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Joel In Media 😍😍

Christian

The crowded hallway seemed to pause almost whenever I would catch his attention to talk to him. I had known him for years now and for eternity in the little world he could take me to in my mind. I felt as though whenever he took the time to approach and speak to me, it was somehow his little way of giving me the attention I so desperately craved by other boys but never got.

As if he was doing me a favor because I was gay.

And though I know that he would never think that, he unknowingly was. Because it seemed near impossible for someone as attractive as him to even want to have a conversation with me though I was ugly by no means. My constant flirtations and his responses to those are what drove me. What drives me.

To this day, I can't seem to wrap my head around the idea that "Maybe he doesn't like you" or "Maybe you're just over thinking normal conversation" . So many possibilities to think about and consider.

"I'm dead serious Christian bruh, quit touching my ass." Joel groaned annoyed, only half serious as he always is, smiling as I watched him walked down the first of two flights of steps to the first level of our school building.

"It's just fat for no reason." I laughed.

"Quit all that." He rolled his eyes and groaned.

"I can't help it. You know I like big booty's." I laughed again as he shook his head laughing with me. I finished watching him walk down the steps and turned around, only to be scooped on my arm by Shae. Her manly ass could drag me through this school if she wanted to. She gave her classic look that always let's me know that she either seen something or knows something I don't. Neither of the two are good.

"Wassup." I say as she pulls me into the corner we religiously stand at everyday. She put her back against the wall and crossed her arms as she looked at me.

"I'm tired of you and Joel always flirting in the hallway."

"I'm not flirting with him."

"It's so clear and obvious though!" She insisted, "People are starting to wonder."

I chuckled at her assumption without denying my attraction to Joel, which I guess wouldn't make it an assumption but a fact. "He likes Tiara. I'm not fooling with that."

"And when he's not talking to her, who's he talking to?"

I huffed. She's annoying when it comes to people I like. I should've never told her that I even remotely liked Joel. We had been texting and hanging out all summer long. He's literally the only person I've come out to. Though others may know, or make small guesses, he's the only one I've told directly. I can't even remember speaking to another boy, well, that's not including Von, but that's neither here nor there so I can very easily call him my best friend.

"He's not gay Shae, leave it alone." I walked away first, making Shae following me.

"I just think you should either go after him or leave it alone before your heart gets broken." She said not to far behind. She said some other things but I wasn't paying attention as I didn't want to. The bell for our next class soon followed.

°•.•.°.

Shae took to her assigned seat across from the room from as I sat in my own, placed in one of the corners of the classroom. I take this time to have my phone out like most people. I don't have many classes with Joel. Like 1 or 2 at the most, so majority of class I'm usually texting him.

Joel 😩 : "What you doing thot?"

I always seem to smile when he texts me. I never take him seriously 'cause I always think it's just his clever way of flirting with me without really doing so. If that makes sense.

Joel 😩 : Chrisssss !

I decided to read it and not to respond since a lot of times he's doing the same to me. Petty, I know but I don't care at the moment. I put my phone face down and took this time to actually listen to what the teacher was saying for once.

5 long seconds.

My attention span lasted less than 5 seconds as the slow, monotone voice of Mr. Schultz almost put me to sleep. I crossed my arms and wiggled uncomfortably in my seat, as if his voice would somehow become less boring. He had no energy or enthusiasm in his teaching. I couldn't understand how others were so focused on him. I looked across the room to catch Shae's attention.

I locked eyes with her and cheesed heavily, waving my hand randomly to her. I don't know why I did, maybe out of boredom just to keep my body moving in some way. Thanks to the slight touch of ADHD I have, it's kind of hard to sit still in one seat for a long period of time. She smiled and waved back to me, defining the reason we're best friends.

My phone vibrated, cutting short my attention to Shae.

Joel 😩 : Chrisss talk to me! You know I don't got no friends

A small grin spread across my face as I read the message. I like seeing him beg for my attention as I so gracefully do him.

: ...Wassup ? 😊

I replied with a smiling emoji to annoy him.

Joel😩 : Just come see me after class

Mr. Voltz passed out tonight's homework with God's speed to get us out of his classroom as fast as possible. I imagine it's what the rest of the teachers here do as well because who wants to be stuck here any longer than they actually have to. The bell rung and the sudden rumbling of desk moving exploded. Shae rushed over to me before I could even step out of the door. I guess he didn't want to have to come find me later.

"Where you heading off to?" She wrapped her hands around my arm.

"Go see Joel really quick before we go."

I was hoping not to hear any blunt jabs about me going talk to him for less than five minutes. She blows our relationship out of proportion if I honestly have to say.

"Alright." she said shocking the hell out of me. Although I wasn't asking permission I certainly expected her to lash out at me for it. "Just make it quick because the buses don't wait for anyone."

I nodded with a smile and proceeded to the first floor where Joel usually is at this time of day. It didn't take me long to spot the back of his curly head. He leaned sideways, as if he was talking to someone and I immediately regretted my decision because I know who he's with.

I approached the two from behind Joel and smiled dryly.

"Hey Chris!" Tiara hugged me as Joel watched me interrupt whatever they were talking about.

Joel had always had an interest in Tiara. He always told me about the ways he planned to get her. And even though I told him about the boys that Tiara probably talked to, he wouldn't listen so I would sit there and encourage him to do so. Like the good best friend I was to him. I wouldn't like my feelings to get in the way of someone else's happiness.

After hugging me she said goodbye to Joel and kissed each other seemingly on purpose in front of me. I rolled my eyes at the quiet torture Joel was putting me through at that moment.

I turned my head back towards them hoping my nightmare was over and it was. Tiara waved us off in only a way she could. She was pretty no doubt. Which made Joel's attraction to her understandable and a lot easier to deal with.

"Come 'ere." He motioned for me with his head. I huffed and adjusted my backpack to one shoulder in order to lean my back on the lockers next to him.

"What's wrong?" He asked. Rationally, I couldn't blame him for not knowing. There's always a possibility that he doesn't even know that I like him.

"Nothing." I shrugged in the most cliche of ways to let someone know there actually is something wrong.

"Why you always look mad for ?" He started smiling which in turn made me brighten my mood up.

"Natural mean mug." I answered simply again.

"I like how you keep me on read. That shit is real cute." he said sarcastically as he bit his lip to randomly grab my nipple. I smacked his hand out of instinct but secretly loved the gesture. I laughed it off to make it seem as though I was in on the joke with him.

"You do the same to me, so does it really matter?" I raised an eyebrow.

Usually he always had something smart-a-lick to say back. It was the Sagittarius in him.

"I guess it doesn't." He laughed. " What you doing later?" He licked his lips out of nature and pulled up his pants.

"I don't know. Probably nothing." I said, hoping he would invite me out to do something.

"You gonna be over Shae's? Lets smoke."

Of course like the addict that I've become to be, I agree. Hoping we'll maybe have one of those movie moments where we're both chilling on the back porch, talking about life in the moonlight. No one else but the wind and him to listen to and we end up kissing right there. Right on the porch. Because the moment was right, or maybe he would say it was an accident and that he didn't mean it, or something more stupid than that.

I looked over to the doubled doorway that led outside to the buses. I noticed the crowd that rushes to get out there lessen with each second of us talking so that was my cue to wrap this up. I got off the lockers indicating to him that we needed to go before the buses leave us stranded.

"If I text you you gonna reply, right?"

I groaned ,"Yes.". But in my head I was saying to him I would reply every fucking time.

He smiled that infectious smile of his and sped up a little, almost running as the buses all honked their horns to let everyone know they were leaving.

He passed me up. But not before grabbing my butt briefly. Another thing that he usually did. It's one of those really mixed signals I always get from Joel.

I returned the favor to him because I particularly liked touching his butt. Boys Squishy butts are my thing. I just like touching them and when he sags, it allows me easy access and free entry to a glorious peep-show that last all day at school.

I rushed to Shae's bus right on time. She held a seat for me close to the middle but not far from the back.

She didn't badger me like I expected her to. Only giggles and laughs after talking about what she was gonna eat when we got to her house. She has nothing in her cabinets though because she does this all the time so we'll probably be ordering wings again.

I love going over Shae's because she lives about a block or so from Joel. I just hate riding her b us. She's the very last stop so you can imagine how annoying it is. I stepped off the bus after Shae and not long made it to her house.

My phone vibrated in my pocket as the fresh cold air of an empty house hit my face when I walked through Shae's door. I took it out and looked at the caller ID. It was my ex, Von 😒.

Just a test run. Wanted to see what the response for this book would be. -Golden

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