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Tin had been in the bathroom for over 1 hour. I even finished washing my used dishes. I tried to stick my ear to the bathroom door but I didn't hear the sound of running water. In fact, no sound was heard. At first I knocked softly while calling Tin. But after a few minutes passed and there was still no answer, I began to worry. I started banging on the door and calling him in a louder voice. There is still no answer. This time I'm really scared.

I don't know how long I banged on the door and shouted for his name when he finally opened it. My eyes went straight to his face which looked very pale and his lips turned blue.

I can no longer hold back my emotions. Why did he do it when we planned to talk? Did he intentionally make me worry like this?

After asking him to get dressed, I went straight to the kitchen to make hot chocolate for him. I'm not good at cooking but my family always says that my chocolate drink is the best in the world. I don't know if they say the truth or just want to make me happy, so I never make chocolate drinks except for them. Tin is the first person I made hot chocolate besides my family.

I waited for him in the living room nervously. I'm really worried about him. I don't know much about him, his family or his burden. One thing is certain, I am a person who contributes to adding to the burden of his life which is certainly not light.

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"Can ..."

Can turned when Tin sat next to him. He's already fully clothed and his clothes looked quite warm.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean ..." - Tin

Before Tin finished his words, Can handed him a glass of warm chocolate. Tin immediately drank it and was surprised by the taste. This is the best hot chocolate he's ever had. Even the best hot chocolate made by his best chef is not comparable to this chocolate.

"Can, this chocolate is delicious. It's amazing. You have to open a chocolate shop. It will be in demand. I'll capitalize it, Can," Tin said excitedly, unaware of Can's expression change.

"Can we not talk about money?" - Can

"OMG, I'm sorry, Can. I didn't mean ..." - Tin

"Tin, stop apologizing. You have said it many times." - Can

"I don't care how many times I have to apologize, as long as you're not angry with me anymore." - Tin

"Do you always apologize like this to people ?," asked Can curiously.

"I've never apologized to anyone. Only to you." - Tin

"Hhhmmm ....." - Can

"Only 'hhmmm'? You won't even ask for the reason?" Tin asked.

"I already know the answer." - Can

"Oh yeah ??? What is the reason?" Tin challenged as he smiled a little.

"Because you love me and you're afraid if I get angry and leave you." - Can

The mischievous smile on Tin's face faded, realizing the seriousness on Can's face.

"Is my answer wrong, Tin ?," asked Can who turned his face and faced Tin.

"No. Your answer is right, Can," Tin answered softly.

The atmosphere became quiet. Only the sounds of the clock echoed in the room. They are confused about where to start the conversation.

After a while, Can finally decided to talk. Seeing Tin's fragility at this time made him realize that his selfishness had hurt the most important person in his life at this time.

"I still don't know about my feelings for you. Is this feeling can be called love, care, need or anything? But it is definitely not a feeling of pity or just a friend. I never felt like this with my other friends. This is the first time I feel like this. I want to meet you but also don't want to meet you. Sometimes, I'm mad at you but I miss you too. Everything feels new and strange. " - Can

"Can, me too ......" - Tin

"Let me finish it first, Tin." - Can

Tin is silent and lets Can finish it. His eyes never left looking at the face of the little man in front of him. Can also looked directly at Tin, so Tin could see the truth of each of his sayings.

"You say you love me for who I am, with all my shortcomings and excesses. But the incident happened to Natt made me doubtful".

Can raised his hand as Tin opened his mouth to argue. And it managed to silence Tin.

"Don't get me wrong, it's not about Natt's incident. But about you and your past that I don't know. I was very surprised and felt inferior when that perfect Natt proposed you in front of all our friends, even after you proclaimed our relationship. I'm just thinking whether in the future I will get another surprise from people who were and will be in your life ".

"The Tin I used to know was someone who was very arrogant, cold and never cared about other people's feelings. But after getting to know you more, I saw you as a warm, loving but fragile person. As if you could be destroyed at any time. I'm afraid if someday another surprise happens again and makes me angry, it will surely affect you. And I don't want to be the reason for your sadness, Tin "- Can

Tin was surprised to hear Can's words. Since when could Can 'the fool' be wise like this? Can's last words seemed to strip him naked. They only met for a few months but Can already knew him much better than anyone who knew him for decades.

Can took a deep breath before continuing. He looked at Tin's sad face, the face of someone who almost collapsed from all the restrained emotions.

"I can't say that I love you now. Because I'm not sure myself. Like you said yesterday that you didn't want to give Natt a hope, I'm also like that to you. All I can tell you now is that I understand your feelings to me, I care and I will try to dive into my feelings. Right now, that's all I can do for you. Now it's up to you, what you want from me after listening to me. " - Can

Tin wants to refuse. Tin wants Can to return his love right now. But Tin knew he couldn't do it. Forcing Can was the same as making him get away from him. Tin decides that he will wait for Can to give his heart to him. He is confident that slowly Can will repay his feelings. And Tin is ready to wait until anytime.

"I will wait for you to reply my feelings, Can. But before that time arrives, allow me to be selfish just once. Don't open your heart to others. Open your heart just for me. So if only you decide not to reciprocate my feelings, it's pure from your heart, not because the presence of other people. As long as you're still near me, I'm sure that I can make you fall in love with me. Will you do it, Can? "

"Of course. I promise. Thank you for giving me time, Tin." - Can

"Tin, you said you wanted this relationship to be start and continue with honesty right?" - Can

Tin nodded, ready with Can's questions.

"Why are you always being cold and never believing in others. Do you remember when I left a letter of apology? You said your story about yourself and your family is a lie, but I'm sure that you said the truth at the time. It was my first time seeing you as a fragile person. I'm not used to seeing my friends sad. Even though at that time you haven't become my friend, I really want to help you reduce your sadness. " - Can

"Can, stop driving me crazy," Tin said as he threw his head on the back of the sofa.

"Eh, I'm driving you crazy? How can it be ?," Can asked innocently.

"I fell in love with you because of your apology at the time. I felt your sincerity. The first sincerity of my life. And your words just now seemed to strip me. You know me better than anyone, even since we haven't known each other." - Tin

"The first sincerity of your life? Really? You really have no friends besides Pete and Natt?" - Can

"Yeah, I don't have any friends other than them. Actually, I'm not sure if we deserve to be called friends. We're only 3 people who happen to be out of touch with many people and feel connected. We rarely meet other than at school. And actually Natt is closer with Pete rather than me. So when she proposed me yesterday, I was very surprised. Actually, since she moved to Canada, I never contacted her at all. But before Pete's birthday, I found a photo of the three of us. Spontaneous, I contacted her by email because I don't know her telephone number. Aarrgghh, if I would have known that she would screw it up, I would have never asked her to come to Thailand. "

Can listened carefully, without interrupting.

"I lost faith in people since my step brother betrayed me. In the past, he was my world. My role model. My hero. He was everything to me. Everything was destroyed in a few minutes when I accidentally overheard his conversation with his mother. He even hoped that I would just die. He, who initially became my world, immediately became my hell. In addition to the drug incident, everyone sided with him. I was no longer valuable as a child and human. Everybody looked at me with compassion and disgust. Just like someone who bumped into you at the Mall when I bought you a cellphone at the time. It was better because usually they would insult me ​​in front of my face," he said with a bitter laugh.

Seeing Can, who was silent with his eyes full of questions, Tin understood what the little creature wanted to know.

"What did I do when they insulted me in front of me ?," asked Tin, who was answered with a nod of Can's head.

"I let it go. There's no point in serving them because their goal is to make me angry and eventually everyone will say 'See what I said? Tin is a bad boy like that'. I decided to paid them in my way. I was always in the 3 highest ranks at my school and thats made them even more upset. At that time, there were only Pete and Natt who accompanied and entertained me. But strangely, whatever I did, it never satisfied me. This pain never diminished, let alone lost. "

"But everything has changed since I knew you, Can ..."

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OMG.... almost 1900 words......

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