a frown dresses my face when Lucy is nowhere to be found. Where is he?

Did he fall again?

Is he vomiting?

Did he have a day time nightmare?

Did ants eat his dick?

He has the sweetest cöck okay! Don't blame those ants!

I find him by the bed, doing one handed push ups and using a hex dumbbell. He shifts and his muscles ripples with each moves, sweat glisten his inked skin.

Those tingles are back in my vàgina!

"Lucy! What the hell are you doing?" I shout!

"Damn it women! You told me you would be back in two hours, I'm pretty sure it's only been twenty minutes" He tells me and my eyes glues to his ass, salivating.

Dear God! Why me!

Never mind why not!

"I was already on my way but i got worried something happened to you and turned back. But you on the other hand used that opportunity to play on the rug, what if you develop asthma from sniffing the floors too close! You're so stubborn and you don't listen! Tons of people die from sniffing the floors!" I really wish I could pull at his hair.

"God Foxie, you're unbearable. It's been two days i passed out okay, I didn't get a heart transplant I'm not going to die"

"Unbearable? You bïtch!" You're lucky you have the sexiest back!

He chuckles and I realized i said that aloud, my face is so hot. He pushes up towering over me, and i glare at him wishing my cheeks to cool.

He dips his head and presses his lips to mine, making me shut my eyes.

"You smell" I wrinkle my nose.

"And I'm fine, please stop watching me like I'm incapacitated" He tucks a baby hair behind my ear.

"I am not, I'm just worried"

"You don't have to be, my episodes are no longer frequent. It's actually been over two years until recently, since that happened, I'm fine I promise. Look..." He moves away from me and pulls a draw open

"These are like what two dozens, I'll be fifty before I finish these and they'll probably expire, i still have no idea how you got them because they're formulates not purchase. You literally can't order these or walk into a store to get them" He says lifting a full bag of the antipsychotic meds i got him

"I got the prescription acceptance from Dr Abbot, i gave it to Jer and his doctor worked on it"

"You didn't have to do that, they probably cost a fortune. Thank you baby but please relax and understand that I'm fine, okay please you're driving me crazy, i feel like you have cameras installed when you leave me to take a shit" He shakes his head looking up to check.

"You're an asshole, and what do you want me to do, you fainted and...."

"Exactly fainted not cancer or being crippled baby please stop worrying so much, because you're worrying me too. I'm fine, really i am. I'm so happy you're here but you're killing me foxie. I'm going to go take a shower now, are you going to watch me again?" He frames my face and kisses me softly.

I hum "Yes, yes i will. I hear ants are coming for cöck, it's such a sweet cöck after all. I'm going to protect it, and you of course"

"Oh God" He chuckles shaking his head, letting out a full belly laugh "You're ridiculously! How about you join me then?"

"Join you?" I ask incredulous, dumbly "You would want that?"

Why does that sound so intimate? Oh God.

"Why wouldn't i?"

"Because the first time I initiated it, you freaked out remember the day Jer wanted to kill you in my house."

"Of course, i always feel too much when it comes to you, but come on" He tugs me into the bathroom

I don't know why I'm overthinking, maybe because the first time I brought it up he looked like I wanted slap him with a hot pan. And i felt like an idiot and brushed it off saying I preferred lukewarm water, which was a lie.

But now standing completely naked with different jets of water instantly drenching us both, my body pressed to his, my heart beat increases and I tremble.

He turns me around and i smell his shampoo before those skillful hands go into my hair.

"Did you ever think you were gay?" I call out breaking the silence, smiling as he rinses my hair.

"Foxie" He warns

"I just really want to know"

"You really want to know" He arms suddenly wrap around me, as he husk in my ear. I forgot my question leaning closer against him and he cups my breast pressing a kiss to the shell of my ear.

I close my eyes, reaching behind me to grab his cöck, he stiffens groaning in my ear, his hand inches down until he finds my clît, his fingers spread me open bofore his digits slid inside of me.

"Lucy" I pant, grinding against his hand. His fingers curve and I throw my head back, my heart rate increasing and my body trembling as he squeezes on my breast.

I squeeze on his grith even though my hand cannot circle around him fully, making him groans in my ear and my wetness drip out.

He traces the hollow of my neck, peppering open mouthed kisses on my pulse, he pinches on my nipple pressing his thumb on my clit and i climax bucking against him.

He waste no time, turning me around lifting me up with my thighs and thrusting inside of me with a single strokes. I squeeze my eyes shut adjusting to the intensity and his size.

My body flushed against his, and I press my lips to his as he begins to move inside of me. Each assault makes my püssy clench around him, sending my blood zinging into my head.

His hand squeezes on my thighs going to work as he starts pounding inside of me, i pull away from the kiss throwing my head back struggling to breathe and gasping from the pleasure.

The hot water cascades around us but I'm only built on this pleasure in between my thighs and brewing all through my body

He bites on my chin, fisting my hair, making me cross my leg around him. Our eyes connects as he continues his hard precise thrust.

I get lost in the pleasure and those green sea.

I love You, I love you so much.

I want to say

"I'm close" I moan instead, tears streaming down my face as the pleasure build and build.

"I need you to come Foxie"

I press my lips to his wanting to taste him desperately, to be closer to him like this too, then i buck as I finally climax, he gives me two powerful thrust before creaming inside of me.

Best shower ever!

We finish up bundled in robes and freezing while I'm giggling like an idiot.

"What's funny?"

"I just thought of spanking your ass with my towel" I giggle again

"Don't you dare Fo-

I dared!

He turns around piercings me with those eyes while I'm laughing hysterically. He picks me up like I weigh nothing, lift my robe up and connect his palm on my bare ass.

"Lucy!!" I clench my teething squirming against him and clench my thighs completely confused as to why that turned me on.

But he does it again and again!

"You bïtch!"

He kneads my ass check "I hope you understand who does the spanking now or would you like me to bend you at a ninty degree with my cöck balls deep inside you, delivering a spank with each thrust butterfly?"

I feel two of his middle finger on my back hole, sliding down until they thrust into my wet opening.

"Fuck" I whisper, shaking against him.

"You're so fillthy foxie, you're even soaked" He growls, pulling his fingers out and he lets me down.

I really wanted the ninty degree püssy pounding ass spanking, I just didn't want to say it.

My face flames at my thought and he shakes his head at me as if he heard.

I quickly scramble away from him and the stupid asshole that he is, he laughs at me.

I do my routines, he helps me section my hair while i put them in damp big ass long braids. We get dressed and i go back to bed

"Lucy?"

"Yes baby"

I blush, massaging his feet and looking up only to see him leering at me intensely. A soft smile on his face and he looks happy, content and turned on.

I shake my head "Why are you staring at me like that"

"You're gorgeous" He says like he didn't think about it

I look away "uhhn... I wanted to ask you something"

"Okay but can you come here"

"Where?" I look up again, he hold out his hand to me and i take it.

Then he pulls me on top of him, so i straddle his lap, his hand goes into his sweat shirt I'm wearing to touch my bare skin.

My pulse quickens, my heart beat increasing, because he never does stuff like this, but he has been doing it a lot now.

"I like you closer" He say stroking up my back and kissing me softly pressing me to his chest. "What did you want to tell me?"

I don't know why i want to cry just because this man is basically cuddling me, and his heartbeat is thumping against my palm.

Get your shit together!

"Ummm" I pull my head back to look at him.

"Why are you crying?" He looks startled brushing under my eyes.

"Nothing nothing, don't mind me it's just because I'm getting my period soon"

"What?"

I laugh nervously in response "Forget it, i need to ask you something"

He looks at me uncertainly but nods regardless.

"The girl, the one that brought the bag that day"

"What girl?" He lifts a brow and i strokes on his chest.

"The one that gave you the bag, when we were coming here, yunno that she sent you nude pictures. That one with small tits and really pink nipples, wide hips and a straight cut püssy hair" I explain

He watches me for a minute then starts laughing.

"You know what, I should be asking you if you're gay? Do you like girls baby?"

"Stop I'm being serious, i need you to fire her"

"Really?"

"Yes! I'm pretty sure that bitch took your meds from the bag. Is there any way she could have known what happens when you miss a pill?"

"Uhnn I really don't know, all my health problem are tight lipped unless she's set on finding out."

"Well Good, fire her"

"KT took care of that, she sent naked pictures to me Foxie, and sent you a flimsy photoshop and lied that I've fucked, there was no need to keep her around"

"How did you know about the text?"

"She said it to KT when he fired her and I confirmed it from Grey."

I nod. Because she actually sent me a text and picture of she and Lucy together, telling me they were lovers and he was fücking her behind my back.

"Well now if any woman tells me you fûcked them before me, i have no reason to believe them" I stroke his hair smiling

He looks at me skeptically. "And why is that?"

"Just an intuition" I grin, drawing patterns on his chest with my fingers

"Foxie" He warns

"Tell me, are virgin men saints?"

"And why the fûck are you asking me that?" Cue the blush, he grabs my wrist stoping my finger movements and sits up.

"No reason Mr Udinov, i do enjoy seeing you blush"

I grin moving my hand down to his crotch and stroking him.

"Diayhana" He lets out some sort of noise from his throat.

"Yes baby, you look...shït!"

He suddenly flips us over, grabbing both my hands and branding it above my head.

"Now, you're going to tell me all why you're asking be this crazy virgin questions butterfly"

I swallow, suddenly out of breath and twist my head to the side to get my braids out of the way "But i was merely curious"

"You were teasing me Foxie, why?"

"Maybe i was, but It's just that I'm happy I'm the first woman you've been with"

"And how do you know that"

"You're always saying it"

"Yes but you never caught on to exactly what I meant Foxie, I know you didn't. So how did you find out?" He tilts his head, cupping my chin and staring dead into my eyes.

Making me tremble "I- I just started to pick up and notice. Especially the blush, and how you directly emphasize that I've been the only one"

"That's a lie, you're trembling"

"I'm not lying"

"Who told you, just tell me, my families are filled with snitches! Was it that motherfucking whoring bïtch KT? Tell me" He nods and his bun unravel.

I just stare at him, his pupils are dilated, his hair a mass of curls, his lips are swollen and red and i just want a to kiss him.

"I want to take you out tonight" I say without thinking.

He blinks then scrunch up his brows. "What?"

"What do you mean what? I want us to go a date, by a zoo close to a lake with lights everywhere like fireflies and you'll fuck me under the stars and something cheesy like that" I grin but my face flushes when I realize my word vomit.

"Foxie" He grins, then chuckles "Oh you crazy woman"

"And I want you to be my boyfriend" I continue.

He stiffens, staring at me for long moments and i feel him tense. I don't know what I'm expecting but he looks like he's shocked.

He lets go of my hands and slides off me, sitting at the edge of the bed, turning his back to me.

My playful mood drowns and I'm afraid to even say anything to him. Because what if he lashes out and i make a bigger fool of myself.

Why am i so impulsive and needy when it comes to him.

Now I've messed a perfectly good day up.

"That sounds so jejune and ridiculous Foxie, i have no idea why you would propose that" He clenches his fist, he sounds furious.

I had no idea, asking him that, putting a label on us would be so repulsive to him. Am I really that low to him.

My eyes are quickly flooding with tears and i have no idea what to do about it.

"I- you know what forget i said....."

"It's absurd Foxie, you're more than a simple girlfriend to me. Why would you even say that. What do you think we've been doing together all this while. I said it so many times you're not my shag buddy. You're my woman Ты для меня, ты для меня, моя женщина, блядь!!" He turns and faces me and his face falls

"Don't cry baby please, I'm sorry. We can do boyfriend and girlfriend it you want it that way, even if i refuse to understand such childish concept, I didn't mean to yell at you" He moves toward me and pulls me into his arms.

Translation: You're for me, you're mine, my woman for fuck sake.

I move closer to him, clutching on his shirt and willing my tears to subside. Feeling his heartbeat right again my ear.

I repeat his words in my head like some revision, my body shaking. I really can't believe he's said this.

"I'm sorry, you make me feel like a cry baby" I sniff pulling my head back.

He strokes on my tears brushing baby hair behind my ear, kissing my red nose.

"Did you mean it?"

"What?"

"That we weren't just doing the no strings attached all this while?" I use the bottom my palm to wipe my tears sniffing.

"I told you already that it wasn't like that, I know I'm terrible at this shit foxie, if I only wanted to fuck you I would have done that with any other woman. But it's more than that with you"

"Okay. So now will you go on date with me near a pretty lake, as my boyfriend and fuck me under the stars?"

He chuckles pressing his forehead to mine "Anything you want Foxie"

"And will you one day tell me.... about your past?"

He tense again, closing his eyes and he shakes his head, but he presses his lips to mine softly.

"Foxie, you're going to kill. But yes, I will tell you"

I love you!

For the hundredth time today i almost slip up saying it. So i just bury my face in his chest, because knowing I'm not just a bed partner to him is enough.

I just want him to love me.