don't remember the last time I invited them over dinner. After that incident, I had stopped being friendly with people, even my family, and no amount of hearty talks worked.

After a moment, Silas spoke up. "I heard you've got someone," he said pointing at Ryan who choked on his drink and coughed heavily.

"Who the fu-" he stopped and turned to me. "Mommy can't keep her mouth shut" narrowing my eyes at him, he elaborated. "I told your girl about it" he rolled his eyes.

"You call her that?" Ruth asked and laughed out loud when Ryan nodded. Silas broke into a grin.

"Why?" Sil questioned trying to stifle his laugh.

"That's our secret" Fucking piece of shit.

"What about your crush, Ryan?" Ruth brought back attention to it after his failed attempt of trying to get away with it.

"Yeah. Met this guy at the last raid at the club." his ears turned pink and Ruth awwed.

"He's a bartender?" I asked and he shook his head making our eyes turn wide. The last raid was at a -

"Stripper?" All of us said in one go and earned a nod at him. "Damn" "Wow" "Fuck man" All three of us exclaimed making him glare at us, despite his pink ears.

"All of you are going to get partners. I'll die alone" Ruth grumbled, making us laugh.

*** ***

It was finally night and all of us were sprawled across the living room.

They were all tipsy and drunk and I was the only sober one. All of them were mumbling some shit in their drunken state and that was so fucking irritating. Instead of her voice, I was here listening to them bickering about shit.

hmph.

"Damn you should have seen Lucas'. Little shit" Ryan groaned in frustration. This guy was sexually frustrated in his drunk state.

"Shut up you pig. I don't want to hear you moaning next to my ears." Ruth groaned and hit Ryan with the nearby pillow making him cry out.

"Do you want me to hump on this shit?" Ryan retorted, making me laugh.

"Eww, fuck no. Have you done it before? Washed them? The fuck man? What else have you used to hump?" His eyes widened in horror and he got away from him.

"Oh shut up, bastard. Your dick is so tiny that you can't even masturbate" Now I threw my head back and laughed clutching my stomach which only aggravated him and he launched at Ryan.

"You don't fucking go on my dick"

"Why would I? I've got my own. Big one" he breathed out. They continued their banter, making me turn my attention to the now quiet man.

"hey sil, you okay man?" I asked him as he was eerily quiet.

"I'm sorry," he said.

"For what?"

"I called Avaha, 'some girl sleeping with you'- In a very derogatory way. I guess that's why she fainted and- fuck- now she doesn't even remember it. She still thinks of me as a good guy." he said and sat straighter on the chair. The fight between Ryan and Ruth across the room was long forgotten. Every damn memory between Silas and me, long forgotten.

"Why?" I asked.

"Let's say it was nothing and I was a dick to her. I didn't want to admit that after you she made me feel any emotion, sister-like of course, but still" he said shrugging.

I stood up and punched him straight.

"You fucking shit" I forced out and punched him making sure the cunt got a black eye.

"I hope you are sober enough to realize that we are just colleagues now" Having said that, I turned and collected my things leaving the house.

Every damn day is bringing some shit.

I rushed to my car and tried controlling my breaths.

"Esmee," I said.

"Brother" she drawled drunkenly. Why was everybody drunk today?

"Empty my house," I said, starting my car and turning towards our safe place. our home.

"But" I cut her off. "I don't fucking care now. I'll be there in 30 minutes. Leave" I angrily said, waiting to hear her affirmation.

"Jeez okay! We were just leaving anyway," she said and I hung up putting on some old melodies to calm myself.

Within minutes I reached our place and saw things back to their place, but a smell of them lurked in the air, making me even more annoyed.

"You are home" The beautiful brunette stood in front of me and held me closer to her.

"I am" I basked in her presence and held her tightly against me, making me and my tensed muscles relax. Her fruity scent gave me a sense of relief to wash over me and kiss her neck.

"I missed you, baby," I said and she shuddered.

"Me more" she smiled and stroked my now growing hair.

I tapped her ass making her know to wrap her legs around me but she walked back taking a few steps away from me.

"Let let me get you something," she said and sauntered away from me.

The fuck?

I walked behind her in the kitchen and saw her taking out the Doritos. The woman has started loving them and got me hooked to them.

"Let me" I teased trying to pick her up when she held my hands in her.

"No. It's fine" handing me the glass of water she turned and got the small table.

"Are you trying to get away from me, sweetheart?" I asked gulping down the water.

"No. No" she said and handed me the Doritos and guided me to the sink so I could wash my hands.

"Let me hold you against me, baby," I said in a gently sweet voice and held my hands on her hips.

"You are tired right now. It's fine. I'm tired too. Good night" she said and practically ran to our room.

I looked at her retreating figure. Now I needed to find the reason behind her being so distant.

Lord help me!

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Thoughts?

Take care of yourselves and smileeee.

And have some real food and water too, bitches.

~LT