Around next week, Ramadhan will come. And am planning to hiatus about 1,5 month. Ramadhan + Ied. But its still a plan, not sure tho. But i will try my hardest to hiatus from updating my Wattpad stories.

If that really happen, please do understand and waiting for my comeback ❤

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Proofread by Jung Woomin

She's the only one that read my unpublish chapters because am still sending my raw translating hehehhehe. And I believe that she will keep it for herself (and me)

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Ending Chapter 39

Actually Techno didn't have the heart to hurt Kengkla, but he had no other choice. He wanted Kengkla to feel happy like him. Happy to have a family and a lover who loves him unconditionally. Kengkla fell too deep in the dark chasm he created himself. It's time for him to crawl out of the cliff. And Techno will do anything to get him out, even if he has to hurt Kengkla like he just did.

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I don't understand, why every time I think that our relationship is getting closer, there are things that make us come back to point zero. P'No is not good at lying so I know for sure that P'No really meant it when he said he loves me. But why did P'No have to bring up my parents' problems again? Even though I've said that I only need him in my life? - Kengkla

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At 2 am, Techno woke up thirsty, but when he left the room, he saw Kengkla who was still sitting in the living room.

"Kla, haven't you slept?" asked Techno.

"Oh Phi, did I wake you up? " Kengkla asked, who immediately stood up and approached Techno.

Judging from his attitude, it seemed that Kengkla was unaware of Techno's presence before.

"No, not because of you. Phi is thirsty."

"Oh, Kla will get you a drink. A minute Phi."

Kengkla headed straight to the kitchen without waiting for an answer from Techno. At first glance, Techno saw Kengkla's teary eyes, making him felt guilty once more. Without waiting for Kengkla, Techno walked into the living room and sat on the long sofa.

"Phi, drink it," Kla held out a glass of water for Techno.

"Sit down, Kla."

Without speaking, Kengkla sat next to Techno.

"Why aren't you sleeping?" Asked Techno.

"I'm not sleepy yet, Phi," Kengkla said, smiling.

"What's in your head? Can you tell me? Didn't Phi say that Phi wants you to share your sadness with Phi? You don't believe in Phi?"

"No no, Phi. It's not like that. Phi is the only person Kla believes."

"Then, why don't you want to tell me?"

*How can I tell you if you are the source of my problem, Phi*

"Because of Phi's request about your parents?" Techno guessed.

Kengkla was surprised by Techno's guess but didn't dare to say anything.

"Do you know why Phi asked Kla to do it?"

Kengkla just shook his head but Techno knew that Kengkla had his own thoughts.

"Say what you think, Kla. You must have a guess about this."

Kengkla was still silent, hesitant to say it. He was afraid of Techno's reaction.

"Phi will not be angry or disappointed. Phi just wants us to be open to each other. Phi wants to know you too, Kla. Being honest is one of the way for us to knew each other. If there are differences of thought, we can talk about it, we shouldn't keep it to ourselves and struggle with wrong thoughts."

God, how come I don't love him more, thought Kengkla.

"Kla is afraid, Phi. Every time we 'argue', Phi always 'threatens' to break up with Kla. After Phi introduced Kla as Phi's lover to P'Type and P'Champ, Kla thought that our relationship was better than before. Especially when Phi said that Phi also loves Kla. Even the word happy can't described Kla's feelings at that time, Phi. But Phi asked Kla to do something very difficult and again threatened to break up. Kla was confused and scared, Phi."

Kengkla was indeed cunning, but this time he really meant what he said. To be honest, he only needed his parents' money. He did not care for his parents at all because he had been very hurt by his parents' attitude so far. Techno was the one and only goal of his happiness. He could not imagine if Techno really left him.

Kengkla who usually always looked straight into his interlocutor eyes, only bowed and spoke weakly. He could not look into his lover's eyes. He feared that the eyes would imply anger, sadness or disappointment in him.

"Kengkla, listen to Phi's reasons."

Without Kengkla noticing, Techno shifted and sat facing Kengkla while holding Kengkla's hand that was cold, making Kengkla dare to raise his head and look at the most important person in his life at this time.

"Sorry if Phi always uses 'threats' to break up every time Phi asks Kla to do something. Because that was the only way Phi knew. In the past, Phi was doubtful about Phi's feelings for you, but when Phi introduced Kla as Phi's lover to Phi's best friends, that meant that Phi had made a decision and as Kla knows, Phi was always responsible for all decisions that Phi takes. So, Phi hopes, Kla no longer doubts Phi's feelings."

Kengkla was speechless. All words spoken by Techno made the big black hole in his heart completely close without gaps. Kengkla immediately hugged Techno tightly and cried. But this time this cry meant he was happy. This was the first time Techno had expressed his feelings, which answered all the big questions in Kengkla's heart.

Techno only gently rubbed the head and back of the man who began to control his heart and mind.

"Now, Phi wants Kla to hear the reason why Phi asked Kla to make up with Kla's parents," Techno said as he let go of his arms.

Kengkla answered with a nod. His hands tightly grasped Techno's hands.

"Before Phi starts, Phi wants to ask Kla something. According to Kla, how is Phi's relationship with Ai Nic and Phi's parents?"

"Your family looks perfect, Phi. Even though Uncle and Aunt often leave you with their business, they still take a good care of you and Ai Nic. Your house always feels warm and full of love. Whereas Ai Nic, even though he acts indifferent and arbitrary, I know that he loves you and your parents very much. "

"Everything you said was true, Kla and Phi is very happy to have them as a family. It includes the friends who are always there for Phi's. Then now, adding your presence as Phi's lover. Phi's happiness feels complete. Phi wants Kla to feel the happiness like Phi. To feel the love of Phi and Kla's parents. Phi wants Kla's happiness to be as perfect as Phi's."

Immediately, Kengkla's mind was empty yet full after hearing Techno's explanation. It turned out that Techno's reason was solely for Kengkla's happiness. Once again, Kengkla fell in love with Techno.

"Phi, Kla knows that Kla chose the right person for Kla to love. Phi makes Kla fall in love again and again. When Kla thought that it was impossible for Kla to love Phi more than Kla felt, Phi always manages to make Kla fall in love more than before. Now, because Kla understands Phi's reason, Kla promise to try to open Kla's heart to them, but Phi has to promise to accompany Kla through the process. Would you accompany Kla, Phi? "

"Of course. Phi will always be here, accompanying Kla. So, Kla doesn't need to be afraid to try. Okay?"

"Alright, Phi. Thank you, Phi. I love you so much," Kla said hugging Techno.

"Now it's morning, we better sleep, Kla."

"Ok Phi."

The two of them stood up and walked towards Kengkla's room. Kengkla who realized that Techno was following him to his room became both confused and happy.

"Where do you want to sleep, Phi?"

"There," he answered, pointing to Kengkla's room.

"Seriously Phi? " Kengkla asked with rounded eyes.

"I can't sleep there?" Teased Techno.

"Of course you can!! Definetly can!!! Come on, Phi!!" Kengkla said as he pulled Techno's hand.

"But no funny business, Kla."

"Kla promise, Phi. We will just sleep," Kengkla answered with a wide smile.

And that night they slept together. Kengkla may be the top in their sex life, but beyond that, he's still a boy who wants to be treated lovingly by his lover. Kengkla made Techno's arm a pillow and hugged Techno's body tightly. Techno's heartbeat rhythm seemed to become Kengkla's lullaby. Techno's hands also kept rubbing the back his lover who really loved him. Even though his love was not as big as Kengkla's love at this time, Techno believes that one day they will love each other equally.

"Good night, Kengkla," Techno said after gently kissing the top of Kengkla's head.

"Good night, Phi. I love you so much," Kengkla replied as he raised his head and kissed his favorite lips softly.

That night was the first time Kengkla could sleep very well.

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Published : 01.05.2019 - 3.05pm