No. They can't unplug me yet. I need to move. To show a sign. Everyone is saying Goodbye. I can't die yet. Tobias needs me. The last thing I hear is Tobias begging me to move. I try to move my eyes,but it doesn't work. The doctor starts to count. I need them to open. Now. My eyes flutter open and my eyes burn from the light. I see all my friends crying. They saw me. They know I'm awake. I try to talk,but my mouth is so dry. A nurse helps me get some water. I try to move but it hurts to much. "hi guys" I say weakly and try to smile. They smile back and Uriah waves. "I'm sorry" Tobias says. He did nothing wrong. It wasn't his fault. "You did nothing wrong." I say and smile. My eyes flutter shut from exhaustion. I've been trapped in a mental prison for days. Thank God. I needed to see them. I love them. I fall asleep and dream. I dream of my parents. It wasn't a nightmare. A happy dream. I got to talk to them and hug them. I wake up and hear Tobias. Apparently I have to get my stitches out. The doctor explains and I agree. Tobias walks out as they put an oxygen mask over my face.

I wake up and he is sitting next to me. "Can I have a mirror?" I ask and he rolls a large one in front of the bed. "I'm hideous." I say and sob. My head is shaved and scarred. My whole body is covered in jagged scars. "No you aren't. You are beautiful and I love you with all of my heart." He says and I smile. I know I'm not. Johanna has one scar down her face. My entire face is covered in scars. I'm a freakshow. Tobias pulls my face into his chest and I cry. I fall asleep to his heartbeat. His familiar scent makes me feel safe and protected. I love him more than he knows.

I wake up several hours later and I look at Tobias. He's sleeping in the chair next to me. A doctor comes in and walks to the foot if my bed. "When can I leave?" I ask right away. "Slow your roll. You can leave tomorrow." He says. Finally,I can leave. "We have given you some painkillers to take with you." He says and I smile. "Thanks" I say and he nods. As the door closes,Tobias wakes up. "I get to leave tomorrow." I say,giddy with excitement. He laughs. He's glad to see me so happy. A few minutes later,the gang walks in. They haven't seen me since I got my stitches out. They walk in and gasp. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. "Hi" I say and look down. "I know. It's bad." I say. I can tell that they regret it. "No dip." Uriah says and I laugh. He always knows how to make me laugh. "I get to leave tomorrow." I say. "Finally I have someone to shop with" Christina says happily. They all sit down and a nurse comes in and distributes my many pain killers. "Geez." Zeke says. "You try being held captive and beaten with a belt for hours and hours." I say. They looked shocked. I guess they didn't expect me to joke about it. Once they catch the drift,they laugh. "There are a lot of cameras waiting for you outside." Chris says. "Oh great. I don't need to be seen by more people." I say and look down. There is a knock on the door. "Come in." I say. It's Caleb. He looks at me and starts to cry. He sits on the edge of the bed. "I'm okay." I say. When I try to reach for him,my IV falls out. A nurse rushes to put it back in. Tobias looks at the floor. He is on the brink of tears. I reach my hand and put it on the his. He looks at me and I smile. Caleb stops crying and looks at me. I smile a little. He is still shocked by the scars. I think thats why Tobias is upset. He thinks that it's his fault. "I know it looks hideous." I say,pointing to my face and laughing. "At least I get to leave tomorrow." I say. "You should have seen all the pills she takes. Woah." Zeke says and I laugh. Caleb looks at me like I'm a kicked puppy. At least puppies have hair. After a while of visiting, everyone piles out. I look at Tobias and he has tears in his eyes. "Whats wrong?" I ask him,tracing circles on his hand. "I did this to you. You have a life sentence because of me" he replies and tears start to stream down his face.

I scooch over and wave him over. He sits next to me. "You did nothing wrong. You didn't do anything to me and you never have." I say. He still looks down. I pull his chin up. "Look at me." I say softly. "You did all that you could. I'm alive. I'm fine" I say. He smiles. "I know but..." I cut him off with a kiss. I pull back and smile. "I love you" he says. "I love you too" I say. "I love you three." He says. "I love you Four" I say And we laugh in unison.