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The microwave beeped, alerting Naala. She grabbed a bowl to pour the popcorn into. Today was Wednesday which meant it was her and Gray's weekly movie night.

Saint was finally home from the hospital and was asleep in his room. Sinai was in bed already which was great for Naala. Dave was still living with them to be close to Saint but their relationship was strictly platonic. Naala was serious when she said they were co parenting- she wanted to work on herself before she threw herself back into a relationship with him.

The holiday season made her realise that she had got over the situation too quickly, she was grateful for the car and the gifts but that didn't mean everything was sweet with them.

Naala's phone rang as she finished pouring the popcorn into the bowl. Wiping her hands she grabbed her phone, and putting it on speaker.

"Mmm to what do I owe this pleasure?" She teased,

"Lala please, if I don't call, you never will," Taina commented, her voice ringing through Naala's ears.

"That's not true!" Naala gasped opening the refrigerator, "I've missed you," she sighed pulling out a few bottle of waters,

"I couldn't tell, you've been avoiding me," Taina replied,

"I haven't T, it's a lot having two children," Naala said honestly. She thought having one child was a lot but as soon as Saint came home she was extremely overwhelmed.

"You make time for my cousin," Taina said in a matter of fact tone.

Naala giggled, "Don't do that, you're always invited to movie night," It was true, Naala and Gray never missed a movie night.

"No thanks, I don't want to be a third wheel," Taina said with an attitude,

"You could bring your new guy," Naala commented. Taina had been seeing a new man and it seemed to be going well.

"That's very true," Taina replied, "Next time," She spoke.

Gray walked into the kitchen stretching, "I'm gonna pick the movie if you don't hurry up," He said looking at Naala and grabbing the popcorn bowl. He looked so fine in Naala's eyes. He was dressed simply in a white tee and grey sweatpants.

Naala playfully rolled her eyes, "I'm coming, let me just finish up on the phone,"

"Oop lemme leave y'all on your little date," Taina commented, "Remember the best way to get over someone is to get under someone!" She sang hanging up before Naala could reply.

Naala hasn't had sex since Saint was born and deprived wasn't even the word. The slightest thing could turn her on, being with Gray today was not a good idea for her.

"I'm gonna kill that girl," Naala mumbled under her breath. Gray laughed and took a bottle of water,

"She's not wrong," He flirted biting his lip. Naala hit his shoulder and he chuckled, "I'm kidding," He laughed.

"I bet you are," Naala said raising a brow with a light smirk. She followed behind him, taking two small bowls with her.

"Brown sugar or Paid in Full?" Gray asked as he got comfy on the couch. Naala sat on the far end of the couch, "Why you so far?" He teased looking at her,

Naala crossed her legs, the look he was giving her was not helping her at all, "I'm not that far," She said rolling her eyes,

"Nah come closer," Gray said pulling her over and throwing his arm over her shoulder. "You didn't answer so Paid in Full it is," He said loading the movie up.

Naala was too distracted by how close they were. She could smell his cologne and a light tint of weed. The smell itself was turning her on.

"Y-yeah - uh, fine by me," Naala stuttered trying to control her breathing. Gray looked at her weirdly but didn't think much of it. They both turned to look at the screen and were watching it for about 30 minutes before Gray spoke up.

"I feel like I'm making you nervous," Gray said, the bass of his voice making Naala's pussy jump.

"Me nervous?" Naala laughed nervously, "Never," She replied smoothing her hair down.

"Just making sure," Gray chuckled running his hand over his waves. He patted his pockets and pulled out a blunt, "I can smoke this in here?" He asked. They were in the movie room so it wouldn't be a problem.

"As long as you share," Naala smirked, sitting forward.

"Of course Lil baby," Gray spoke litting the blunt. Naala watched as he took a pull,

So fucking sexy, she thought.

"I know," Gray smirked. Naala's eyes widened,

"I said that out loud?" She said mentally cursing herself.

Gray nodded, "You did but I already knew," He said licking his lips. Naala looked away and blushed. Gray took a few more pulls then passed it to her,

"Take it easy," He commented. Naala playfully rolled her eyes,

"I know how to smoke," She replied before taking a pull. She let the weed relax her, her body instantly felt lighter than before.

"Aight I didn't say finish it," Gray laughed as he watched Naala take pull after pull.

After 10 minutes of passing the blunt between each other, Naala sat back blowing out a breathe. Her eyes low and red, she was higher than a kite. The movie was still playing but neither of them were concentrating.

"Let me put on some music," Naala muttered getting up slowly and turning off the movie. She walked over to the speaker and connected her phone.

Rod Wave's voice flooded through the room. Naala returned back to her seat next to Gray. Street Runner played in the background as they both enjoyed the music,

"You fuck with him?" He said bobbing his head to the song,

"I love him," Naala replied, "His music speaks to me,"

"He speaks on some real shit," Gray agreed listening to the song,

"Every-time I start to close the door, you knock and I let you in," Naala hummed, singing lowly to the song.

Gray looked over at her, "You felt that?" He asked as he watched her sing along to the lyrics.

Naala nodded, "I don't know why but that line does something to me,"

"It means something to you," Gray responded, his eyes low as he analysed her,

Naala didn't know if it was the fact that she was high or what but she felt compelled to speak.

"I feel like these lyrics because that's how I feel everytime I look at the father of my children. Every time he comes around, I give in and I let him in," She spoke freely,

"Ain't nothing wrong with that, y'all have a history," Gray said truthfully, "It's bound to happen,"

"But I don't want that to be the reason why I stay unhappy with him - because of our history," Naala sighed,

"Why are you unhappy?" Gray asked moving closer to her,

Naala shrugged, "I don't know," She whispered, "I'm sorry I've brought down the mood -"

"You didn't bring down the mood, we chilling," He shrugged,

"I think you let him in because of Saint and Sinai," Gray spoke up. Naala turned to face him,

"But I've done it on my own before," She replied referring to single parenting,

"Yeah you have but now you don't have to," He responded, "One thing I will say, is don't hold back your own happiness in order to make others happy,"

"I hear you," Naala spoke softly,

"You're so fucking beautiful," He whispered pushing her hair out of her face,

"Thank yo-"

She was cut off by Gray wrapping his arm around her neck and kissing her softly. The feeling of his lips felt right to her. Naala didn't kiss back at first but the throbbing down below told her otherwise.

Gray deepened the kiss as their tongues fought for dominance. Naala moaned into the kiss as he gripped her neck lightly. He detached their lips and started to place soft kisses on her neck, lightly sucking on it.

"Mmm," Naala moaned trying to move her neck, she didn't want him to leave any marks. Gray moved his hand to her shorts, slightly tugging at the hem,

"Can I?" He asked staring into her eyes. Naala knew this was wrong but she couldn't help it.

"Yes," She moaned as she felt his fingers come in contact with her already leaking pussy. Gray slipped his finger into her slit, Naala threw her head back in pleasure.

Gray continued to pump his fingers into her pussy, loving the look of pleasure printed on her face.

"Wait, I'm gonna c-cum," Naala muttered moaning lowly,

"Not yet," Gray smirked before dropping into his knees. "Prettiest pussy I've ever seen," He muttered as he kissed her pussy lightly.

"O-oh," Naala moaned lightly when she felt his tongue going to town on her clit. He flicked his tongue rapidly, her juices coating his lips. Naala's legs began to shake as her orgasm neared. She couldn't control the intense feeling,

"Hold that shit baby," Gray spoke lowly, adding a finger back inside her clit. The feeling of both his tongue and finger sent Naala into overdrive and she squirted everywhere.

"Damn." Gray said as he licked his lips. Naala laid back breathing heavily, she didn't know what that was but she was all for it.

"What are you gonna do about that?" Naala pointed to his hard dick,

Gray shrugged carelessly, Naala bit her lip. Everything was telling her to leave him alone but there was something that was telling her to live a little.

"Come on," She spoke up holding her hand out. Gray raised his brow and took her hand. Naala led them up the stairs and up to her room.

Straddling his lap, she pecked his lips. Gray returned the kiss and held onto her waist. Naala deepened the kiss, grinding on him.

"You don't have to do this," Gray said rubbing her sides.

"I want to," Naala responded leaning down and kissing him passionately. Gray flipped them over and hovered over her,

"Condoms?" He questioned. Naala was glad, a baby was not on her cards at all. Naala pointed to the dresser. Gray reached over and grabbed one. He pulled down his sweats and his erect dick flopped out.

Naala stared at him lustfully as he lined himself with her entrance. He leaned down and sucked on her neck as he slowly eased himself into her.

Naala hissed at the feeling, her pussy tightening immediately.

"Relax," Gray muttered, slowly pumping in and out of her. Naala moaned loudly, his dick hitting her g-spot repeatedly. Gray groaned lowly as she tightened herself around him again,

"Shit, LaLa," He said as he sped up. The only thing that could be heard throughout the room was their skin connecting.

"Fuck," Naala cursed as he eyes rolled back to the back of her head.

Gray flipped them over once again so Naala was on top. Naala eased herself down on his dick, holding onto his shoulders tightly. When he was in fully, she began to bounce on her knees,

"Just like that," Gray groaned as she held onto her waist. Naala moaned loudly and smirked,

"Just like that?" She asked as she rotated her hips. Gray nodded and bit his lip, holding onto her neck as she continued to ride him.

"I'm cumming," Naala muttered as butterflies erupted in her stomach.

"Cum for me," Gray whispered in her ear. Naala shook relentlessly and released. Gray continued to pump in and out of her before he came in the condom. She laid her head on his shoulder, her breathing all over the place.

"That was-" She panted heavily, "Amazing," she finished as she lifted her head to look at him. Gray smirked,

"I wanna do it again," He replied kissing her lips. Naala kissed him back slowly and passionately.

A phone buzzing drew both of their attention away from the kiss. Gray groaned and picked up his sweats and brought out his phone. Naala slid off his lap and onto the bed,

"One second," He whispered to Naala and pecked her lips as he got up and left the room to take the call.

Naala got up and hissed at the throbbing in between her legs. She made her way to the bathroom to pee. When she was done she turned on the shower and hoped in.

As Naala stood under the hot shower she heard the bathroom door open,

"Lala?" Gray called out softly,

Naala perked up at his voice, "I'm sorry I should have asked if you wanted to join," She joked, sticking her head out the shower. She noticed he was fully dressed, "You've got to go?" She asked, suddenly upset.

"Yeah, it's urgent," He spoke apologetically, "I'ma make it up to you,"

"It's okay, go," Naala spoke with a smile, "I know how you can repay me," she smirked.

Gray groaned and rubbed his hands over his head, "Don't make this harder," He said biting his lip as he watched her body.

"Go," Naala laughed and turned back to the water.

"Ima see you later, I promise," He spoke softly and left the bathroom leaving Naala in her thoughts.

For some reason, she didn't feel an ounce of guilt. She was single and for once in her life she was enjoying the company of another man with no strings attached. She hoped that it wouldn't complicate things with her and Dave.

Naala finished up in the shower and got dressed in just a oversized tee and slipped in bed. She checked the baby monitor and saw that Saint was still asleep which was a huge relief to her. Moments later, Naala fell into a deep sleep.

Naala rolled over in her bed as she heard Saint's cries through the baby monitor. Her and Dave were working on him sleeping in his own room but he wasn't liking it at all. She opened her eyes and got up slowly, her legs aching profusely.

Naala checked the time on her phone and saw that it was 3am. Dave mentioned a listening party for someone but Naala couldn't remember who it was.

"Where the hell is he?" She mumbled to herself as she got out of the bed. He normally came into her room to say he was back, this was unlike him.

She went across the hall into Saint's room, his cries quietening down as he laid eyes on Naala.

"What's the matter Papa?" Naala cooed picking him up and taking a seat in the rocking chair placed by his crib.

Saint kept turning his head to her breast so she assumed he was hungry. She pulled up her top and began feeding him. This is how she has spent every night since Saint has come home. Dave would find somewhere to be in the evening and would come back drunk or high.

He was clearly doing through something that Naala wasn't aware of but it was affecting their family. Naala heard the door slamming and was jolted out of her thoughts.

"Here we go," She mumbled to herself as she heard him stumbling towards Saint's room.

"Baby!" Dave shouted loudly, "W-where's my baby at?" He burped,

Naala ignored him and kept her eyes on Saint who was slowing falling asleep.

"You can't hear me calling you?" Dave spoke as he entered Saint's room. The smell of alcohol and weed radiating off his body.

"Why are you shouting?" Naala asked quietly, looking him up and down. She noticed he had bloody knuckles, "What happened to your hand?" She sighed as she detached Saint from her nipple and laid him down.

"Got into a fight," Dave shrugged, "Come here," he summoned her still stumbling on his words,

"Let me get something for that," She replied pointing to his hand. Dave stepped towards her and she moved back, "Don't touch me,"

Dave sucked his teeth and walked over to Saint's crib, "Your mama is on some shit tonight huh?"

Naala came back in the room, "Don't be touching on him when you haven't washed your hands," She said holding onto the first aid box.

"So now I can't touch my son?" Dave scoffed pulling his jeans up,

"Just come over here so I can clean up your hand," Naala said rolling her eyes,

"I like when you tell me what to do," Dave smirked holding onto her waist, "You gon' let me eat your ass?" He asked in her ear.

"Stop," Naala muttered as she drug him over to the bathroom connected to Saint's bedroom and sat him on the toilet. She stood in between his legs and pulled his hand up,

"Why were you fighting?" Naala asked softly, "Actually who were you fighting?"

"Some nigga," Dave slurred, "H-he was talking out the side of his neck,"

Naala sighed, this was a usual occurrence for the two of them. "You can't keep fighting everyone that doesn't say something you agree with."

"What, you my mama now?" Dave asked, hissing at the feeling of her wrapping his hand.

"Don't start, it's 3 o clock in the morning - I should be in bed, not looking after you," Naala replied rolling her eyes,

"I'm sorry babyyyy," Dave dragged leaning into her stomach,

"Why do you keep doing this to yourself?" Naala whispered,

"I'm so fucked up ma," Dave mumbled pulling her down she was sitting on his lap.

"What's the matter? Is it me? Is it the kids?" Naala questioned with a worried look.

Dave shrugged, "I'on wanna talk about this right now," He mumbled,

"So when do you want to talk about it? When you're dead?" She replied, "You're going to kill yourself with this,"

Dave sighed, "Don't speak like that Ma, I ain't going nowhere," He said moving her hair out of the way. Naala shivered at his touch. His eyes went directly to her neck.

Dave chuckled and cleared his throat, "Naala get up," He said feeling himself getting angry,

"What's the matter?" She questioned as she stood up quickly. Dave held her chin and moved her head to the side slightly,

"What the fuck is this?" He asked as he looked at the love bites that decorated her neck. 😭

Naala cursed lowly getting out of his grip, "I don't know what you are talking about,"

Dave chuckled lowly, "So you don't know about the fucking hickies on your neck?" He questioned grabbing her neck.

"Stop it." Naala said loudly, "You're hurting me," She whispered after as he squeezed on her neck,

"You've been fucking?" Dave slurred his words, pushing his thumb into her neck.

"A-Amir" She stammered as she felt the air leaving her lungs,

"You got me fucked up Naala, I swear, you've been fucking in OUR house?!" He shouted startling her,

Tears ran down her face as his eyes darkened. Saint jumped at the loud noise and began to cry,

"A-Amir let me get him," Naala cried struggling to get out of his grip, "Please," she begged as Saint's cries got louder.

Dave let go of her neck and pushed her towards the door. Naala hurried out of the bathroom and picked up the baby,

"I can't believe this shit," Dave mumbled as he followed her out,

"It's that nigga, ain't it?" He asked, "What the fuck is his name?" He shouted,

"Stop shouting please," Naala cried as she rocked Amir,

"You're not even denying it," Dave responded. He didn't want to believe that Naala could be that dirty.

"That nigga, Blue?" Dave spat, lifting up his jeans and moving closer to her. Naala stepped back and held onto Saint tightly,

"You're scaring me," Naala cried softly, "Just calm down,"

"I'm not gonna calm down!" Dave's loud voice boomed through the house, "Tell me now, you fucked him?" He asked again,

"Amir—" Naala started placing Saint down,

"Answer the fucking question Naala before I knock your head off your fucking shoulders," He shouted staring her down.

"Daddy?" Sinai's small voice called out. She stood by Saint's door, rubbing her eyes. The raised voices had woken her up,

"Go back to bed baby," Naala rushed out wiping her eyes quickly. She went to take Sinai's hand but was stopped by Dave's voice,