I was wiping off the tears which were flowing continuously. When I liked him then why did his words put me in this situation? I knew I shouldn't run like this, but my heart couldn't take it anymore. He was an amazing guy but we didn't deserve each other. And how could I think of my future with him when "that" name was already written on the blank pages of my heart?

"Wajahat Shah",

I had just realized he wasn't some infatuation or normal crush, I had strong feelings for him. It sounds so odd but yeah I fell for my best friend's brother, this stupid nerd fell for Mr. Popular.

I knew he had zero interest in me and he could never feel anything for me but still, my heart couldn't accept anyone. His name was flowing in my veins, my breath.

I was about to step inside the hostel when two people caught my attention who was standing in a corner. They were too close to me that I could hear their voices. And they were none other than that sweet couple "Wajahat and Farwa"

"Farwa, you're the most amazing girl I've ever known. You just gotta know your worth," Wajahat's voice felt like someone has poured molten iron to my ears.

" Wajahat," Farwa's voice was low and tired.

"Don't think again this crap, I can't imagine my life without your disturbance," he smiled cheekily at her.

" I love you so much Wajahat," Farwa's voice exploded like a bomb in my ears.

"I love you more, now smile," my heart shredded into millions of pieces and it became hard for me to stand there and listen to their sweet love talks.

I ran to my room and locked myself in the washroom. I fell on my knees and started crying vigorously. How stupid was me to see his dreams, how could I think that a guy like Wajahat Shah would ever go for me??? Why out of seven point five billion people in the world I fell for him??

Why wasn't some other guy or Azlan? Azlan??

"Zaynah, you're the first one who has stolen my heart. I've never felt 'this' for anyone, your presence, your smile gives me new hopes of life, I've just realized that I've fallen hard for you and now I can't back off," his words were repeating over and over my head and I stood in front of the mirror.

He was the first one to say these things to me. I didn't know how it felt to be loved by someone, and now these new feelings were putting a different and weird peace in my soul.

"Zaynah, know your worth baby, someone loves you, it doesn't matter what people think about you, you're important for someone baby," I smiled at my reflection but my eyes were emotionless.

I splashed cold water on my face, my eyes were looking red and puffy from crying. I dried my face with the towel and fixed my deshelved hair. I looked closely in the mirror, I wasn't ugly or something. Why am I crying for a guy like him?

Why the pain in my heart is increasing?? Why did my body feel like ice? My heart was feeling heavy and I wanted to throw up.

After puking, I felt better but tears were still flowing from the eyes, it wasn't easy to move on from the fresh heartbreak. Anxiety started flowing through my body and I knew only one thing could help me.

I did the ablution and fell in the sujood.

"Ya Allah, grant me sabr," I cried.

After crying for hours in front of my Lord, I laid down on my bed. My stomach was grumbling from hunger but I didn't want to go outside. I opened the phone to divert my mind and notifications started popping on the screen.

His text made me fall into deep thoughts. Azlan wasn't a bad guy and his presence gave me butterflies and the most important thing he loves me.

Zaynah, wth, don't ever think to do this. You can't do this to him, right??

But I like him too...

And you love Wajahat! Don't give any kind of hope to that nice guy! He doesn't deserve to get hurt.

I don't know anything.

I shrugged my head from these voices and typed the text,

my heart started racing and a strange heat rocked in my body.

his texts were like some drugs or something, I closed my eyes and felt my heartbeats.

this boy was crazy. A small smile formed on my lips.

I laughed out.

Did I really mean that?? Wasn't I behaving like some selfish girl who was using Azlan to move on from Wajahat?

Noo, I ain't using him, I like him and who knows one day I'll fall for him.

No, you are playing with him, Zaynah! You just gotta realize your mistakes. You are doing wrong and dirty to him.

Please, stop! What are you expecting from me?? To cry for Wajahat for the lifetime??

A pang of small guilt formed in my heart but soon it faded away.

I locked my phone and closed my eyes. The small smile was still dancing on my lips. I like that guy, I like Azlan!

**********

"Wajahat please, come with me, I'm gonna die from boredom without you," Zara whined like a baby.

" I would like to join you but you know I have to go out with Farwa, I can't ditch her," Wajahat took a long breath.

" Farwa...I hate her...." Zara scrunched her face.

" No one asked you," He snapped back.

Wooo! Protective lover!

"Okay okay fine, I hate y'all, Zaynah and I hate your Azlan..."

" Azlan?" Wajahat gave us questioned look.

" Her boyfriend..." Zara rolled her eyes carelessly.

A wave of unknown emotions came on Wajahat's face but it faded soon.

"He's not my boyfriend, please" I smiled and replied shyly. I didn't know why but it felt so good in front of Wajahat.

He should know, I have men in my life.

Bruh! He doesn't care about it, lmaooo!

"Okay fine, but you guys like each other, talk daily and today you're gonna meet him. What should I call it then?" Zara pulled my cheeks and I blushed.

Wajahat gave me a plain look and walked away from us and suddenly I lost interest in everything. Even Azlan's topic which was making me blush a while ago now seemed boring to me.

What was I doing? Was I just using Azlan to make Wajahat jealous?? No Astaghfirullah! He's the nicest guy I know and I like him. That's it! Stop overthinking Zaynah!!

********

"I want you to meet someone," he cheekily smiled and a small dimple formed on his cheeks.

"Who?" I asked in a curious tone as he started driving.

"My best friend Mishi, she's gonna love you," his eyes shone with excitement.

" Are you sure?" I raised my brows.

"Bruh, anyone can fall for you" he smiled and looked directly into my eyes which made my heartbeats fast.

"Not everyone, Azlan" I mumbled under my breath.

"You should focus on the road," I looked awkwardly.

"Umm sorry," he looked cute when he scratched the back of his head nervously.

The car stopped in front of some nice restaurant. I was too shy to walk with him. I had never gone out with anyone and this time with a guy?? I calmed my breath and started walking with him.

We took our seats and started waiting for his best friend. I was too nervous, the anxiety was flowing through my body. All I wanted was to run away from there.

Stfu you dumbass Zaynah!

"A beautiful rose for the beautiful lady," he handed me a beautiful rose which he was hiding the whole time. My cheeks flared and I looked flustered. This guy made me feel so special.

"Hellllllloooooooo," We both were staring at each other face when a voice snapped us to reality.

"Mishiiiiiiiii," Azlan stood up and hugged her, she hugged him back and sat on a spare chair.

"Ummm Zaynah?" She pointed her fingers at me and I nodded.

"As expected," her smile grew wider,

"Mishi??" I asked her hiding my nervousness.

" I'm Mishal and only Azlan calls me Mishi," her tone was sweet yet firm. I was getting weird vibes from her.

"Ohh, So you're Azlan's friend..."

"Best friend, childhood best friend," she cut me off and gave me a known smile.

" Ohh nice," I smiled awkwardly.

"Azlan has told me about you and he forcefully dragged me to meet you," she ran her long fingers in her beautiful shoulder cut brown hair.

She was pretty and her dressing style, her makeup, her talking style was making her unique. I was wondering how didn't Azlan fall for her, okayy it's not the "Kuch Kuch hota hai" movie but still, she was so attractive.

" Shut up, you were planning to sleep the whole day, thank me later that I made your day," Azlan sent her a fake glare.

" You schmuck, my sleep is very important," she rolled her eyes dramatically.

" More than me?" Azlan looked into her eyes and she became silent. A wave of emotions appeared and disappeared simultaneously on her face.

"Yes," she slapped his hands away, and they both laughed. They had different chemistry between them, anyone could feel this, I was feeling misfit among them like they looked so perfect together.

She was much prettier than me then why did Azlan choose me? An inferiority complex ran through my body and I sighed.