I never knew you could feel the pain

of your own heart breaking;

So physically.

It's killing me.

It's nothing like I ever thought it'd be.

No, it's worse than anything I could've ever dreamed.

And now I can't make it stop.

There's no magic cure.

There's no getting up.

It pulls you down and steals your strength.

It turns your soul a little colder everyday.

You feel hopeless.

You feel so lost.

I wanna scream

But I can't fight it off.

This broken heart shit

Ain't for the weak.

When you love someone

You give them everything.

It was 14 years for me.

3 kids and a new last name.

I let love conquer all of me.

Until it made me blind.

I was so naive.

How did I not see what was right in front of me?

Now I'm feeling foolish

And I'm so ashamed.

I gave up half of my life starting at age 16.

I truly did believe that we had a forever kind of love.

Now I wonder what could've happened for me

If I would've seen exactly who he was.

It's such a shame that I'm so fragile now.

I would've walked to the end of the earth for him.

Now I'm just crying on the ground.

It's been 3 years since we went our separate ways.

Why does this still hurt like it was yesterday?

I don't think I'll ever move on.

'Cause I just can't let it go.

I miss the way I always thought

That we were perfect and so did you.

Now we're over and I'm just broken.

You seem fine now without me.

And I wonder how you're finally coping.

'Cause I can't stop missing everything that I thought was real.

I just don't see a future for me without you here

And I'm ready to give up,

But I know that I can't do that.

I just wanna make the pain fucking stop.

'Cause it still hurts so fucking bad!

I hope you're happy.

And I really do mean every syllable put into that.

I wish you nothing but the best.

Even if it makes me fucking sad.

Because that's just the way that love works.

I'll probably always love you,

Even though that's the reason I'm still so hurt.

The irony is exactly why I can't move on.

I'm too weak to let you go,

But I'm too strong to stop holding on.