| Three | Love

( Joel In Media ❤ ]

Christian Thompson

The sad part about love is that we can recieve so much, yet still feel empty inside. As if saying "I love You." multiple times has become- unfulfilling and the meaning behind it as hollow as the shell of a butterflies cocoon.

That's what I had felt with my momma.

She was like me in the most dangerously beautiful way. We were both gemini's who loved with a fiery intensity on the inside yet was emotionless on the outside. At least that's how I viewed her actions or the way she talked to me. She was beautiful, and I got my looks from her.

"Why are you not in the house like I asked you to be?" She said as the car sat in the front of Joel's house referring to something she told me to do yesterday.

I probably would've remembered if I wasn't so high right now but I was so used to her nagging and whining that I honestly couldn't find the motive to care.

"I guess you grown and on your own now huh ?" She said before picking up her phone I didn't notice was ringing until now.

"Hey Girl,"

She said excitedly to one of her friends on the phone as we pulled away from Joel's house. I pulled out my own phone since I knew I was going to be bored but I have a bad habit of listening in on her conversations anyway.

My phone flashed in my hand as my notification bell rang.

Seeing Joel's name be the first thing I seen pleased me in a un-usual way. My thinking was more lustful than normal. Images of him kissing and touching me rushing through my head, though it wasn't enough to arouse me.

》"Girl, nothing, right here beside me." I heard her words loudly. "I guess he think he's grown now; done left without doing his chores, didn't tell nobody where he was going.."

I expected that to be all of her sentence but she kept going., "Bitch yes he did!" She laughed hysterically as if I wasn't sitting right there. "Girllll!" She exaggerated as ghetto as possible while hurting my ears in the process, " He got in the car high and everything."

》 I took a very deep breathe and sighed deeply as she's embarassing and annoying me.

I opened Joel's message. I always got excited whenever he texted me.

Joel 😩: Im sorry. It wont happen again.

Why would he say that? Because I would love for it to happen again. Hell I was pushing for it the next time I saw him.

I sighed, knowing that now he was gonna try to avoid me now because that's what Joel loved to do when he was uncomfortable. Runaway from me.

On top of that, I'll have to play like my feelings towards him aren't bigger than what they seem.

"It's cool bro. No harm done." I sent back to him.

He didn't respond back anytime soon as my mom and I pulled in the driveway of our house.

"Take these groceries in for me. I have to go pick up your brother and sister. " she said.

I groaned and rolled my eyes as I didn't feel like doing anything but going to bed.

"Let me see those eyes again and I'll be sure to not give them back to you!"

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"Soooo..." Shae exaggerated on the phone as I tried to find my room under all of the clothes I threw on the floor this morning trying to find something to wear, " How was it?"

"How was what?"

"How was the sex?" She asked so very casually and nonchalant as only Shae could.

"What!?"

"I bet it was bomb. All that sexual tension yall be having around eachother."

I sighed with a slight chuckle at the thought of us even doing something like that in the moment, "We didn't do anything. We almost kissed but that's it. Nothing happened."

"I knew it!" She yelled excitedly, "I knew Joel wasn't just swinging in one direction."

"We were pretty drugged out." I exclaimed, hoping that she wouldn't take the information I just gave her and run it to someone else. If Joel found out, I'm almost positive our friendship would be over. "It wasn't on purpose. He was in his feelings, I was in mine. It wasn't anything serious."

"Mhm, Whatever bitch." She said as if she didn't believe me. She really has no reason not to; I mean how many times have I told her that there's nothing going on between me and him. Even though there is, but still thats besides the point.

The following day came soon enough but for some reason I felt weirded out by being in school. I was nervous for some reason.

Or maybe not nervous, but anxious.

I was anxious to see what he would say to me. If he would even speak to me 'cause of the akward text he sent me yesterday. On top of me knowing him for so long, I know he's probably going to try and avoid me.

It seemed as if I were looking for him, the way I roamed the hallways. Knowing his usual daily pattern as to where he goes when we transition classes.

No sign of him.

Class after class, I would look for him simply 'cause I just wanted to talk to him until Shae finally spotted me in the hallway and pulled me away like a bride and groom as she always does.

"Where have you been ?!" She said louder than usual. Almost yelling at me.

She might be thinking I've been trying to avoid her for the past few hours but honestly, I haven't been doing it on purpose.

"Here."

"Well bitch I haven't seen you all day. I was about to start worrying about your dry skin having ass."

"Fuck you," I laughed, "Omega Forehead, no socks with sneakers on dirty ass bitch."

"Oooouuu, that one hurt a little bit. Joel taught you how to joke when he was smashing that back in huh? 'Cause you sound just like him." She smiled, knowing I that I got annoyed whenever she brought me and him up in the same sentence.

Now that I had thought about it, as much as Joel joked on me in middle and high school, I probably did pick up few things from him.

"No I didn't, baldy." I spat back.

"Speaking of Joel though, have you seen him today?"

"Yeah, he's down in the main lobby with Tiara. "

I had sunk myself into deep thought without even responding to her. Trying to figure out if I should rush down there and find out why he's been avoiding me, but I kind of already know why, which I guess is a natural reason for someone to be uncomfortable.

"Chris leave him alone. You are never supposed to beg someone to fuck with you."

"I know.."

"Well then quit moping and come on before we be late to class."

Not long after she said that, the minute bell rung. I was still thinking about going to see him anyway, though I dont know how much I would really get to say to him in less than a minute. I was jerked out of my thoughts by Shae's loud groaning and pulling of my arm.

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Conviently, we had watched a movie in the class me and Shae were in. I powered napped through like I knew only a truly depressed soul could.

My phone had vibrated on my desk, making me wake up as the lights came on in class and the bell was about to ring for school to be over.

I picked up the phone and sighed seeing as I haven't talked to the one person I actually want all day.

Joel 😩 : Where you at ? I aint seen you all day.

Popped up on my screen, making me feel a little stupid for thinking the way I've been thinking all day.

I decided not to respond because I couldnt think of a decent response. I'd rather say what I had to say in person anyway.

The bell rung and the class, as usual, decided they'd become track stars and run outside to the buses loading area while I took my time to pit my things away.

"Bye Mr. Voltz! Come on Chris." Shae said standiny at the door.

"Go on without me." I said, not looking at her but motioning with my hand.

"Ughh, " she groaned rolling her eyes, " Tell Joel I said hey."

I had smirked after she left and finally got up out of my seat. She always knew what I was up to.

I walked down the two flights of stairs that it takes to get to the first floor which are unnecessarily tiring and immediately spot Joel in the same spot he's always at.

I don't know why I couldn't find him in his usual spots all morning.

His back leaned on the locker casually as his face was buried inside his phone so I decided to take this time to suprise him a little hoping he didn't look up before I even approached him.

"No Tiara today?" I asked as his face jumped from his phone to look at me with a low smirk as soon as he heard my voice.

"Nah, she just left actually. But damn, I can't get a Hi or hello first? A kiss, a hug, something before you just come out the gate ? " He chuckled.

"You want a what?" I asked taken back a little bit, not sure if I had heard him correctly or not.

"Nothing." He waved me off, even though I was sure of what he had said.

"Awh. So where you been? I haven't seen you all day."

"Nope." He turned away from me smiling, "Don't talk to me. I'm mad at you."

"What I do?"

"Can't text nobody back." He turned back around to face me.

"Boy! If you don't get - who waits until the end of school to text someone, 'where you at?' ? Inconsiderate fucker." I voiced, lowkey making myself mad just thinking about it. .

"Damn," he said laughing at what I said and wrapping his arms around me and pulling me in for a hug, " I'm sorry. I didn't mean to."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah." I said as he held me,my words muffled in his shoulder as I embraced his scent.

He held me for a few seconds longer and I enjoyed every second of it before he released his hold on me a little bit. "Got to go." He said leaning down towards me as if he were gonna kiss me.

He didn't. Instead squeezing my butt, and laughing as he dodged one of my attempts to hit him.

He quickly got around me and went straight for the doors that led outside. "Text me big head."

He yelled back to me as I slowly followed behind him, knowing I wouldn't catch up.