LaNyiah

I woke up at 3:15am. Can't say why I was tossing and turning. Maybe it wasn't such a good idea to fall asleep before time. Even though Jay was warm and comfortable that's something I definitely don't need to get use to. I went to the bathroom to release my bladder.

When I walked back in my room I didn't feel like sleeping so I grab my moms letter and poem book and headed to our beautiful big back yard. I passed the pool and went to sit on the couch that's in our outside living room area, yeah my mom wanted it and sad said OK

I sat down looking over my moms letter again. I then began to write in my journal

No feelings

I use to feel complete and loved. I use to feel important and then the devil came along and reminded me I was nothing. I feel as if I'm a waste of space, but then I look into the eyes of my beautiful pineapple, and I feel through her eye as if I matter. As the world would not be if I were not in it. And it's what my sister sees in me, that allows me to keep living and breathing.

I want to feel love, but no longer know what love is besides my sisters love. It's crazy and twisted how the universe plays with your heart and mind, and still expects you to stay sane the entire time. I feel numb to the outside world, but inside these gated walls on all this land I am safe and free. Here he can't find me. Here he can't harm my body, or my soul. But once I walk past these walls I am his. I am his puppet, he controls my strings of fear and anxiety, and he chooses when I'm good enough, and when to break me again.

I feel. . . I feel too much, and too many levels so I keep it all in, and keep everyone out so that I can no longer be hurt by anyone else. I feel surrounded yet alone. My sister is my comfort but she deserves a life, so I will not hold her down, but cherish the lil life I have when she's around. Once she's gone I will never feel again.

I hadn't noticed that she had walked where I was and sat down next to me. Texting Ty I'm sure. I slide her the note and closed my journal. She really doesn't know how much of an amazing lil sister she is. I sat and waited on her reaction to the beautiful letter our mom wrote.

I woke up to pee and, then I do what I have always done. I tip toe down to Nae's room to check on her. Sometimes I see she has nightmares, and some times she just be chilling. But it never fails when I get up through the middle of the night I check on her. I grabbed my phone to see my handsome boyfriend had text me. So of course I texted him back and he was still awake.

He said him and Jay had been up talking all night. I wonder about what they were talking about? I'll ask later.' Nia thought as she cracked open the door to Nae's room to peek in and check on her, but it was no surprise to see that she was gone.

So she walked in the room to find Nae's bed cold. So she turned herself right around, and went and put her slides on as she headed to the back yard. She walked pass the pool, and saw her sitting in the sitting area. It was our moms favorite place to think.

After she walks over there she sits down; at first Nae doesn't notice me, but then she does and passes me a letter. It was from our mom. The words brought me to tears, as I leaned on Nae. She wiped my face and smiles at me. Her smile is so beautiful and angelic, she just doesn't understand how beautiful she is.

"Nae, you know you have the caring soul of mama? " I asked her looking back at the house. "And you have her feisty mouth, no filter, and nothing gets you down." she replied. "Oh let me go cook you breakfast" I said excitedly

"Ooooo yes hunty, food " she said getting up.

We headed back in the house, I began to pull out all the things needed to cook with. I texted Ty and told him I was cooking, his greedy ass said he'll would be over shortly, and he would wake Jay up so he could come. I simply replied OK.

Nae walked up stairs to put her things back up, and came back wrapped in a blanket and laid on the couch as I cooked. I know her ass. She about to go to sleep, but Jay will wake her up when they get here.

I continued cooking, and then I heard a knock. He didn't use the door bell because I told him Nae had fallen back asleep on the couch. I went to open the door, after taking the eggs out of the pan, then opened the door.

Ty hugged me as he and Jay came. Jay was looking around then said, "Hey.". "She's in the living room " I told him smirking as I shook my head.

"Thanks lil ma" he said walking in the direction of the living room, as I went back in the kitchen with Ty right behind me.

I was finishing up Nae's favorite pancakes when I felt arms snake around me, and soft lips come in contact with my neck. It sent shocks down my spine. I've never felt this before.

"Well good morning beautiful. I could wake up like this everyday minis the 15 minutes of driving " Ty spoke in my neck. "Boy you so damn silly. You ready to eat?" I asked smiling so hard my cheeks hurt. "Yep, let me go get them." he said walking out the kitchen.

He came back a few minutes later smiling saying they were sleep on the couch, and he left them. We both laughed before he kissed me. It was one of those damn I missed your lips type of kisses. Then we ate and laughed until it was time for school.

Jaylen

My brother came over and woke me up talking about breakfast. When I looked at the clock that said 5:15am. I could have killed him till he said it was at Nia and Nae's house. Hell wasn't no need in any other talk. I went an brushed my teeth and then grabbed clothes to change into for school. If things go cool after school I'll go check on the traps and corner boys.

I rode with Ty cuz I'm too sleepy to drive. When I tell you I didn't pay attention earlier, but they house really is fly and it's big almost big as mine. But anyway he knocked. I walked in; she told me where Nae was. When I walked in the living room, she looked so cute. Until her face started to contort and I knew she was having a nightmare. I gently slid behind her.

"I'm here baby. Calm down I gotcha" I spoke into her ear and then kissed her temple.

She snuggled into me and her body fit mine perfectly. It's like she was made for me and me only. I pulled her closer then pulled the covers over us and went to sleep just how I wanted. I just wanted to hold my woman.

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