this is 'the tape' rewritten because i was an ass writer and clearly didn't spell check.

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also blonde billie

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"go in stupid key" i grunt turning the key to my apartment door. finally i was home, the day seemed like it would never end. all days without billie here seem like they're never ending but god, could my boss given me any more work today?

i unlock my apartment door way too weary and fatigued to get a cup of water or brush my teeth or even as much as take off my shoes. it's way later than i usually come home so a nap wouldn't hurt, besides, i just wanted to kick my feet up. id knock out of it for my nightly call with billie.

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new message from billie☺️

incoming call from billie☺️

"shut up siri" i take my phone from beside me and chuck it across the bed.

new message from billie☺️

"billie? OH SHIT BILLIE." i jump up realizing i had fallen asleep. i don't know how i fell asleep. or when. i get to my phone and realized the time. i had been asleep for 3 hours. how? i rub my eyes awake now worried about billie. god knows what i missed while i was asleep. what if she got hurt or my flight to see her got cancelled. what could possibly been so urgent that i missed?

oh my god. t-this girl just- oh my god

"holy shit babe" i reply, to which she responds explaining how she in fact did mean to send it. apparently i have a shy one at my hands, she got embarrassed and i guess that's why she called.

i couldn't imagine why a video could be so embarrassing. we had already exchanged 'i love you's and whatever.i've never asked her for nudes either so, worst comes to worst she made a flirty video before going in the shower.

i don't even know

billies dirty though, like really dirty so it wouldn't be out of character for to fool around like that.

she protects her image though. part of the reason i never ask her for shit was that. don't get me wrong she sends me her fair share of riske texts but never photos, much less a video so even though i know it won't be too crazy, i'm nervous.

when i click in the video she is in fact, topless with her face pressed up against a wall, her hands on her chest. she sticks her tongue out and flutters her eyelashes as if she were posing? she chuckles after a while, settling the tension between herself and the camera before flicking around her tongue some more. hot in the face i tap on the video, 14 minutes long.

i mean..she could have just called if she was gonna do all that.

she scoots the view over, turning on music you can hear from the very speakers on her phone. till dawn - the weeknd

she stands back against the wall looking at herself as she massages her tits for me. "no ones home." she whispers. those words alone got me wet.

suddenly the 14 minutes made sense and i never wanted them to end. billie fucking eilish- a video?!

she removed her hands, letting her freshly tattooed chest slip for me to see for a second. then she was turning around again seducing me with her eyes from over her shoulder.

new message - billie☺️

i go back into the video saving it to my camera and scroll back to where i left off.

i read her middle where "eilish" was written, looking at her torso up and down. analyzing every part of her until she takes her pants off. she teases the band of her thong and the dragon tattoo on her leg simultaneously in front of the camera.

she walks out of frame again for a while returning in the now red lights to shimmy her ass out of her underwear. oh my god to have this video.

"i wish you were here with me." her lip pouted closer to the camera as she picked it up. " 'cause i'm so fucking horny and im tired of pretending its you." she props me up on her bed and her fingers lightly travel on her skin, down her body. she looks at the path she creates and back up at her phone to make sure i can see as well. "fuck," she breaths out as she gets to her lower stomach.

regardless of living in my own apartment i put in my head phones, habit i guess, and i wasn't about to let my neighbors hear my girlfriends moans. they were for me and me only to enjoy.

"mmh" one foot curled, extending into the air as she pulled the last piece of clothing fully off. holy shit this is for real. again, her hands rubbed down her body soothing her, and giving me goosebumps. her knees spread exposing her most vulnerable layers of pink skin where she drew, with her fingers, tight circles to please herself. (and i in the process) letting out sighs of relief at the friction it creates once she does.

i cant contain it anymore, this isn't even porn this was my billie, so fuck it. before she did anything else my hands are in my pants eagerly pushing them down my legs.

im wet, we both were, the distinct noises filling my ears and the empty room.

"i'm ready when you are you know-"

i love this woman

billie grabs a toy from her side, a dark purple dildo we've talked about once or twice and spit on it looking directly at my eyes through the screen.

"-oh fuck." it slides in. "i love you is all, if you ever end up seeing this y/n -fuck" she goes in again. she sets her foot up higher, leaning on the wall, on her bed, in front of the phone. "oh my god, fuck."

she picks up speed going faster and faster. each time sliding in and out with more ease because of the juices around the toy. i can see the cum around her hole accumulating and being dragged with the toy again and again and wonder what she'd look like with it gone. how wet she'd be for me and how much i'd actually get to lick up.

"mmmh y/n, fasterr." she bites her lip and grabs onto one of her boobs.

i quicken the pace on myself, the laps on my clit harsher and quicker while billie changes the angle of the dildo upwards to hit her front wall better. she noisily pounds her insides on my screen.

"god" she says with eyes closed continuously pumping in the purple silicone.

i thought i'd hold off so i could cum at the same time as her, i'd be close soon. i was close simply by seeing her like this.

billies hand let's go of the toy and it involuntarily slides out from her by itself revealing a wet mess. she laid down now her head rested on the mountain of blankets her foot was previously on. she spread her legs wide by each side of the bed and scooped up her own wetness.

I take the same two fingers she does and reconnect them on my bundle of nerves in unison with her letting out a moan when i imagine her fingers instead of mine. to think she was doing the same in this moment was beyond sexy. the situation of it all was, she was.

i tried my best to mimic billie playing with her folds and then settling back on her clit. dragging up and down, clockwise and counter.

"fuck i'm gonna cum." she sounded frustrated her normal voice peaking through in a rough tone. but so was i, frustrated in the way i couldn't cum just yet. all it would take is a single circle more and i couldn't stop. selfishly i continue going the pleasure building up so much quicker than before and all at once.

"ohh fuckk ohh fuck y/n yess." the words made me tingle and feel better tipping me over the edge. a very very high edge.

i go until i couldn't take anymore laying there left to play with my wet lips while i hungrily watch billies legs shake off the mattress. her moans were just perfect. I couldn't help but think of them in person, what it would be like having her shake off of me, having her in front of me. when she finishes there's so much oozing out of her.

i imagine her taste, if it's anything like the natural taste of her lips i'd surely go crazy.

"fuck baby," she gets on all fours, turning around for a dripping pussy in front of the camera that she looks back on to dip her fingers in and then taste. "mm. only 5 days." she lays down on her side as if it all didn't just happen and we were on facetime calling. her boobs fall pretty, not that it's all i'm looking at. well maybe they are. "can you believe it? I get to see you Monday, we only have this weekend left and then i get to see you Monday."

it was 4 nights now, since it was the early morning of a thursday. my guess is she was contemplating whether to send it all night. regardless she was so cute there laying in awe. i couldn't wait to see her either i almost went to respond when i remembered it was just a video.

"what does it matter anyway you've never seen the other ones." other ones.. "i guess that means i can say anything huh... well whether you see this one day or not I'm so in love with you y/n. it's day like 4 of these videos until you're here. i know i started early, i couldn't wait for it to be one week." her fingers go and play with the frayed parts of her comforter shyly covering herself partially. "okay well it's kinda not the same when you don't reply so...call me or i'll call you when you're home from work. ugh of course you don't know that but i'll call you. i love you, ok muah, bye my love ."

oh my god